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Cancer support thread #82

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MrsPnut · 12/02/2022 22:14

Welcome friends old and new, to the most supportive thread on Mumsnet. Everyone is welcome whatever stage you're at (fears, diagnosis, treatment). Introduce yourself and say Hi

Good luck to everyone having treatment this week. Hugs to all - especially if you're feeling rubbish (physically, mentally, or waiting for results - ugh

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AFB2022 · 17/03/2022 18:08

No, at present no one knows what it is but my dr told me thats what they are now thinking it is. The ultra sound guy was convinced it was a fibroid but after i had mri and saw the gynae consultant he told me it wasn't a fibroid and that its on my bowel and was referring me to gastro. That was 3 days ago so not heard a thing from them yet. I work for the nhs though and my manager did say to me she's really confused and not sure what it could be cos the mass is outside my bowel rather that actually in it. I would have thought gynae would have noticed if it was endo related though.

AFB2022 · 17/03/2022 18:26

3 days, so not long but feels like weeks. Maybe i need some beta blockers. Omg how did they get the ct scan so wrong with the fibroid one? Thank you, i need the hug lol

AFB2022 · 17/03/2022 18:29

Yesss, scanxiety is major. Never had to have any scans before except when pregnant so its very scary to be needing them. Thank you, just worried as well incase they say it is the 'c' word and there's nothing they can do its too late

Fantasea · 17/03/2022 20:14

@AFB2022 apparently, scans don't always give the 'true' picture. Every day feels so long when you're waiting and I find it so hard to distract myself effectively at times like these. Honestly, the beta blockers are a godsend for me, they just take the edge off so perhaps have a chat with your GP. I hadn't ever had anything major wrong with me until my diagnosis at 54 and had only been inside a hospital once to have my DD so I know what you mean about it all being new and scary. Even if (and it is still an if at this stage) it is the c word, they will have a definite plan of action regarding treatment for you. Could you contact gastro and see if your case is 'in hand', I had an issue with a haematology appointment this week as I hadn't heard anything - it turns out my notes hadn't been uploaded which is why my appointment hadn't come through, it's worth checking. You might also get a cancellation. Xx

AFB2022 · 17/03/2022 20:36

I'm the same, the days feel so long and i'm on edge waiting for the postman or everytime the phone rings. Yes i suppose i could contact them and see. Was also thinking surely they would like at my ultra sound and mri pics as well to maybe get an idea of what it is

Fantasea · 17/03/2022 20:46

Yes, gastro will definitely look at your previous images and go from there. I remember the fear of my phone lighting up with a call and still fear the postman to a certain extent, two years on. I would ring tomorrow and see what they say, worst case you're no further forward. In the beginning of all my investigations, I was much too passive, never wanting to ring in case they thought I was being 'a nuisance' and still wonder if that delayed my treatment getting started.

MissSmiley · 17/03/2022 23:48

@AFB2022 I'm really sorry you find yourself here but welcome. I hope you get some answers very soon, I second chasing them to see if you can be seen sooner, the waiting is definitely the worst.

Yesterday morning after the Big Pain attack I had the emergency CT scan. They couldn’t find a reason for the pain but they think the stomach joint is now open! I haven’t had anything aspirated from my stomach all day which is very promising. I’ve been told to eat more soft food and we’ll see how I go but I’m cautiously optimistic that I might not need another surgery🤞

AFB2022 · 18/03/2022 08:20

Thank you. Thats really positive and fingers crossed you don't need another op. I sometimes feel like rocking up to a&e and exagerating the pain and hope they do something but don't want to sit there for hours if they just send me back home

Silkierabbit · 18/03/2022 08:25

Hope you won't need more surgery MissSmiley and that the pain was in a good cause.

SewingBees · 18/03/2022 08:30

@MissSmiley I'm keeping everything crossed for you - you've been through the wringer so I really hope you manage to avoid further surgery. Are your kids coping?

