I am in the second year of my MA part time at a University well known for its support of mature part time students .So far I have an excellent attendance record and have submitted all pieces of work on time , essays averaging in the high 60s .I love my course and commute a couple of hours to get to classes ,I also have a part time but fairly senior job. This is just to give context.
Currently I am almost at the end of my last taught module ,I think it has been my favourite so far and I have my dissertation to complete.I have done most of the research but feel hopelessly behind and unprepared and unable to focus i just cannot seem to find the headspace or physical time to order my thoughts. I cannot see how I am going to complete my dissertation and a 5000 word essay by mid August and September respectively .I am meant to have 4000 words to my supervisor by Tuesday and there seems no hope at the moment.
Outside work my life since January seems to have fallen apart and there is just no headspace for my course. I had that awful cold and flu which took forever to get over and knocked the stuffing out of me , I am also menopausal which seems to have kicked off big time .
My mother decided to move across the country to live closer (we have a difficult relationship at the best of times) this has involved selling her house , moving her physically up here, finding a rental property , helping her buy a property and generally supporting her in a whole new environment. She has now found a house to buy but it needs all new bathrooms , decorating, carpets and she wants to put in new kitchen and guess who is doing the donkey work on this .DS3 has had GCSEs which despite the fact that he is largely self starting seems to have consumed a lot of time and support and driving backwards and forwards to school as has been on study leave only going in for exams.
Ds2 has extra needs and is coming to the end of an apprenticeship and seems to need me every evening to help with job applications , interview practice etc . Father (not married to mother ) has developed memory problems , he is coping great and has SM for support but we are close and I felt knocked for six by the initial diagnosis as i knew it was his worst nightmare .
Dh is supportive but works long hours in senior role.He thinks I should just give up things , exactly what he isn't specific about but generally takes the view that I do too much and we live our lives in a constant state of chaos.He gets frustrated by my always moaning that I don't have enough time but often lets me down if I delegate due to 'pressure of work'.This will not change , work will always be his priority so its no good just saying I should get him to commit more time because I have tried everything over the last 30 years .
it will break my heart not to complete , this has been a long held dream , but my head is every where,I just keep crying with frustration. .If I ask to repeat the year will I have to change my dissertation topic? Should I just give up ?
Totally overwhelmed by everything , now on top of everything else I have toothache, please someone give me some advice .