hand holding / arsekicking / unmuddling brain needed if anyone's got the head for it?

[JemimaPuddled]

Another week and a half to wait for gynae consultant appointment - anyone willing to calm me down / kick up the arse / get my thoughts straight please?

Ah well, back to my dark corner then!

Here for hand holding and x

Wow. Cake too, you rock!

What's up??

Head up arse and not able to think straight really. Worse at night as these things usually are. A degree of burying head in sand going on too fwiw, hence the need for a shove in any given direction.

Why are you waiting for gynae apt?x

Hmm now that's the one. I've had 8 weeks of cramping and generally feeling horribly hormonal. In the past I've had endometriosis, polycystic ovaries and all sorts so generally a bit of a nightmare. In theory dh fires blanks since he had chemo but it's creeping into my head as a possibility. Yes I know. I'm 42 and shouldn't be behaving like an embarrassed teenager. It's all turned to chaos in my head, along with a million different"what ifs".