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To visit the walk in centre?

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Sienna333 · 02/12/2017 08:55

The top of my bumcrack has a small white/flesh coloured spot on it and although it looks insignificant, it is stinging like mad and I can barely sit. AIBU to go to the walk in centre? I can't take a minute more of this and what's worse is that I am on my period :(

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Nousernameforme · 07/12/2017 07:35

With health anxiety though the second you are finally reassured about this your mind will manifest something else to focus on and worry about.

You need to get treatment for the anxiety now if you don't want to deal with it you can look at it as a way to deal with the anxiety you feel over the cameras (not that I think you will need them) if that ever becomes a possibility. Does that make sense.

Nikephorus · 07/12/2017 08:24

You do realise that anxiety and stress will play absolute havoc with your bowels don't you?
a diagnosis of piles, quite common after having diarrhoea since it's been aggravated and inflamed.
Both of these^. You need to get your anxiety under control because until you do you're going to keep having problems. Anxiety plays havoc with your body & creates problems where there weren't any. You had all those previous issues but anyone without anxiety would have shifted them quicker - yours hung around because your anxiety fed them. And now you've got this which will more than likely be because of that, and which is worse because your anxiety is stirring everything up.
Your body is trying to get rid of the anxiety the same way it would a virus or infection. But because you won't get it out via your brain your body is trying to eliminate it via other parts of your body instead, and that's why you have all these issues. It's like I was saying about my feet earlier - once I worked out it was stress causing them to hurt, the pain went.
If you actually went to the doctors just about your anxiety & started some treatment for it I bet your other symptoms would ease really quickly.... Why are you so willing to try and treat conditions that you don't have (cancer etc) and not the one that you most definitely have, anxiety?

Redken24 · 07/12/2017 08:30

Did u get tested for helicobacter?
Honestly piles are so common, some people are embarrassed about them but literally nearly every one I know has had some kind of shape or one.

Haudyerwheesht · 07/12/2017 09:57

Op I've had internal pipes for YEARS. Sometimes the whole toilet is red. I don't know why I'm telling you this though because A you won't listen and B reassurance is the last thing you need.

You need help for anxiety and stop saying you know this and you know that - you don't:

willothewisp17 · 07/12/2017 10:17

my god OP, just get your anxiety seen about. it's probably good you're leaving this thread for a bit, because what can people say to you at this point? won't accept reassurance that it's nothing and point blank refusal to see about anxiety. you won't accept help for what you actually need help for!!

SparklyMagpie · 07/12/2017 10:24

OP I guessed it was internal piles, I have had them and they don't always just clear up in a couple of days, I had mine for ages and they had to give me stronger suppositories as the anusol ones didn't do the trick

You really need to see someone over your health anxiety as it just seems to be ramping up more and more.

Tbh I'd be thankful it is internal piles more than anything else, and I know how awful they can feel

IamtheDevilsAvocado · 07/12/2017 10:48

Please ring your GP this morning. Ask for a referral to a clinical psychologist who specialises in Health Anxiety. (hypochondriasis) /MUS.

It is a hideous anxiety disorder (as you're feeling now!).

For anyone who wants to be unpleasant... It is NOT the same as purposely making illnesses up for secondary gain

Candlelight234 · 07/12/2017 13:30

Look, you have piles, its extremely common. No they don't go away sometimes (certainly not in 2 days), and yes they hurt a lot. But It's only piles! Keep telling yourself that.
You need another appt about your health anxiety ASAP, please do something about this for your own sake.

myrtleWilson · 07/12/2017 15:26

You do need to see a Dr about your anxiety - I do understand as I suffer myself. But you have no resilience to cope with even "run of the mill" health issues. So many people told you on your last thread that it was within the realms of normal, that the timeline wasn't majorly off - and now you're doing it again - catastrophizing about potential health issues - for which there is NO evidence, and then building up your experience of them as beyond normal.

Now, lets just say that at some point in your life you do have a serious illness to cope with - unless you deal with your anxiety now I fear you won't have the capacity to manage. That is not to say that everyone with a serious illness is supposed to be stoical and brave, nor is it saying that anyone with a serious illness cannot have days of railing against the injustice of it all - of course they can (and should in my opinion) But I would worry about your ability to take in anything that a Dr was saying to you about conditions, treatment, prognosis - and you'd only serve to wind yourself up more.

Please please try and box the anxiety up -have you looked at the links others have sent to you for tools and techniques to use? - if only for a day to give your head the space to recognise you need to focus on your mental health as a priority.

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Sienna333 · 07/12/2017 19:16

I know this sounds deafitist but I know I will not get over these piles and will be back at the doctors again. Then I will definitely be referred for further tests.
Everyone seems so happy that it's Christmas and carefree. I am just incredibly depressed knowing that I will be like this on the big day. I know I need help. Just wonder what the point of it all is when I know I am seriously ill as I still don't think these are 'just' piles as she couldn't feel or see them.

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Caulk · 07/12/2017 19:21

Everyone seems so happy that it's Christmas and carefree.

