I think that a great deal of our difficulty is that Nel only tried the parts of the trial that he wanted to to secure a conviction
It isn't like on television
His pov imo is that an innocent person ended up dead, whilst locked in a toilet
He worked back from there to see if the person pulling the trigger 4 separate times did so knowing that it would likely end another person's life
I think the whole motive side of things wasn't at all interesting to Nel
I think he was after intent from there he just wanted to show that OP's actions weren't reasonable
This is why we didn't hear about why there was unaccounted for blood above the bed
We don't know why his bedroom door was bashed in
We have no idea why Ms Steenkamp's jeans were on the ground outside the bathroom window
Why didn't he call an ambulance immediately after firing through the door? Why wait until all his other faffing about?
OP and his team tried to muddy the waters by talking about a great love story and the dreadful loss OP is facing and how hard this has been for him.
They have tried to reframe him as a vulnerable, anxious, disabled man
Their focus was why would OP want to kill his great love? He wouldn't therefore it must be a terrible accident and we should feel horribly sorry for him.
It doesn't address the issue is that he killed someone even though he had lots of other options open to him.
He simply didn't act reasonably.
I might feel differently if he had shot once through the door as it was opening or if there had been an intruder and he had hit him by a ricochet or safety shot.
I think we are so used to having an ending that anything unexplained really gets to us now