Tamoxifen - advice please !

[MargaretMountford]

Am going to be starting Tamoxifen shortly, was just wondering whether anyone else is on it and can tell me what it's like ! thanks !

Oh poor you with a black eye. Isn't it odd how you fall a lot harder, and hurt yourself a lot more, than when you were a kid? I am quite clumsy and have done all manner of things that have been really embarrassing because of it. In fact, I had a bit of a spate of it a few years ago, culminating in falling down the stairs in the middle of the night - it remains amystery, no idea how it came about - and still cannot remember the falling bit or the bit leading up to it, at all. I was SO embarrassed to have fallen yet again that I refused an ambulance for over an hour. Apparently I kept saying "It's OK I am just winded".

Turns out I had a broken thigh and a shattered elbow (many metal inserts and screws later, I was still embarrassed, especially as the hospital seemed to think DH and I had had a fight and he had pushed me. Poor DH, a man less likely to thump anyone you could NOT meet. Even when I told him of their suspicions he just said "Well they are only looking out for you. As long as you know I didn't." I think he may be saint

Know what you all mean about the reading - i am having a bit of a go at a biography of Daisy, Countess of Warwick at the moment. God,. those Victorians were a racy bunch.Don't know where they found the energy - personally the hot water bottle idea sounds eminently more comforting to me at the moment Ib fact I am of to the shops shortly, think I might get one myself!

I have lit a candle for MorphFan this morning.

oh that's a lovely thing to do - the candle - lots of good thoughts whizzing to MorphFan...
Cakes' dh does sound lovely and saintly
Hope black eye is a bit better today KurriKurri
Had a horrible dream last night where I was given a death sentence but couldn't think what I'd done wrong...eek.

Ooh crikey that sounds awful. You hadn't been watching Moll Flanders last night, had you? Lots of death sentencing all over the place in that.

Had to put MorphFan's candle out as DH wanted an impromptu shopping session - didn't fancy it myself but still managed to buy a jacket, dress and 2 CDs. had to send him a text in the end to come and meet up with me before i bankrupted myself

Off to relight candle

no I hadn't been watching that, or anything morbid ! it wasn't scary, just kind of matter of fact. Describe new clothes please ! and what cds did you get ? Dh has just bought me the new Richard Hawley

Dream does sound horrid. I had one once when I found a dead baby, and then stabbed it for some reason!!! It had already been dead but I felt no-oone would believe me (and it frankly wouldn't look good what with the stabbing and all...) It bothered me for days.

Clothes - well there is a black and white linen mix dress with a v-neck front and back (am going to a wedding), and also a jacket that is quite formal but sort of pink and purple wool mix (they aren't meant to go together). They were both in the East sale and I got a bit over excited.

CDs - one is a very old Cure one that I had stolen out mf my car once. The other one is jools Holland, who I love. I am dropping major hints that I would like to go to his pre-Xmas concert in Birmingham - we went last year and it was great. Hints don't usually work here though, so I may have to get obvious later.

some of my friends have said it is a recognition of my own mortality, but I think I've been aware of my own mortality for ages ! Maybe it was hotwater bottle induced ?
Jacket and frock sound very lovely - East is nice - a friend of mine is a big fan - I bought myself some shell bracelets there a while ago. Can't play my cd as the pesky thing on the computer is misbehaving as is the cd player,so short of sitting in the car with it I'll have to wait for dh to download it onto something else then transfer to iTunes -you can tell I'm technically minded

hello all, been thinking of Morphfan today hoping she's getting plenty of rest and support after her surgery. The candle is a lovely idea Cakes.

Black eye is a bit better today thanks, its more colourful but doesn't hurt as much now the bruise is appearing.

I went to my breast cancer keep fit group this morning, but I'm feeling fairly shattered this afternoon - treatment is kicking in. So at the moment I'm lazing in an armchair, with my little dog curled up on my lap, snoring quietly to herself. Having to type one handed as she gets very grumbly if I move around to much.

