Right, this is the first time I've actually admitted this to anybody out loud, I've been making myself sick for nearly 7 years now
I used to be quite big and lost a lot of weight, since then I'm terrified of putting it back on and can't help but throw up
I've been through three pregnancies, was able to refrain from throwing up mostly, although still did the odd time, I just made sure not to eat too much so I wouldn't feel the urge - I put on barely any weight as a result and am convinced I harmed my babies due to lack of nutrition, they were all between 6 & 7 lbs
Nobody knows I do this, is there any way I can fix it without the help of a professional? I don't want people to know
My throat is constantly sore, I brush my teeth 4/5 times per day, I can't eat anything without feeling sick after it, I do try to keep a lot down but at least once per day I give in and bring it back up
Has anybody here had bulimia and managed to beat it without doctors? If so, can you help me please?
Thank you