MissSmiley · 18/03/2022 08:44

@SewingBees my kids are doing really well, their dad is staying at my house while I'm in hospital so they are being well looked after, they're coming to see me once a week. I think my oldest daughter is missing me the most x

I'm going to actually ask the surgeon if I can go home today, wish me luck

TwoBigNoisyBoys · 18/03/2022 09:38

Good luck @MissSmiley got my fingers crossed for you! Xx

MissSmiley · 18/03/2022 10:23

Tubes are out and I can go home! He said tomorrow but I don't see why it can't be today, I have a friend visiting this afternoon who could take me home and no one who can come over the weekend.
Just have to speak to the feeding team now, that was my surgeon that agreed

MissSmiley · 18/03/2022 11:12

So the feeding team have put a dampener on things and want me to stay over the weekend so that can check my blood and make sure I’m not at risk of refeeding syndrome, a potentially fatal condition they have to consider because I have had hardly any nutrition for the last five weeks. Monday isn’t that far away x

TopOfTheCliff · 18/03/2022 18:25

@MissSmiley what a rollercoaster you have been on! I hope it levels out for you and you get home soon.

@AFB2022 welcome to the friendliest thread. We all understand about the waiting. Try not to Google it rarely helps. Keeping busy stopped me going nuts.

I had my third Zolendronic acid infusion this week. It was fine, no side effects so far, and I’ve done half of the six prescribed. Woo!
I’m having a happy time getting ready for my big adventure which starts at Easter. I’m reducing the gym sessions and doing a lot of allotment digging to try to get it sorted out before I go away. I still ache but in different places. Life is settling back to what used to be my normal now although I am still battered and scarred.

Love to all going through stuff. Keep going!
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TwoBigNoisyBoys · 18/03/2022 18:32

Does anyone else post on here but the post never appears? I replied to @MissSmiley earlier but it doesn’t seem to be here, mind you, my phone is going nuts so maybe it’s that…or I may have posted on another thread, who knows?! 🤷🏼‍♀️

Anyway, I was saying to MissSmiley it’s a bugger, but Monday will be here before you know it, and you will have more peace of mind after having all your bloods done.

Sending love to everyone as usual xx

Silkierabbit · 18/03/2022 18:37

I think its probably safer to stay in hospital a few days more MissSmiley to check everything is fine now but great you should be home on Monday. Hope your house won't be too trashed. Grin

Glad things are going well Top

I am just waiting for chemo to start on Monday. Managed to get BUPA counsellor changed, not had any sessions yet but original one cancelled me 2 minutes before saying she had a suicidal previous client and was cancelling everyone but had forgotten me. Then said she could not make another appointment but may do Tues or Wed. I said those dates would not work due to chemo and she said I may give you that anyway or I may not contact you then will be Thursday. She sounded very stressed but idea is to relax me. Making progress on DSs schools as well.

Silkierabbit · 18/03/2022 18:38

TwoNoisy I have posted on a few other threads sometimes by accident, really wierd as never happened before. Not sure if its MN or its me having mind on other things but yes you are not alone on that.

TopOfTheCliff · 18/03/2022 21:46

@Silkierabbit it does seem ridiculous that the counsellor is causing you more upset than you would have had if they had never been in touch. Very unprofessional! When you find the right person it will be much easier. Glad you are making progress it all helps.
I kept chickens as a child and when my DC were small. The eggs were such a treat and better than any you could buy. We used to bake with them and the yolks were so orange! I miss them.

mowly77 · 20/03/2022 00:10

Hi everyone. I do have a separate thread on this board about how to tell my 3 year old daughter about my stage IV metastatic breast cancer diagnosis which has been wonderfully helpful ... but I thought I'd introduce myself on here because there is so much MORE isn't there. So much worry and SHIT not to mention ADMIN. I am currently going out of my mind because despite being diagnosed on March 4 the hospital is totally fucking me round and saying there is another 2 week wait to see an oncologist, despite a plan being in place and all drugs decided on ... they're arguing the 4 March wasn't an official diagnosis because it was from CT scans & there was then a wait whilst they got results from fluid drained from my lungs (mets on lungs , plura & sternum). I hate my consultant - he's an utter wanker. Yeah. So that's a shame.

I was so mentally crazy and angry on Friday, I had endless calls from the hospital trying to give me this crap and flannel about waiting times when I was trying to enjoy sitting outside having a little picnic with DD. Now I'm chilling ready to fight them again on Monday.

Flowers to everyone on this thread for everything they're going through.

Bastard cancer. Mine fucked off for ten years – can't believe it's come back now when I have a beautiful 3 and half year old to raise.