Jools Holland CD sounds good, I like him too, often watch 'later...' especially when DD is home as she is a fan.

Morning all

Hope a good weekend has been had!

Could be recognition of your mortality you know MAS - maybe a sort of deeper understandng of it? DH had this a while ago - he suddenyl really, really understood that one day he would die: not sure where it came form, but it really knocked him for six. In your case was most likely just a bit of indigestion, though! Let's hope so - that way the feeling will pass sooner!
KurriKurri - have I missed something - wgat treatment is it that you are having? Not meaning to pry, but had thought you were finished. Sorry if you are still going through it? Perhaps I should revisit the thread more closely.

A cuddle with the dog sounds nice even if grumbly. I still miss my (very large) dog - he has been dead for five years now, but he is absolutely irreplaceable. He was an RSPCA mutt who was just the brightest star in my sky (apart from dh - and dd was only one when he passed away). So soppy that even people who were scared of dogs tended to like him - even though he was big and black.

Am sending MorphFan my thoughts and wishes - due out today, I think. And hoping RWU will feel better this week once the frequency of the chemo drops off.

xx to all

arrgghh, you had dropped of my convo's list so re-marking my place- radio not starting today after all as i have man-flu (cue much laying on the sofa drinking tea moaning ) well i'm hoping its man flu and not flu of the piggy variety

Ooh dear, hope it is only the pretend variety as well. Mind you, I imagine lying on the sofa moaning is preferable to another trip to the hospital, even with the flu.

Were you able to get your car things sorted this weekend, or did the 'flu Kibosh that as well?

We had a pretty quiet weekend (well, afther the "quick drink" on Friday night that turned into a five hour session, with dd getting to be after 11 (we are such BAD parents {hgrin] ) - mind you it was her fault, she was off with a load of her mates playing (it is a vey family-friendly health and social club) - turns out some bigger girls joined up with them and taught them all how to swear. Turns out they weren't very good at swearing,though - dd now thinks Sugar-Honey-Ice-Tea is a swear word {hgrin}

Seem to be having trouble with my hallowe'en emoticons!

looked at cars but my head staring spinning at the different options i just want a car- but it would seem you have to choose between this colour, that colour and this option and that option, manual vs auto vs semi auto vs clutchless manual, all too much for my pretty head so i've put dh on the job and told him i'd like something pretty

thinking it is just normal flu/ cold atm, still able to follow flame's birth thread from the sofa so i can't be too bad

Last time I bought a car I made it really easy on myself, because it is indeed hard (and also boring) - I walked into the showroom ,said "that one" then let DD choose the colour. Admittedly I vetoed the metallic pink, but that's why I now drive a daffodil yellow (and metallic, so even louder) car.

Everyone can see me coming, I could never get away with anything in my car

But then again I can always find it in a car park.

Must head off and have a look at Flame's thread, saw it earlier and was going to have a look - flipping clients, always phone up when you are doing something interesting...

i would like a pink honda jazz but dh is saying it's not a very sensible colour for a car for both of us but as i keep reminding him it is MY car- he is just an accesory

OOh mine is a Honda Jazz - they are absolutely FAB!!!

Do agree ref DH in theory, but if you want himm to accessorise properly and not ruin it all, he'll have to look good in pink (or purple, or another suitable colour) and not many men can carry it off. (My dh only really manages black, grey, blue or beige - so he was very anti the yellow Jazz for quite some time - until he decided that we only needed one car - and now I can't get him out of it .

(Can't wait for him to stop being tight and buy himself a new one - heard him on the phone this morning - hooray!)

hey you two ! all this car talk - we always have Citroens as I love them (dh does too, which is just as well) -I'm not sure I could have a yellow car,it just wouldn't seem right, or pink - ds would refuse to go in it as he is at the age where is is very conscious of things that might be seen as girly or uncool. Our wedding car was a Citroen and the highlight of my day -a black Traction Avant (gorgeous)- I could have spent the entire time riding around in it that I am.
Hope your flu is better soon RWU - whatever kind isn't nice. I got my jab on Saturday (no spleen = supposedly low resistence to infection)- gave them my good arm,remembering not to risk the left one-though am sure it'd be fine.
Hope all is well with MorphFan and that she'll soon be back.

