I Found A Lump In My Breast

[cleanasawhistle]

Found it on Friday.
Managed to get an appointment with my GP yesterday morning,he was really nice and tried to put my mind at rest.
I have just had an appointment through the post for Wed 12th Nov.It says I will be diagnosed on the day.
The weekend was so long waiting to phone my doctor and now I have to wait over a week for the next step.
I think the not knowing is the hardest bit so far.

Thinking of others going through this.

So sorry you got bad news whistle but it's positive news that it's confined and you have a choice (although I imagine that's daunting). look after yourself and remember that there's loads of support on here

Clean, massive one sided hugs to you. Please be kind to yourself for the next few days. The shock will wear off as your brain is wired to be kind enough to not keep up that intense level of feeling forever. This may be followed by a feeling of intense anger. That's perfectly normal and it too will pass.

Make sure you get what help and support you can. You come first now, it's no time for pride.

I'll PM you too.

Sorry, whistle. Tonight, relax. Glass of wine, etc, and leave the thinking for tomorrow! Sorry it wasn't good news, but you will get through it.

Thank you all so much,you are all really kind.

I am lucky that I have a brilliant husband.
I have told my sisters and my niece and they have said if I need anything then just ask, I don't see them often but if there is anything then we all rally round.
I have two boys,one still at school,not going to tell the youngest till the weekend .I hope he will be ok.

After that I will tell a couple of friends and thats it.
Not bothered who finds out after that but I will not be disgusing the ins and out of my operation with just anyone.

I will keep posting on here because I think it will keep me sane ... and if anyone can offer any advice on the operation choices then please do...I really don't know what to do.

Good luck for Friday Gurgle x

Can I ask about your operation Sock ?

I had a bilateral mastectomy in May after being diagnosed with bc in both breasts. I have three DCs, so please pm me if there's anything you need to ask. Have you been on the Tamoxigang threads under general health? The ladies there are hugely supportive and are going through or have been through the same.

Of course you can, it's a gyne/bladder/bowel one, nothing like yours at all I'm afraid so we won't have that in common. But I'm still more than happy to be your operation waiting buddy if you need someone. I'm in a support group and we try pair up with someone who has a similar op date to help get through the wait. Someone who you can tell stupid things to like 'I cleaned all of the insides of my cupboards today because I suddenly realised I wouldn't be able to for a while post op. or ask 'what have you got in your hospital bag?' etc etc.

I really recommend it (but totally understand if you'd rather stick with someone going through the same op as you).

I really hoped I would be seeing better news from you. I know I can't do much but I am sending you strength and we are all here I am sure if you need us xx

Sorry it wasn't what you wanted to hear. Good luck on your journey.

Clean I am so sorry. I have been thinking about you and hoping today was going to end your worries. Can't imagine what you're going through. We all fear this and it can affect any of us at any time so i think that's why it's so frightening to hear bad news. However, it sounds like your case is positive in that it's contained so it can be dealt with. I know others have said it but i know of several good news stories about BC but often you only remember sad ones. My mum had it 7 years ago, it was in her lymph nodes but only just, she had a mastectomy and rad therapy, no chemo and is fighting fit at 73. Another friend is just celebrating 12yrs clear. I read an article in a mag recently about a woman who is 85, had BC at 37 and now thinks of it as a 'blip', keep that one firmly in mind. I wish you the best of luck X

Bugger. So, so sorry.
It's the shock. You're probably feeling numb.
When my consultant told me, I put my head in my hands & said, "Oh Sh!t"
I had the operation with a radioactive injection first to remove 5 lymph nodes. Thankfully, it hadn't spread into lymphs, but was everywhere else in my breast, so I needed a mastectomy. I breastfed both my babies & this was my main side!
I am happy to discuss the operation, reconstruction & extra bits if you want to PM me.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. The nurses on breastcancercareuk are great for a 2nd opinion, as is their forum.
Sending you such big hugs.
I had my mx 2 years ago, it has been upsetting but here I am, cancer free & living my life with my husband & children. You WILL be fine. Life at the moment is choppy, but keep your eyes fixed firmly on the horizon.
You will be fine -x-

G'ah to bloody cancer. So sorry to hear your news. You must be reeling still, but seriously ask all you need to. Very happy to answer questions on mastectomy or anything else you wan to know. Deep breaths. You can do this I promise. xx

Whistle, I am so sorry to hear your news. xxxx

Good morning cleanasawhistle how are you today?
I've put a photo of a book that I got from BCCUK about explaining breast cancer to children.
They also do fact sheets & give advice on how to tell family, friends etc.
Be kind to yourself, it's a massive thing to come to terms with, don't expect to just carry on as you did before. You & your family are all that's important now.

I've been sending you good thoughts. I hope you're coping (as well as can be) whistle.

Morning Everyone,
Yesterday was a bad day,spent most of it sobbing.
Today I decided to let my friends know and I will tell my youngest son when he gets home from school...dreading that.

I have an appointment at the breast clinic this afternoon at the local hopstal.

