Am feeling sick to the stomach and numb at the same time. Sister and i haven't spoken for a long time so BIL texted for me to call him back - he was in bits.
Apparently she's been in hospital all day getting tests done. They are transferring her to hospital five minutes from me to do bone marrow tests. The consultant has told them that two blood tests have come back 'erratic' and 'it looks bad' now would they say this before they do the further tests?
Don't know what to do, obviously they don't need me there at the mo. Other than to offer they come here for rest/change of clothes/shower/moral support or i go there immediately they need me i feel totally helpless.
We have already lost a cousin aged 7 to this disease (just after my 21st birthday) and its all i can think about - his big blue eyes and hers both looking at me really scared