The hut of gl/doom: ttc against the odds

[PhoenixFromTheFlames]

This is a safe haven for those ttc with difficult, with ?sub-fertility or sub-fertility labels. Where like minded people offer encouragement at times and commiserations at others.
I've decided the theme is Cocktail style: Flanagans. With a pink neon sign: Cocktails and dreams. Blinkity blink.
Newbies are welcome. Come share your tales of woe

Yes it really is lovely. Such a nice part of the world :) I've just got back from swimming in the pool. Throwing caution to the wind during the tww and had a sneaky jacuzzi!
maybe remind me where you're at cycle wise?
Q volunteering such be an enriching experience, not a chore that leaves you feeling rotten, especially when it's time away from family. Will you consider volunteering elsewhere in the future?

Phoenix that sounds lovely! I always think that if i do "naughty" things in the wait time ( for me never two weeks) it will make it more likely i'll be pg, like tempting fate?!

Im cd39, my app (which averages my cycle to give me likely fertile and due on dates) lists me as 7 days late but if i go by EWCM and CP i believe i ov'd somewhere between 24-27 feb cd27-30.. Altho im not sure ive read the signs correctly?! Any road up, i will wait until the weekend test if needed but i am fully expecting AF hoping against it though

What about you Phoenix? I have cheap opks sat in a drawer so i will use those next cycle whether they work or not is another matter!

Due around Sunday...very, very emotional and struggling to make decisions. Could just be pms.....I'm fortunate in that my cycles are pretty regular. Ff reckons I'm due Sunday but given that my last three cycles have been 26 days, I'd be anticipating Saturday instead....
Yes am definitely tempting fate, drinking wine, jacuzzis, etc!
Let's hold hands as we wait!

I think it was serendipitous me calling it a day on that volunteer role. I also do another one, though very low commmittment. I was supposed to mentoring an allottment with a charity, but it went completely silent after initial contact. Today I had an email from my training mentor to say they'd been in touch and raring to go, and am I still interested. So now I can get my teeth into that. Most of it is remote advice but I can attend in person to if I want to.

I got a text late last night, my TTC buddy who got pregnant had her baby yesterday. Six weeks early! but both doing very well.

Well that's good news then, sounds like you'll be able to give yourself more to a project you'll enjoy.
Must be strange that your friend has had her baby but since it was early and all, glad to hear they're both ok.
I'm all over the shop today. Been very weepy, struggled to make decisions. Feel like need to pee a lot....had some spotting. Think I'm either diffed or more likely brewing a uti

Ah queen a good day for you then in a sense, glad mother and baby are well, 6 weeks isnt to bad in this day and age i suppose.

A girl i worked with had a baby this week, she had fertility issues and conceived on clomid, so even though we hadn't always seen eye to eye i am quite pleased for her.

Phoenix lets be patient as if together! I am not sure if mine will be two weeks or longer but hey ho, trying hard not to over think etc! Given the blood incident unsure when i would test? Doubtful it will come to that..

I am so happy for my friend, I did cry a little when I got the text (which arrived so late because she wanted to tell me before her partner got home and announced it to the world).
What is quite lovely is that a mutual friend who knows what I'm going through sent me a heartwarming message to check I was ok, because she's been in my shoes and said she knows how hard it can be to smile and be happy when it's tearing you up inside. Just knowing that a friend was thinking about me really helps.
I have to admit that I had about an hour yesterday when it did hit me, and I got very emotional. Not in a 'why her and not me' way - just a 'why not me'....and the fear that it may never happen.

Fingers crossed for you phoenix

queen i think thats a normal reaction, you'd have to be a saint nit to feel a bit 'why not me' the age i am atm means alot of friends and acquaintances are having firsts and seconds.. My reaction is a sliding scale from a full on hateful tantrum to oh thats nice, small twinge of . I can admit that here, and to DP. Im obviously grateful for DS, I adore him and then feel selfish for wanting more... Its a difficult thing. I have a faith but not what id describe as a strong faith, so at times it raises more questions than answers...

Sorry im rambling again!

Same for me. I was the first in my social circle to have a baby. (i've moved on from that social circle since splitting with DS dad, but still in touch with some of them). Now most of that circle are onto their second (and even third) babies...
This friend that has just had her baby is part of another social circle, it's the third baby in six months amongst these friends and another couple have just announced they are pregnant. She's at the same stage I would have been had I not lost the pg at the beginning of the year. It was announced on a closed forum we use and someone who doesn't know what i'm going through made a quip about it being fertile 'round ere'....i cried.

I love my DS more than anything or anyone else in the whole world. I get such joy from him. So does my DH, but I want so much to give him the experience of being father to his own child. I want so much to have a child with such a wonderful, loving thoughtful man. At the moment I'm struggling to envisage a future where we don't have that. But I have to consider that it's a possibility.