Hopefully I will get more time to spend on here,but I am reading your meassages whcih are helping and I am thinking of those going through this or are waiting to be diagnosed.
Take care x

Hi cleanas, I'm from the tamoxigang and have been following your progress. I had a lumpectomy in May. If I can offer any advice please just ask. Strangely enough I'm making an unexpected and unwelcome visit to my own breast clinic this afternoon as I have a little lump that needs checking. I understand your fears and tears perfectly, but the stress does lessen. I haven't yet told my daughters that I'm going to hospital this afternoon. They're both studying and I don't want to distract them. Good luck later.

Good luck to both of you. I have a scan later to determine the size and any spread. Shall we co-ordinate the wine opening this evening?

Good luck to you all. you are all so brave ladies.xx

3... 2... 1... and my wine is open. Cheers ladies.

The doctor found another lump in my (nowrathersorefromalltheprodding) breast so a trip for me, Larry the lump and his new pal Brenda to the clinic in the next few weeks.

Cleanas I wish you and your family all the best throughout this. What a fantastic group of people on this forum. Stay strong.

Xxx

Cleanas, Saveme & Gurgle, sending you all big hugs -x- -x-

Sorry to hear that gurgle. I'm also sorry (although less so) to realise I'm behind on the wine, let me catch up...

Get on with it saveme!! All fine really. Weirdly relieved to hear I wasn't imagining it and just looking forward to it all being over. The greatest fear is of the unknown.

How about you cleanas? How are you doing with your decision? My doctor (excellent bedside manner expected of a locum) said 'well if if is cancer they can just chop it off'. Which was comforting. I had no idea there were so many options.

Bug hugs xxx

A very early good morning.
I have had a few hours sleep,went to bed early after feeling quite drained but also a lot happier (maybe the wrong word)

So I met a lovely doctor and nurse at the breast clinic.
I was examined again,I think that is ten people who have now seen my boobs,I was quite tempted to lift my top up when I went back through the waiting room and say does anyone else want to see them :-)
Everything was explained to me again.
I have decided on a partial removal.There will be no reconstruction,tissue will be taken from my other breast at a later date to make that one smaller too.
Yesterday was also a day of phone calls.I think I have now told everyone that need to know.It wasn't many but it was friends that I didn't really want to hear the news in passing from others.Everyone was shocked but very supportive.
I also broke the news to my youngest son.I kept it simple,I just said there was good news and bad news.I said I will tell you the bad news first but you must remember there will be good news to follow.I said I have cancer but its a very small lump and it will be taken out.We had a chat and I think he took it well.He seems fine.

The only downer on the day was that the date of the op might have to be changed.That was disappointing,I had worked myself up for the 15th,I would have time to finish the Xmas shopping ,get the decs up and just be organised.
So all in all not a bad day,did everything I needed to do,spoke to everyone I wanted to speak to and I didn't shed a single tear.

GURRGLE so sorry to hear about Larry and Brenda.It really does help writing everything down on here.The support is amazing and hearing from people who have been through this and knowing you are not alone.

SOCKDRAWER I hope your op goes well.Will you be in hospital long ? I should only be in for one night.

FRANCES thank you for posting the pic of the book.I read some guide lines and it did help.Sorry to read what you have been through.

MRSRHOD sorry you have found another lump.That must be devasting,I hope its goods news,please let us know.

SAVE did you catch up on the wine.I think I totally missed it.Hope your news is good.

SMEE,thank you.

GREEN so good to hear about your mam getting through this and still going strong.

Right that will have to do for now,my vision is going blurred,might try and get more sleep.
Thnking of everyone and we can get through this together x

Morning cleanas. I'm so pleased to hear you are receiving excellent care. I have been treated with absolute kindness by all the medics I have come into contact with. Uncertainty about dates is very frustrating though, especially if there is something coming up. In my case it was our summer holiday. Have they given you an alternative? I also agree that getting your top off for everyone gets a bit tiresome. I find it strange when they drawer the privacy curtain across, leaving only my DH on the other side, the person who sees them daily anyway.

My appt was quite reassuring. The surgeon isn't worried about my lump, he is going to book an ultrasound scan just to be sure. I had exactly the same type of lump in August which turned out to be a swollen but healthy lymph node. No doubt overcompensating for the few I lost. I expect this will be the same. Everyone seems to get little niggles that aren't exactly textbook responses, this seems to be mine. Apart from that he gave me a thorough check over which was actually very reassuring too. I'm doing fine.

Hope you manage to do some nice things ths weekend. Do come over to the tamoxigang pages. You'll get a very warm welcome and there is an awful lot of experience there too. It as kept me sane since May.

I'm glad you've come to a decision you're happy with. You've done so many difficult things over the last few days and I hope you recognise all your achievements.

My op date was changed too! But thankfully it was because I was offered a sooner one, I'm in next Friday now. The plan is for one night as well. It's so difficult when dates are changed isnt it? It can make you feel out of control. Have they given you an alternative yet?

Well done for all you've achieved so far. I hope you have a lovely weekend with your family.