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To visit the walk in centre?

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Sienna333 · 02/12/2017 08:55

The top of my bumcrack has a small white/flesh coloured spot on it and although it looks insignificant, it is stinging like mad and I can barely sit. AIBU to go to the walk in centre? I can't take a minute more of this and what's worse is that I am on my period :(

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Ansumpasty · 04/12/2017 19:05

I'm glad you are feeling better, U2.
Do you find that your health anxiety flares up when you aren't happy in another area of your life? Mine does; I will be under stress with something (often something like my husband working away for a month, that kind of thing) and it's like my brain turns my troubles into internal issues and I get strange health 'symptoms,' which of course trigger my health anxiety. I once had a constant headache for 6 weeks, a leg ache for 3 weeks, sudden menstrual spotting, that kind of thing. The mind and body connection is bizarre. I only have to think about diarrhoea or stomach pains at the moment and I get them immediately.

Something to consider, op? Are there any areas of your life that you aren't particularly happy with at the moment?

Ansumpasty · 04/12/2017 19:11

Mykingdom
You are right. Always easier to give advice than to take it. Some days I do, other days it feels like I'm slowly drowning in black tar.
Hope your GP has offered you help, op.

MarthaArthur · 04/12/2017 19:13

U2 can i ask, when you have a "flare up" (cant think of a better term sorry) do you recognise it easier? Because i fall apart and go into sweaty vommiting panic before i realise its my anxiety at work. I need to get better at recognising it. I hope op got her appointment and told the dr about her mental health.

Sallystyle · 04/12/2017 19:56

do you find that your health anxiety flares up when you aren't happy in another area of your life?

Yes, absolutely! Any hardships in my life makes my anxiety flare up. A really bad time for me is just around Christmas. I don't even know why really. My ex did die just before Christmas but before that my OCD always went into overdrive the two weeks before hand. I am really good at the moment but I know this is a time where I have to be very careful.

U2 can i ask, when you have a "flare up" (cant think of a better term sorry) do you recognise it easier?

Yeah, I can recognise it pretty quickly now. I came up with a wellness action plan with my therapist. I have written down the signs of an impending flare up and I have a list of things to do when it happens. Some physical things like walking a bit more, relaxing things like reading more and a reminder of specific CBT skills which really helped me. My thought chart being one of the main ones. I still might have some big panic attacks before I remember though, but i'm still pretty new to the recovery bit.

My husband is under strict instructions that if I can't recognise it ever he is to shove my plan under my nose Grin

I am in a really good place right now in life in general. I know that could change any moment. I just hope that if it does I have enough skills under my belt to never become so ill with it again. I

It does get better I promise. The work it took was hard, I would come out of CBT feeling even worse and so many times I wanted to give it up because I felt like crap. Then it just clicked.

There really is light at the end of this shit painful journey.

MarthaArthur · 04/12/2017 20:20

Thank you U2 thats amazing ! Well done on your recovery. Thats amazing. Hopefully e can all learn these skills including the op.

HCantThinkOfAUsername · 05/12/2017 09:08

Hope your ok OP and had some help yesterday.

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Sienna333 · 06/12/2017 22:03

Doctor thinks I have internal piles but I am thinking not as she couldn't see anything when she examined me (Which was bloody painful by the way). In agony. Bleeding has stopped for the moment but anisol supplements not working after 2 days, I thought they had immediate effect. Clearly not. Scared I will have this all over Christmas and still scared it is something more sinister. I dread to think what will be the next cause of action if these continue to play me up. I told the doctor I was very anxious but I can't even think of getting help for my mind until this has gone, if it ever does :(

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crazycatgal · 06/12/2017 22:06

@Sienna333 Did you mention that you have health anxiety or not?

BeALert · 06/12/2017 22:14

So the doctor doesn't think you've got any kind of life-threatening condition?

Much like the nurse you saw previously who also didn't think you've got any kind of life-threatening condition?

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Sienna333 · 06/12/2017 22:17

Well they can't tell me if I do or not without further tests but it isn't looking good is it.
They know I am very anxious but they also can't rule out that nothing is wrong with me physically. Piles should have cleared up by now.

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crazycatgal · 06/12/2017 22:20

How is it not looking good? Why do you assume that you know more than a nurse and a doctor?

Have you just said to them that you fee anxious about being unwell or have you explained that you think that you have a mental health condition and need treatment?

SparklingSnowfall · 06/12/2017 22:22

It IS looking good OP!! Nobody can find anything significantly wrong with you. Please try if you can to see this as a good sign.

