I have just injected my dh, and now we wait for the side effects....

[naswm]

...I am so scared.

Last week the side effects were horrendous. This week we have given the injection later in the day, and dh hopes he will be able to sleep some of it off through the night. I am not so confident. I saw how ill he was and he doesnt remember all of it. I hate the fact that I have deliberately injected him with a poison that will make him ill.

I am feeling very and and mixed up this evening.

(dh has liver failure and has just started anti-cancer treatment)

so sorry- try to think of the positive reasons why you have had to do this- to help him xxx

{{{Hugs}}} sorry your having to do this, but hope it helps make him better.

Oh Naswm.

What are his thoughts re treatment?

You are just doing the best you can.

Chemo is very toxic butit can prolong life.

It is soo difficult,if the side effects are really crappy.

Hugs if you do them xxxx

Fuck it,am a bit all ovber place myself and have buggered up emoticons,sorry I meant

Naswm,I'm so sorry I hope I haven't hurt your feelings.Really really sorry should have previewed message.

Sending love to you and dh xxxxx

are you ok naswm?

It sounds awful - and very brave of you to give him the injection. I do hope it will not be too bad, and that it will do some good in the longer run.

Thinking of you Naswm.

I read your last thread.

Hope he's doing ok and your coping a bit better tonight.

xx

also thinking of you Naswm. x

good luck naswm x

xxxx

Hope tonight will be better than last time.

was just giving dh next set of meds and 'putting him to bed'.

wrinkletum - of course you havent hurt my feelings. {{{{}}}}

He should be asleep by 10pm (he usually goes off like a light) and then all I have to do is wait.

It is horrible.

I am desperate for a cigarette, but with every puff I picture his liver and he has never smoked a cigarette in his life. I am also drinking. It is so hard. I hate myself for doing the things which I know could lead to the condition he has, through no fault of his own.

I am Mrs Sombre tonight. Maybe time for a name change

oh shit, im sorry.

i am so scared

dont know what to say. but here if you need it x

thanks lissie. I dont know what to say or do. Actually, I do know what I want to do. I want to run away. I always want to run away from horrible situations.

Naswm,just seen this.

What can I say? You are doing your best,that is all you can do.i am sure DH knows you love him to bits and that is ultimately what matters.Those close to you have much love.

Just be there for him,and make sure you get support for yourself.

I would reccomend Cancerbackup website.

Do you have acces to MacMillan nurses and Marie Curie?
Hugs,Wrinklytum xx

thansk wrinklytium - I dont feel like I am doing my best, I just want to run away

you are showing what a lovely caring person you are .You have just had to do a very difficult thing.You are trying to help him.

I hasve no choise mummylin

i am trapped

i dont know all your circumstances but do have no help with your dh ? have you had to care for him for long ?

no, I dont get any help

We have been together for nearly 16 uyears. Within 6 months of our relationshpp he was in intensive care, and thigns have been like that on and ogg since

oh my god how awful for you both ,what a terrible situation.Do you neve have a break .do you have children as well

DS1 - nearly 5, DS2 just 3

dh is aslspsp now. and i am just wasiting. It is horrible. I feel so alone. I AM so alone . I codl cry