Silkierabbit · 20/03/2022 03:34

Welcome Mowly and so sorry you are going through this so young with a little one. Sorry its slow at the hospital and your consultant isn't nice. There is a lot of waiting which is very stressful but if its going over normal waiting times with a consultant not being nice it maybe worth putting a complaint in via PALS as its stressful enough without having to deal with that as well. I had a horrible first consultant and they were telling me long delays at the start and I put a complaint in as it was so stressful dealing with a consultant who would just say you are probably at stage 4, no questions they are pointless, walk out and knowing had cancer inside me and being told to expect a 3 month wait before treatment. I cc'd the Chief Exec guessing the e-mail and all got sorted same day - operation by end of week and different surgeon who was the kindest, loveliest surgeon you could wish for. The staff are all under horrendous pressure and funding shortages but you are going through the most difficult time of your life and need treatment asap and kindness and you should be getting those and I would hope anyone in your situation would get those. Sorry its all so difficult. I hope you can get some answers on Monday. Sending love and hugs.

mowly77 · 20/03/2022 08:25

Hi @Silkierabbit - thank you for the welcome to the board no-one wants to be on! Yes that's a really good idea - I will put in a complaint to PALS & cc the chief exec on Monday - the email formats are easy to guess I think. Some of the staff are lovely but useless, but the consultant has definitely missed his bedside manner training. I already knew I had cancer from the scans as they said with my history it was "very very very likely" & honestly I just knew - I did the first time too.

Good thing I did because the bastard consultant called me up on a Friday night and said REALLY CHEERFULLY "Yes it's metastatic breast cancer - ok have a great weekend!" and I was Shock. That's not the only thing but honestly ... what is he on ...

HerbalRefreshment · 20/03/2022 09:28

Hi@mowly77 - I am also Stage IV, dx'd de novo, bone only, HR+,ER+,HER2 (low). That was 2.5 years ago and have just started my second treatment line after palbo was starting to fail. Once the drugs are dialed in for your tolerances they are pretty easy and I live a normal life.

I was just reading on the Macmillan forums about another secondary gal who had something like a two MONTH wait for treatment to begin post diagnosis, who is in a lot of spine pain and was getting fobbed off repeatedly by the hospital. Although actually now that I think back, thats how long it took from breast clinic appt to starting meds, and that was back in late 2019.

The NHS breast teams may work "brilliantly" for early stage women, but I swear to god everything slowed right down once they found the bone mets, not to mention I rarely had the same oncologist or even a breast-specific oncologist doing my monthly reviews. I switched into private care after a year of NHS fooling around, and its been much better and they found things I would not have been tested for on the NHS. I recognise that is a privileged position to be in, though it now locks me into employment for longer than I would wish.

Unfortunately the admin burden on this disease can be high at times, in addition to the physical issues, and its such a drag on moving forward mentally. But you really need to be the squeaky wheel to get anywhere, unfortunately, although I get that sometimes it feels like you are launching yet another voicemail into the black hole of nothingness.

Once you get started on treatment and things settle down it will get better, its just the waiting drives so much anxiety!

Podgedodge · 20/03/2022 11:56

@mowly77, so sorry you have ended up here, may your stay be as short as possible, and let’s hope the hospital team up their game. And that your consultant gains a little empathy somehow!
I’ve just had a phone call to say my father was taken into hospital last night following a fall. He is 85. Apparently he is very dehydrated and has a blockage, all of which are horribly familiar after my DH. I live nearly 150 miles away and his wife has not been able to see him yet. I am on gabapentin atm so can’t drive, but couldn’t anyway as am only 3 days post chemo and in a lot of pain. I usually have a zoom call with my family on a Thursday, but missed it this week because I simply forgot in chemo fog. Bloody typical. Just going to have to sit and wait for news.

MissSmiley · 20/03/2022 12:27

@mowly77 I saw your other thread, welcome to the most supportive thread on mn. I'm sorry it's all so shit.

@Podgedodge I hope your dad is ok, are you hoping to go and see him or is that out of the question?

I'm keeping everything crossed that I can go home tomorrow. My electrolytes were a bit off on Friday's blood tests, just had more taken and my going home will depend largely on them being ok.
Yesterday I was very poorly with diarrhoea and severe pain, three of my kids came to visit but I had to cut them short after half an hour as I felt so ill, i felt really guilty as it takes 45 mins to get to the hospital.