I have a very obvious lazy eye as I am blind in one eye and once the eye loses function it does not always appear aligned with the functional eye. I don't think I'll ever find a partner. It makes me feel incredibly ugly. Upon meeting someone, I can't help but think their smile is because of the eye. People's words no longer pierce through, it is more my own words that I do not utter about myself that can hurt. I find everything difficult because of it. It seems to be something that I can't shake off.