Or it might have had a less horrific few hours/minutes being in control of it's destiny.
It actually reminds me of the way so many people are forced to die in hospital with doctors pounding their chests, wiring them up, trying to force them to come back to life even if it is just for a short time.
I want to be allowed to slip off in my own home when my time comes.
I heard an amazing old woman on radio four once who'd got herself a tatoo on the chest which read, 'Do Not Resuscitate'. (Sp possibly).