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Sienna333 · 06/12/2017 22:27

Problem is I know these piles will stick around forever and I am not even sure they are piles. Once they don't go I will be back at the doctors for cameras which makes me feel utterly sick with anxiety.

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crazycatgal · 06/12/2017 22:29

Can you answer my question please.

Did you mention to the doctor that you have a mental health condition which you need treatment for?

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Sienna333 · 06/12/2017 22:33

At this moment in time all I am focussed on is stopping this piles pain. Only then can I focus on anything else. I really haven't got the energy to deal with both and it's clear there is now something physically wrong as well as mentally. I feel utterly drained. I can't deal with this new illness going on as long as the last one did.

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ladylunchalot · 06/12/2017 22:35

Op, please make another appointment for your anxiety. Tackle that and everything else will seem much more positive.

LEMtheoriginal · 06/12/2017 22:35

Sienna I am so sad that you haven't been able to get help with this. I feel for you soon much and have been thinking about you a lot this week.

My Dr told me she finds it very difficult when an anxious patient like me presents with a symptom. They have to refer got tests etc if someone comes with even the remotest symptoms and fears as obviously they must take people seriously. Her worry is that it makes those people even more anxious. It's a vicious circle isn't it?

I know how you are feeling but please please please get help for your mental state.

Even if IF you do have something wrong down there you need psychological help to be able to deal with investigations.

You say that the Dr suspects internal piles - but couldn't feel any. This happened to my mum. Bleeding (alot) from her rectum. Gp and hospital doc couldn't feel any piles. Referred for colcoscopy - what did they find? You guessed it - internal piles and an incidental find of diverticulitis that did not concern them (my mum is 80 it wasn't a surprise). My mum's bleeding was so severe that the doc had her admitted to hospital that very day ! Even I thought the worst but it was fine.

You do realise that anxiety and stress will play absolute havoc with your bowels don't you?

What tests do they want you to have?

crazycatgal · 06/12/2017 22:38

No matter how much the doctor reassures you you are going to spend every day worrying until you tackle this anxiety.

I know that at the moment you are thinking that you are physically ill, but you need to make an appointment to discuss your mental health.

You have had health professionals tell you that it is piles but you won't believe them, you will be the same even if they carry out more tests and tell you the same.

Aridane · 06/12/2017 22:39

Sweetie, please go again to your doctor for anxiety

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Sienna333 · 06/12/2017 22:41

She just said if it doesn't clear up, she will need to send me for a referral which will mean cameras. It terrifies the life out of me. I am drained after the bad stomach and diarrhoea bug I had in October and now I have to deal with
this. It will be 2 weeks on Friday since I have had this, most peoples clear up well before then. Can't help but be terrified.

In fact, talking about it is making me anxious so am stepping away from the thread for a bit. Will update when I am in a better frame of mind.

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LEMtheoriginal · 06/12/2017 22:46

I know you won't listen but your feet would not have touched the floor if she suspected cancer! They don't just send you away to see if it clears up by itself.

Thing is I actually wonder if you probably should have them take a look up there. Then you'll have peace of mind.

I just wish I could do more to help you Sad

onemoremummy · 06/12/2017 23:03

OP I have been there. Please seek help. CBT did wonders for me and it can help you too. Don’t want until your physician symptoms have resolved to seek help for your obvious mental issues.

thegamblersmrs · 06/12/2017 23:33

OP glad the gp has given you a diagnosis of piles, quite common after having diarrhoea since it's been aggravated and inflamed.

Unfortunately had this myself some years ago and I found it quite terrifying first discovering blood. Took a good wee while to heal but it did.

Hears hoping you are reassured soon.

Always remember anxiety can go for your stomach so don't be surprised if the stomach problems remain. It's a very sensitive tool.

RMC123 · 07/12/2017 05:57

OP piles often don't clear up quickly. Sometimes even minor illness can take a while to resolve. You can't always judge the seriousness of a condition by how long you have had it. 2 weeks for internal piles is a very short time, particularly when they weren't diagnosed and treated until a few days ago.
Secondly, please stop delaying getting treatment for your health anxiety. The very fact you have it means there will never be a time when you are 100% well. You will always have some physical symptoms. This is a vicious cycle that only you can break by taking responsibility for your mental health.

picklemepopcorn · 07/12/2017 07:19

Sienna, you'll need to use the suppositories consistently for a while to see the improvement. Once you clear them up, you'll recognise the symptoms when they come back and treat them more quickly so they won't get as bad.

Learn to ignore your feelings of panic. Recognise that they are there, but put them to one side and get on with life. Your piles will heal!

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