Please come and talk to me I (eeny) URGENTLY need some help or support am in a right old state

[eenybeeny]

I am ttc dc2. Been having terrible nightmares (there is a thread about it in bereavement) and today have been very very tired. I have been throwing up MANY times today managed to do it so my DS who is only 21 months doesnt see. Well I was just sick ALL over the entire kitchen floor and he saw and stood there shaking and crying and he is only just now starting to calm down I am trying to explain Mama has a little boo boo but she is OK. I was sooooo ill with his pregnancy I think I am pregnant again - took a test (a week early) and it says not pregnant but I feel I KNOW I am because this is exactly what happened to me last time around. I dont know. I feel so ill and obviously throwing up a lot and am so so so upset my son is upset over it. DH is working late tonight so I am alone with DS til bedtime and I just feel awful and upset and totally emotional. I feel so so so emotional.

Hi foxy - No I dont like being pregnant. My pregnancy with DS was a nightmare and he was induced early and the whole thing was awful. Had terrible hyperemesis. I dont have any family around - my family are in America. I do have some friends but I hate asking for help. I dont know. Will work on it. All day today I have felt so guilty that DS got so upset seeing me be sick. I know everyone says he will be fine but he just stood there and cried it was awful. Oh well.

I took another pregnancy test today and it said negative but I am hoping its just too early to pick it up (but not so early I wouldnt be getting sick if you know what I mean)

Thanks for thinking of me. Take care.