Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

Welcome lady. Sorry you've had such a terrible time. You are free to vent here and get it all off your chest.

i second the welcome to lady

I know I sometimes tend to only post here when I'm upset and want a rant. I suppose it's because the rest of the time i'm feeling strong enough to just get on with it.
The Hut is just exactly the place you should come if you feel the need to be a bit 'me, me, me'.....We (unfortunately) all know exactly how that feels.

I do pop in and read any new posts on a daily basis, just don't always have time to post.

Feeling a bit stressed here, nothing important but having a lodger means I can't relax properly in my own home.....

evening all
well so much for waiting a week, dh made me do it, because i am being such a mardy cow at the minute. i bit his head off and i have cried today over nothing, i don't do that, normally. anyway the upshot was bfp on a digital so no squinting at lines.
slightly numb really; don't really feel i can believe it just yet. i desperately want to be ecstatically excited but i just can't, even though i have gagged on my toothbrush two nights on the trot! sort of think that i will get to scan and there will be no heartbeat, like last time; perhaps i will feel more positive as time goes on
how's everyone else tonight?

Oh wow broc! Talk about mixed emotions eh? Will you be off to the GP for advice when it's sunk in?
I am chilling out at home, DH has gone to a charity quiz thing. I do like having the house to myself. I've eaten crap, watched Glee :) and generally enjoyed myself. Very miffed to have such tender buzzwams. I'm only cd19 and I don't even think we've dtd this cycle.....Don't feel like drinking either. What the...?

Oh and another fb announcement. It is her third kid. I am pig sick with

thanks faith i am just gonna hang here quietly for a bit; i won't say much, promise. there is still a long way to go and i'm not entirely convinced yet.....

Gah it lost my heart felt post!
What I wanted to say was to qualify I do not want you to feel uncomfortable here. You need the hut, especially at the moment! I understand that secondary IF issues, especially with losses like yours, are not easier than primary, just different and equally crap!
I will chose to be happy for my friend. She had a rubbish time, abusive exH. It is great that she is now in a happy relationship and moving forward :)
I had a very strange dream that DH had a baby, yes he gave birth standing up. But I held our little girl in my arms and she smiled at me with a full set of teeth, seriously I think the dream has left me broodier than normal. But in a way it was such an amazing dream to cuddle her it made me happy. Is that weird?

Aaa faith you're so sweet! I didn't think anything of it. I will just sit quietly though; partly coz I don't have anything to say, and partly coz I know announcements are not common in the hut

Well I will assume you are lurking even if not posting and squeeze you have every so often. I have been rather paranoid this week. I hope it doesn't last. It's not good!

your hand! Honestly!

Wow good news for you broc

Well, triggered on Monday night so assuming ovulation happened Tuesday or Wednesday I'm about 5dpo feeling rough, can barely move for cramps chiilin on the sofa with hubby and a brew hmmm

Hope you feel better soon pink. Glad to hear DH is taking care of you :) take care of yourself.
I am feeling in fine fetal (sp?) today. Got up at 8 did all the ironing. Been to church and since I got back I have painted the bathroom! Ok only ceiling and two walls - other two are tiled - but it looks so much better. Think I am nesting.

Thanks x

Looks like you've had a busy day

thanks pink hope your feeling rough is significant.
faith maybe you are nesting - i painted our front room last week oh, and it's spelled fettle - northern word for mood (i love my dialect)!

I did think fettle but the other spelling came up! Yes bathroom done, pictures on my profile if you wanna peek. Bathroom was minging not painted for some time so I'm pleased to have done it. DH is so shocked by my positive attitude he's taken a photo to keep as a momento. Weird considering af is only anticipated 6 days away!

Hi all. Been for DH's appointment. It's pretty good news...I think. Bit vague....the anxiety has probably caused the initial infertility, the increased anxiety resulted in him needing meds. The meds may have caused problems with his swimmers! Plan is to stop the meds and scan his brain to see if he's got one, ha! and see which is causing it. Either way he thinks it's treatable and once his hormones are back in the normal range I'll should get upduffed. course that will simply put us back in the 'normal' time frame so we'd be in the odds of 80% chance of conceiving within a year :(
We've both relaxed massively since the appointment.

that all sounds pretty promising! how does dh feel about it?

Oh he was a nightmare before! But he was a good consultant, left the ultimate decision about the meds up to him so he feels more in control. He actually feels ready to come off the antidepressants and was pleased to get the green light. I think he's relieved to get the appointment over with and pleased because at least we're finally doing something proactive.

Gah... bit of a whinge coming up...

Stupid stupid cow at work had a go at me today. Why? I basically did some work and offered it to one other person (to save them having to do it) and forgot to offer it to her. She asked me today if I had done it, I sad yes, she was welcome to a copy, where it was, but that she might want to check if it was appropriate for her as it hadn't been for someone else. She then corners me at the end of the day, accusing me of making extra work for her, she's got enough on her plate, called me unprofessional, told me everyone in the department agreed with her...

I apologised for the initial oversight, but honestly? NOT MY PROBLEM - she was just as capable as me of sending an email round, so I didn't, well I'm very busy as we all are. The person I'm shared with is a LOT better at offering me resources, and talking to me.

But I now feel all guilty (even though I never set out to do anything) paranoid that I actually am unprofessional, and even more stressed than normal.

So it's not just my fertility that's a load of shit right now.

broccoli excellent news! and cautious congratulations. FX it works out.

Faith good to hear you've got a concrete step forward to take. Sounds like things are starting to work out.

pink hope the 2ww is going well. Do you have an official test day?

Liss and everybody else - hope you are all keeping well.

broc and pink keeping my fingers crossed for you both.

faith glad you got some positive news and a way to move forward.

delilah don't feel guilty or worry that you were unprofessional. If anything she sounds like the unprofessional one and you can bet that 'everyone in the dept' has just made the right noises when she complained to get rid of her. I would hazard a guess that others don't bend over backwards to help her either?

Having being self-employed for a long time I'm now a little nervous about having to work as a part of a team with my volunteering. Us new recruits are going into a well established team, and we've pointed out that some of their working practice is shoddy and chaotic. We're not going to be very popular are we? but quite frankly if the problems aren't rectified I can see my stint as a volunteer being a short one. I'm not prepared to give up my free time and energy to something if I'm going to find it a frustrating and inefficient place to be.

Delilah yea the nurse said the 29th so only 7 more days hehe not feeling confident but chin up eh...

Lissie - thinking of you today, kick toadies ass

Broccolitrees - keeping positive thoughts for you.

Go Lissie! Hope you've got your photo albums packed :) Seriously hope you get the referral you need.
broc how are you feeling?

Thanks for the support trying to stay positive The nurse said I will have definitely ovulated on the ovitrelle so at least I know I have a chance.

Is it sinking in yet broc, hows things?