Not impressed went for a blood test at the hospital and after poking and prodding both arms they have sent me to the blood room... What a lovely name they don't open till 9.30am so now I'm sat here not only can I not get pregnant now it's not only my eggs that don't do as there told, it's my blood as well... Stop the bus... I wanna get off

Queen i feel slightly similar, i want a second dc as i feel like DS would benefit so much from a sibling, i feel a bit like im letting him down. In a lot of ways actually! Ahh its one of those days!

Pink that could be a good sign if u are like me... The nano second (it seems) i was pg with DS my veins just shut up shop! They were having none of it! To the point that for my labour drips (3 of the frickers) they ha to call an anaesthetist!! Before DS i was a blood giver had great veins, so it could be a good thing. Fingers firmly crossed for us all, it a cruel and unusual punishment to struggle like this!

Hey everyone, happy Friday!

I was able to have my endo appointment brought forward from end of August to beginning of may, soooo happy that things may finally be moving.

Annoying thing is that I could have had an appointment for another 2 weeks time but I knew that my dad has an appointment that same afternoon at the same clinic...couldn't risk bumping into him and my mum as I don't want them worrying about me.

Oh flixy thats fab news! Is there no way u can take the apt and just fib to your parents if you were to bump into them? Glad you got it moved though!

I had thought about it maybe but it's a really small department and the clinic only runs for a few hours one day a week so I'd definitely run into them! It's not so bad tho, only another 8 weeks as opposed to 6 months

Great news flixy at least now you have something to aim for :)
That sucks pink, did they get your blood in the end? Are you struggling a bit today?

Yea I was transferred to the blood room (lovey isnt it) they do it all day every day so yea got eventually 4 pin pricks later arms are aching a bit hehe was a bit disappointed about not getting the results tho they said they'd be back same day (as I had gone to the hospital to have it done) but when I phoned at 3.50pm they said not yet and to phone on Monday lunchtime ish it's all a bit of a waiting game although it's nice to go back to normal sex sorry tmi coming up but dh and I woke early like 4.30 for some dtd hehe not intentional I might add its not like we synchronised alarms

And if all else fails consultat appointment on 27th (we pre-booked) for ivf

Just. Quick one has anyone had ivf? Do you happen to know when you pay for it? At consultation first appoinent after that or what?

Good news on the appointment like you said the end of August is a massive wait so woohoo for you

Fingers crossed for everyone else shall we have a cycle update as we all know where I am (not far I know) hehe

Cd41 for me, POAS today negative so will just wait for AF i suppose.. This is what bloody annoys me, no idea whats going on , can only speculate why AF always late... FUFO day for sure!
Pink glad they managed to get blood in the end.
Flixy I see your logic espesh if its same clinic, i wish no one knew abt us really ad i am getting fed up with questions!!

Hello, tis I, phoenix. Ive gone back to my original name.
Af has just arrived here so my sympathies maybeB. DH asked if it was time to poas, I said the cramps had set in, when I checked she'd snuck in in the night :( at least it's Saturday and we have no real plans but I'm getting my hair cut which will help me feel better :)
I'm not sure anyone on had ivf this thread pink, have you thought about going to the assisted conception thread in conception?

I may go and lurk over there for a bit thanks faith

Sorry about AF but at least you have a relaxing weekend planned with hair cut woohoo!

I honestly can't wait, it's quite a styled cut but it's grown too long. Be great to tidy it up :)

Well update for today... Just got home after having a new tat... I've got one on my right wrist that reads 'believe in dreams' and my new one on my other wrist lengthways reads 'you never know how strong you are until you have no choice' both have some swirls and tasteful patterns too! It's lush but mega sore!

Just typed a long response... And it wouldnt bloody post!! Shows u how the day is going!
Faith for AF, love name change have reverted myself. Haircut sounds nice!
Pink tattoo sounds lovely! I have 6 i love them!

Im not having a good day at all, im shattered had a run in with a neighbour as she is a cock, and dp at work until 2! Defeated today!

I'm not having the worst af ever fortunately. Co-codamol and a heat patch are helping me out :)
Tattoos sound good pinky. I don't have any. Tempted but I have a low pain threshold and I'm fickle so I worry I'd get bored with any I got quickly
Yes, I'm happier for changing back to faith.
Tonight is mostly about chilling on the sofa watching Real Steel. I luff Hugh Jackman, yum

AF had begun... tomo will be painful no doubt! Wine chocolate an upstairs downstairs for me tonight

The hut seems like it needs some luck so today i phoned for my blood test results and my progesterone was 48.6 woohoo!

Not very big in the grand scheme
Of things but it enough to have brightened my day