I had a abortion at 21yo, before i had kids. There is no way at all i would go through that again, i was always against abortion until i was in the situation i was in (abusive relationship, got pg on the pill) i felt ihad no choice, and beleive me i live with the guilt - every day.
I had a nervous breakdown after i had my abortion (i had it done at 12 weeks)i made my decision and went to my GP at 6 weeks, but the waiting list on the NHS would have taken me well past the 12 week stage, so i paid and went private although i still had to wait 6 weeks to have it done.
They actually thought i had 2 uterus's when they did a internal when i went for my initial appointment at the BPAS, so the day i went for the abortion they did a scan, they actually showed me the screen and even offered me a picture once i came around from the operation. if i hadn't of been so numb and totally gutted i would have been disgusted at this, but took the picture and didn't say a word, i still had this scan picture up until a couple of years ago and it had gone all white with age.
They also offered me the "chance" to know the sex but said it would cost a further £50 for this
I still punish myself for what i did, even forced myself to watch that programme last week on abortion, and felt utterly sick and sobbed.
I feel that myself personally, didn't know the facts, i very naively thought my baby at 12 weeks wasn't formed at all, now i know different of course.I think the fact that women can still have a termination at 24 weeks horrific tbh, and obviously think this should be lowered severely.
Anyway sorry for the ramble.