Morning @Oneglassisnotenough
Nights are hard when you feel alone, even if surrounded by people.
Putting your crown on will help. Kids are a distraction.
One thing that I learned in therapy was to ask myself 'so how is this behaviour / reaction helping you? If it's not then stop doing it.
Sound simple and is hard to do, but have a real think about that. How is the catastrophising helping you to cope? I suspect it's not. You don't know what the future holds, none of us do. Each time you find yourself heading down that rabbit hole, stop.
Stop and focus on something mundane, in detail. Like chewing a piece of toast. Notice how it smells, watch the butter melt. Notice how your body reacts to the thought of the marmitey toast in your mouth (if you like marmite. I love the stuff
). Anticipate. Take a bite. Notice how your saliva kicks in. What taste does this trigger in terms of memories? Push away the negative spiral of thoughts just for that moment. Small restorative moments will help you to cope. Sounds a bit nuts but it does work.
Get outside today. The sun is shining here and I hope it is where you are. Pack a picnic. Get out of the house. Lie in a park and watch the clouds scoot past. Go on a swing with the kids. Look at the life bursting out in the trees and grass. Breathe it in. Being outside is so healing. Let your body absorb all of that good and sunlight. Feed your body good things.
All of these ideas may be the last thing you fell you can do but trust me, they will help to abate the anxiety. I've been there and had close friends help me through it too. This simple stuff does help you get out of your own head.
Sending calming hugs. Now get showered dressed and out !