I've decided i'm having a pink Jazz- sod DH

Had docs earlier as was feeling pants- he has decided i have neuropathy (nerve damage in my feet due to chemo) only discovered this because dh mentioned that my feet are always like blocks of ice (and my arse but i didn't mention that, neuropathy in my arse would really be embarassing to admit) So have to go and see neuro cons to see what they can do (tis only a minor inconvenience in the scheme of things but annoys dh immensly) also doc thinks it is only flu of the non-piggy variety.

must run back to flames birth thread- she is taking forever!

yay for pink car decision
and sorry to hear about chilly feet - glad the flu isn't porcine,though still not very nice for you.

yay a baby! at bloody last i won the sweepstake [gloat][gloat]!! Right i can get on with my life now- i have spent the entire day pressing refresh, texting the poor cow and stalking her on facebook and twitter

RWU - is it the cold bum or the cold feet that pisses DH off the most?

Good on you for deciding on the pink Jazz - everyone will see you coming and it will be great. MAS - it is your duty to embarrass your kids, surely you know that??!! You must try harder, I am sure Citroen do cars in an embarrassing colour. (I used to have a Citroen AX GT as one of my many company cars many moons ago, it was lovely - admittedly a sensible charcoal colour, but it had door pockets specially made to fit wine bottles - that's what I call a car!!)

I had to leave the baby thread before anything happened so I shall visit now and see what's what.

oh I remember the wine bottle holders in the AX - that was our first car -it had a daring pinky strip along it's sides which worried me - I like my cars a bit serious

Hiya?

Do you? I spent years having company cars and always liked mine to be sporty and fast - now I pay for them myself I like them to be reliable abd cheap to run

The Ax was great though, wasn't it? I also had a peugeot 205 GTI which was excellent!! But as I say, now I have a 1.2L Honda Jazz. It is so much fun to drive, though - and so quiet and smooth you can't hear or feel the engine running if you pull up.

Hope RWU is feeling better today - and that MorphFan will soon be feeling OK. I imagine a mastectomy is a significantly bigger deal than my puny lumpectomy.

yes, hope you are both doing ok RWU & MorphFan

Hello all, hope your flu is shifting RWU , the pink car sounds great, and well done on winning the sweepstake. When I was due to have our second DC (years ago) DH's work ran a sweepstake on weight and sex - and DH won it, so there were many cries of 'fix' .
If you're reading this Morphfan I hope you're recovering well from your surgery, and home now. Its a big op., be kind to yourself and take things as gently as you can. Pampering is a definite must.

In answer to your question Cakes (and you're not prying - I don't mind anyone asking me about anything) I'm on herceptin treatment for a year. (have had mastectomy, chemo and radio). I go into hospital once every three weeks and have it intravenously. Takes about an hour or so. Also have to have regular echocardiograms as it can damage your heart.

The first few I had made me feel lousy, then it improved a lot, but this time it has come back with a vengeance. I'm so tired and achy, and running a bit of a temp. all the time.Plus constant diarrhoea (I always have that with it). Its very frustrating as I had things to do this week and I'm going to be struggling. Oh well, sorry about the moan. I'm usually pretty positive about treatment, but feeling a bit fed up at the moment.

On a more cheerful note, DD has started belly dancing classes with her friends at uni. and says its great fun. She's also looking for voluntary work as she doesn't have as many lectures this year. But can't decide what to choose.

Have just looked back over this post - I seriously need to pull myself together

Hello - I'll catch up properly tomorrow - but thought I'd drop in quickly to let you know I'm home. Had a bit of a grotty weekend, but all okay now. Will fill you in on the gory details tomorrow.
Hope you are all well