Everyone is dealing with their own shit. I’m yet to meet anyone who is happy and carefree, especially about Christmas. It’s just that many people are dealing with their shit and accessing support, and trying to become more resilient.

I have cancer. I’m also in therapy because i know that I don’t need to have a victim mentality about it.

gamerchick · 07/12/2017 20:01

The more people post the more the OP can wind herself up deep into her own mind. The last thread (s) was exactly the same, then it stopped when I’m assuming the runs cleared up as the docs said it would.

OP at some point you’re going to make yourself actually Ill. Maybe with a stomach ulcer which you’ll convince yourself is cancer and not stop until it puts you in hospital.

Go back to your gp and tell them you have health anxiety and ask for help!

Also the camera up the arse really isn’t the ordeal you’re thinking it is.

myrtleWilson · 07/12/2017 21:09

Flowers Caulk - I hope you're doing okay and sending you best wishes

Tinkie25 · 07/12/2017 21:45

Go to the doctor and talk about your ANXIETY. Until this is addressed you will go from one imagined illness to another. I know as I lost two years of my life to health anxiety, triggered by PND. 15 years down the line and I wish I had received help sooner. Things will NOT get better until you address your anxiety issues.

RMC123 · 07/12/2017 21:55

* I know this sounds deafitist but I know I will not get over these piles and will be back at the doctors again. Then I will definitely be referred for further tests.*

You can not possibly know that. There are very few things in this life we actually 'know' for certain. Currently no medical professional is concerned. Piles are annoying - yes , initially scary- yes and in every sense a pain in the arse. They are not a death sentence.
Your health anxiety is by far and away the biggest health issue you have.
Only you can sort this out OP. It will be hard, but if you conquer it your life will be transformed.

Haudyerwheesht · 07/12/2017 23:19

I have every sympathy with your OP because of your anxiety I really do but for the love of god take a look outside yourself. Everyone is not happy and carefree because it's Christmas. People have so so so much going on - stop assuming you're the most hard done by. Anxiety is horrific but it doesn't need to be insurmountable.

Haudyerwheesht · 07/12/2017 23:23

Also op I asked this earlier I think but where is your dd?? Why won't you seek help for her sake? Do you want her growing up thinking this is normal? Remember how much it upset you when your mum said she was worried? Times that by a million for your daughter.

Aridane · 07/12/2017 23:34

OP - take a look at all the other threads you have started catastrophising about your physical health. Your anxiety isn’t going to go away.

In one thread, you were going to the doctor for anxiety? What happened?

When are you going to get your mental health seen to?

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Sienna333 · 07/12/2017 23:54

DD is with her dad at the moment. I don't want her to see me like this but scared stiff that she will end up with a mum who has a chronic illness or worse. I know my mental state is the most pressing issue but after the previous never ending illness and now this, very painful one, I just haven't got the energy to deal with the anxiety in the wholehearted way I need. When (And hopefully it will be very soon) I will be physically better and I can focus on my mental state. I just feel utterly
drained but this recent thing has made me see how bad I am and has absolutely terrified me. I have never sunk this low into anxiety and blind terror before. I wake up feeling terrified and go to sleep feeling the same way. Quite frankly, I never want to be where I am again as it is terrifying and downright souldestroying. :(

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sillysausage16 · 07/12/2017 23:57

As someone who has severe health anxiety I can't understand why you are choosing to ignore it and not get it addressed by the gp. I was like you thinking I had cancer etc but I DID SOMETHING ABOUT THE ANXIETY and it is now controlled with venlafaxine.
I didn't want to suffer and so I got help!! It's not easy but only you can make the first step to regain control.

I have sympathy for you but only to a certain extent because you are ignoring everyone's advice and you are fuelling the stigma of people with this condition being attention seekers.

If you aren't interested or going to listen to other posters then why post in the first place, it's pointless!!

treaclesoda · 07/12/2017 23:58

OP, the problem is that you will never be physically better until you seek help for the anxiety. The anxiety can make you physically ill. You can't delay tackling the anxiety until you feel better because the anxiety ensures that that day won't come.

Please please go to your doctor and explain the extent of your anxiety.

sillysausage16 · 07/12/2017 23:59

And my ha also presented with physical symptoms because THATS WHAT IT DOES

myrtleWilson · 08/12/2017 00:05

But OP the last illness wasn't "never-ending" was it?? That was my point - everyone else on your thread told you it was completely in the realms of normal experience - but you've (again) twisted it into something else. You really need to go to the GP and speak about your anxiety.

dontbesillyhenry · 08/12/2017 01:00

You do not have a chronic illness. You do not have worse. You will not definitely be referred for further tests however you may well be referred for psychological input if you keep insisting you have a serious issue with no physical evidence to suggest that.

IamtheDevilsAvocado · 08/12/2017 05:57

OP please don't wait to get physically better before you seek help....!!

It's the HA that is causing most of this!

Please get help for your anxiety.... People are minimising how ill anx can make you... What you're experiencing now!

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