Hi MaryAnn
Ah, I can see why you were so worried about the tamoxifen now. I am glad you can shelve it for a bit, deal with one thing at a time.
Break it up into manageable chunks - always best with a bloody big issue. That way each chunk is likely to be fine, because your body and mind will have less to deal with, and because you will be thinking more positively, which I am sure is a big factor, if only we could reliably make ourselves do it!
I think it is hard to put these thing sbehind us, however much we want to. My dh has mild depression from time to time, which can be totally debilitating and take all the joy out of life. However much we hope it is behind us when he starts to feel better, it is part of his make-up, and we have to do what we can to guard against it, and prepare for any future outbreak - as do you. people aren't always very patient about issues with the mind, are they? But they are very bit as real and out of our control as anything physical.
That was long-winded, but i wanted you to know that i understand how carefully you must want to guard against a future reoccurrence. The nurses WILL be sympathetic, and will help.
Your work sounds hugely interesting, I'll bear it in mind if dh and I ever need any illustrations for our work (he is a magazine editor - corporate stuff - and I am a PR type). Also if he ever gets round to that book he keeps promising to write!
As for my delay - ah well, I have added ANOTHER two to the list of people who have interfered with my left boob. I may as well just walk stark bloody naked around that hospital, no-one would bat an eyelid.