The hut of gl/doom: ttc with the emphasis on trying!

[delilahbelle]

A supportive and slightly fluffy thread for those dealing with the issues of ttc longterm, whether with assisted fertility or not.

It will be weird! I don't believe it's real yet though. It's strange on the 'other side' Instead of being jealous when I see a bump I now panic slightly! I shall be testing tomorrow then hopefully phoning the clinic to arrange a scan and working out how I'm going to fit in collecting more of those blasted progesterone tubes of doom between getting my hair done, having the car serviced, a busy week at work then heading to MIL's birthday party at the weekend. I have literally no idea how I'm going to survive that one sober! Got myself a lovely bodycon dress which I will be wearing despite the bloat which makes me look about 5 months gone. I tried it on yesterday and DH, bless him, said 'Ooh, you're getting a bump already'. I felt quite bad when I had to inform him it's just bloat

Hehe :-) they are awful the tubes!! I hate it but I guess it's for the best.

Pink you definitely do not need to feel guilty! Two years is enough time for anyone to serve in this bloody game. So lovely to have a June bub, birthday parties in the back garden...

Devil bless your DH :) You made me laugh about your MIL's party - the kind of event where a glass of wine in hand is a necessity? No better reason to remain sober than the one you have though!

That's what I thought summer... How's everyone feeling today?

Booking apt went well bloods ouch! 3 tubes! And she gave me a pot to wee in with fmu and deliver back to the doctors... Grrrrreat!
Apart from that all normal just waiting for a 12 week scan to come through now although very excited for my scan on Monday at the clinic but a bit sad as they will then officially discharge me

Well I think I've been a bit of a dope, discovered taking my temperature that when I thought it was 36.1 it was actually 36.7 which means its all going fine. But this has made me think......can you ovulate but not produce an egg? I should know this shouldn't i? Feeling quite positive today even though it's my first day back at work. But on the downside feel period is on its way. Hope everyone's doing ok.

God read that back and it sounds like I've just blurted out all of my mind on here- sorry!

It must all be so exciting for you pink!! I don't think I'd be able to contain myself! Hehe.
I've had a few pains on my left side today which have really made me sit up and go 'ouch' so I hope it's wee eggy popping out.

Evening folks. Official test was a stonking great BFP so booked in for scan on the 22nd and have picked up more progesterone. Told my boss today as I need a risk assessment etc. He was so pleased for me bless him, I was welling up! He was asking me questions about what stuff I'm supposed to avoid and I had to explain that I have absolutely no idea as I've never really thought this far ahead

Waiting, don't apologise for the mind-dump! I have no idea re. ovulation, what does Dr Google say?

Sounds promising Flixy

Glad your appointment went well Pink. Huge steps we're taking here

Seems to be a lovely happy positive vibe in the hut which is fab
Hope everyone's ok. The side effects of metformin have settled. Quite happy that it's that and triple dose clomid for one month more then surgery - I like to have a plan of attack so to speak
Have a lovely evening x

So glad to see everyone doing so well.

Waiting, you can't ovulate but not produce an egg because ovulating is producing (and releasing) an egg but there could be another reason why your temps are changing - sorry not sure if I entirely followed what was happening there?

Flixy, that sounds like it could well be the wee eggy, hooray!

Mands, I'm glad you're feeling happier about the met & clomid now. Like you said, it's definitely good to have a plan of attack.

Devil, that's wonderful that your boss is being so supportive and helpful. Now you get to actually look on the Pregnancy threads...

Pink, I'd of thought you'd be glad to see the back of the fertility clinic! :) What did they need 3 tubes of blood for?! Ouch!

Not feeling sick today there's time yet tho

Hi all, hope you are all doing ok. Bit of a miserable day here today. Great auntie (who was like my grandma)'s funeral today. 93yrs old and only 14 people at her funeral :( made me feel very mortal and I sobbed buckets. Day 27 of my cycle and I can feel my body geering up for my period. My boobs feel like udders and for the first time I'm having stabby crampy pains in my lower abdomen which I imagine is due to me ovulating for first time. (thanks summer for the info, sorry I was so waffly) so I'm snuggled up with dh and cat on the sofa eating chocolate. :)
Hope you are all having a good evening x

Oh waiting, I am so very sorry to hear that. Death is so, so hard and there is nothing anyone can say to take the pain away. I'm glad that you sobbed buckets - sounds strange but it's so much better to get it all out. I hope you can take a little comfort in the fact that she had such a long life - just think of all the changes she would have seen! - and now she is at peace for ever.

DH, cat and chocolate are a recipe for feeling better :) AF arriving is not such a bad thing - you can get on with the clomid - or those symptoms could mean something else!

Here's a bit from one of my favourite poems which I find comforting when thinking about death.

"I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love,
If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles.

You will hardly know who I am or what I mean,
But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre your blood.

Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you."

Thank you so much for your msg "summer" the verse made me cry it was really beautiful. She was such a wonderful lady, but by the end she had dementia, and just wasn't "her" anymore so it was a blessing I suppose. Just so sad.
Certain symptoms are af and not anything else but I still have a little daydream about it everynighy beforr i go to sleep.
Still feeling v mopey today, buy certain tommorrow will be a better day.
Hope you are all ok.

Hi waiting, I hope today is that better day for you.

It's pretty quiet here, how's everyone else getting along atm?

I've got my day 15 bloods tomorrow - to see whether the HCG jab got me to ovulate or not. If it hasn't then I just don't think clomid's going to work for me - however the positive thing about this board is that, whereas I was petrified of IVF before, I'm now actually rather excited about it!

