Cheeseball, i am please to know that you are still there and that when able you can pick up the support that we offer for you. I gasped and cried when i read your posting and felt compelled to send you a message before i have read on. I hope that that is ok. I have to give you my opinion because i feel very strongly that you need to be told. I AM SURE THAT OTHERS HERE WILL AGREE.
A) you did not deprive your DH of his family - Meadows and the legal systems of this country did that.
B) You MUST start to believe that!!!
C) He has NO right to be angry with you.
Perhaps he has just turned his own enormous sadness and grief into anger, but right now i feel very angry that he has made you feel responsible.
YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME, we are here for all who wishe our support(((((())))))