Ditto summer about IVF!
Hope you're feeling better today waiting
Hope everyone else is ok.
I'm off to Spain with work tomorrow for a week, will try and log on out there. Take care all x

Here just lost a mega long message
Will probably post it after work x

How are we all this weekend (almost)?

I'm good - incredibly tired but still waking for 2-3 hours most nights for some reason. Sore boobs and 'hungry but not hungry' but otherwise fine and only 13 days til scan. Telling the parents today as both sets are in the same place for the weekend as it's MIL's birthday do tomorrow. Going to have to threaten severe repercussions if they tell anyone else before 12 weeks

Devil that's so exciting about telling your parents-it's something I can't wait to do if I ever get that far!! I bet you just can't wait!

I think I had a positive opk his morning, the 2 lines look as dark as each other but I've had no other symptoms so I'm doubling myself now!

Hope everyone is well and feeling positive for the weekend

Awww devil! They'll love it let us know how it goes

No sore boobs for me and sickness only really in the early morning and before bed so am managing well at work just want another scan can't wait til Monday am dreading a missed miscarriage especially after we saw the heart beat 2 weeks ago.

Oh devil, how lovely! How did they react? I bet they were over the moon.

I wanted this cycle to work so much partly so we could give the ILs an early scan piccie for a Christmas present...

Flixy, sounds good! Get thee and thy DH to bed pronto!

Pink, I'm sure that heart is still going to be beating away strongly on Monday. You'll have to put a pic of the little pippin on your profile!

Well everything is a bit weird with me right now. I had the HCG jab on day 9 and bloods on day 15, which showed progesterone of 14. Obviously not great but better than 0 I suppose.
Today I went in for a dildocam (because of the slightly weird prog results) and it looks like I've ovulated (due to fluid in the ovary) though there's also a new 18mm follie - that was on the right side, which was weird, because the 18mm last time was on the left side!
All very confusing and I'm basically going back for bloods on Tues to see if there's a change in the prog numbers and to make a plan - I think I might be moved onto the gonal f injections if no uptick in prog.

Bladder infection seems to have got worse and I had really bad kidney pain last night, I told the nurse and she's getting my pee tested over the weekend, she is a true legend. So I guess I'm getting lots of news next Tuesday

Hope everyone's having a lovely weekend! DH and I saw Argo last night, SOOO good - really recommend if you like tense thriller type things.

Hi all,
I had my hopes up so much for this month but it looks like the clomid hasn't worked. I had a wipe of bright read blood yesterday morning (sorry for tmi) and some stomach pains and a brown gloop and nothing since. Period due tommorrow so I know its on its way :( got really upset at work yesterday when I got in and they sent ne home so me and dh spent the afternoon snuggled on the sofa chatting and talking things through. I think everything just caught up with me: how this time 8wks ago we thought we'd be going down the adoption root, then we got given the clomid, then my great auntie died. It's just all got too much but I feel a lot better today, ready to try again when my period arrives. pink your baby will be fine, I'm excited about your scan.
summer how do you feel about it all? Poor you with kidney infection- I hate them! We're meeting our friends for lunch in a bit and then tommorrow I'm going early Christmas shopping with two of my old school friends so a nice weekend planned. Hope everyone else has a nice wknd.

Thanks everyone hopefully so... At the in laws today everyone's gone out mil to a quilting class and dh and fil to pick up dh's new motorbike so all alone with 7 dogs

Sorry to hear about the wipe but its not over till its in full flow keep positive and have a good weekend

Weird about the prof level and scans but hopefully Tuesday will bring some good news for you x x

waiting I'm glad work sent you home, it sounds like you really needed that time to talk and think with your DH. As you say, your life has been a real rollercoaster for the past two months, and actually the clomid and all the hormones that it gets going round your body just exacerbate the already stressful situation, and of course that's without dealing with a terrible bereavement.
Great that you feel better today but do take things slowly - I know I've had terrible ups and downs over the past month and sometimes the downs take you by surprise when you think you were all better, but anyway, starting a new cycle is always a positive thing.
And Christmas shopping and wrapping pressies is bound to lift anyone's spirits :)

I'm feeling surprisingly okay about everything. As DH pointed out - at the first appointment he came to, we got given clomid. At the second appointment, we got given the HCG jab. At the third appointment, we found out that I might have ovulated, even if not strongly (?) enough to hike progesterone to an acceptable level. So, we are moving forward, albeit inch by inch, and there's no rush (must keep reminding myself of this!)

If I am going to move on to the gonal f jabs next cycle, I think I might wait til the new year. DH is away on business a fair bit in December then we're on a 10 day holiday (YAY) over Xmas/New Year and I'd like to be able to just relax and enjoy it.

Hope everyone else enjoying the weekend - devil, let us know how it went with the fam!

Grrrr just when things were going ok my little darling staffy 2.5 years decides to run at a step misjudge it run to fast and slice her foot open and back pad!!! Emergency vets thanks to LOADS of blood loss and £234 later an emergency op tomorrow to try and save her pad although we have told them to get rid of it as over 50% is hanging off and apparently the skin might not take and heal... Fantastic!

Plus we had to leave her with the in laws as my dad is laying a wreath tomorrow for remembrance and we couldn't miss it so an hour drive home tonight church in the morning and then have to go back tomorrow... Happy days!

As far as I know pippin is still good another scan on Monday will tell us more hopefully still a heartbeat have been feelin less sick but I am nearly 10 weeks and still no bleeding so that must be a good sign