I Found A Lump In My Breast

[cleanasawhistle]

Found it on Friday.
Managed to get an appointment with my GP yesterday morning,he was really nice and tried to put my mind at rest.
I have just had an appointment through the post for Wed 12th Nov.It says I will be diagnosed on the day.
The weekend was so long waiting to phone my doctor and now I have to wait over a week for the next step.
I think the not knowing is the hardest bit so far.

Thinking of others going through this.

I am feeling a bit more positive this morning.

Yesterday I was telling myself I had cancer but today I have given myself a kick and now I don't have cancer until I am actually told them words next Wednesday.

If I do have cancer then I will do what has to be done and get on with it like so many of you amazing ladies have already done.

It is so sad the things people have to go through and I did feel for everyone in the waiting room yesterday.

So glad I posted here and Im sure reading all your reasuring posts has helped me and others too.

Take care everyone x

Cleanas - I can't imagine what you are going through right now. The Tamoxigang thread is really good so pop onto that and they'll help carry you through this uncertain time.

Cleanas, my heart goes out to you. This is the absolutely worst bit, waiting to find out what is going on. Don't be afraid to come and join us on the tamoxigang, the women on there have been through all this, seen it all before, we will hold your hand and you won't be alone. I do hope you get good news next week but keep posting, rant if you want to, do whatever you need to do to get through the days ahead my love xx

The whole problem is the damn c word and the conclusions it makes us leap to.

Ridiculous as it may sound, there can be positives. I've always thought I don't have many friends... Well, now I know I do. I have offers of help, more help, chocolate, wine and help. My partner, who is commitment phobic, has been here whenever he can and is amazing. My DS has shown me just how strong and positive he can be, helping me realise that me being off work is going to give us lots of time for cuddles. My boss is fab. My family have broken the habit of a lifetime and said they loved me. I have rarely laughed so much as I have recently. My house will end up cleaner and tidier if everyone helps out and I may end up better off if the critical illness cover pays out!! You even get free makeup lessons and make up in my area. I'll end this process being thinner, better groomed, possibly richer and certainly more appreciative of the good things in life.

I sincerely believe that my life may be better as a result of having this. Maybe not in the short term, during treatment, but certainly afterwards, as long as I continue to be positive. Of course, there are dark times and the first few days were bloody awful but as my son said, 'it's not as if you are going to die' and that's the attitude I'm going to take.

The waiting is really the worst bit. Be kind to yourself, try to have fun and let yourself consider all outcomes without dwelling on them.

Wow saveme, your post is so uplifting and positive. It's a shame it takes our worlds to be turned upside down for us to appreciate what we have sometimes.

It is uplifting and positive and anything that makes me thinner,well can't be too bad ;-)

All the best to everyone going through this x

Saveme, I love your attitude and your post! I have a call back appointment for a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound next week, absolutely bricking it but am marking my place to read your post at least once a day

Good luck to everyone this week. I'll be thinking of you.

Best wishes this week op

Clean, my appointment is Wednesday too but I'm in Texas USA so will be after yours. Best of everything to all x

I wrote this on another thread a few weeks ago but am adding it here in case it helps someone understand the process:

08/11/2014 08:02 savemefromrickets

Years ago I was referred after the hospital appt for a lump removal which took place under local anaesthetic. I had no scans or mammograms that time. It turned out to be a cyst.

I've recently been through the process again at a one-stop-shop clinic.

If it's a one-stop-shop clinic then it may follow the process mine did: a check over by the breast care surgeon (you'll be asked to change into a 'breast cape' for this so you will need your superhero name ready in your head), mammogram and ultrasound. The whole process can take a few hours so take a drink, a snack and a book. It can be nice to have someone with you.

You may be referred for a biopsy as a result, if you are feel free to PM me and I'll explain what's likely to happen and why you need an electric toothbrush.

Sometimes lumps show on a mammogram but not on an ultrasound and vice versa, be prepared for this. Also, don't go into expectant mum mode and point excitedly at the screen when you spot something that they measure... I wanted to see the lump on screen but make a conscious decision to look away if you'd rather not.

The worst bit is waiting for results but that's what Mumsnet and friends are for.

The best bit is that the hospital team are so lovely that you will have your faith in humanity restored.

Wishing you the best.

Whistle, keeping you in my thoughts. All the best tomorrow.

Thank you everyone.
Its been a long week,just want to get to the hospital tomorrow and get it over with...whatever IT is.
I have prepared myself for whatever they have to tell me or have do to me.

Thinking of everyone else going through this and hope you will come back with updates,hopefully good news.

Heres hoping I don't have to join the Tamoxigang...no ofence ;-)

Take care x

Whistle, I thought I'd just nip in to say I'm sorry you've had such a stressful time. If it is bad news tomorrow there are lots of us who've been through and are genuinely fine. Cancer's undeniably awful and terrifying, but the care for breast cancer is really amazingly good these days, so for most women it's a tough time, but there's a full life ahead. I was diagnosed in 2010 and am really fit and well with no signs of recurrence. That's a far more common story than you think when it's you, so try and hold on to that if they do say the dreaded 'c' word tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you.

I'll be thinking of you today x

Good luck today. You will be in our thoughts. We will be rooting for you, whatever the outcome.

Good Luck today CLEANASAWHISTLE.
On the breastcancercare forum, as a new member you get welcomed into the club that nobody wants to join! Always makes me smile that one
As I said earlier, my 1st lump was benign, my 2nd was the C word, (as my then 14yo put it). I'm now post mastectomy, reconstruction, nipple tattoo, (oh yeah!), & I'm fine; just had my annual all-clear.
So, I've got my fingers & toes crossed for you today. Please remember that if it is bad news, then it will take a little longer, but you will be fine.
hugs

Good luck xx I was in your position a few months ago and am sending positive thoughts

Thinking of you whistle, hope you got good results.

I did my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound .... And have to wait a week for my doctor to receive the results and pass them on. More waiting.....

I hope you're opening a bottle of Champagne op. Hope all went well.

Soory ladies but its bad news.
All the messages and knowing that you are all rooting for me means alot.

So I have CANCER...never though I would be saying that.

I have three options for the operation.
I can lose half my breast but I still have to lose the nipple.
I can have a partial mastectomy or a full mastectomy.
I can't remember the difference between the full and the partial.

So I have a choice and I wish I didn't,I don't know.
They are certain the lump is confined and thats why I have a choice because its not life threatening.

The operation will be on the 15th Dec.

Hope others have had good news today x

So sorry to hear you didn't receive better news. I'm glad to hear it's confined though. Hope you're being well looked after tonight.
You've been popping into my thoughts all day, sending you lots of strength x

Cleanasawhistle - I am really sorry it wasn't better news. I do hope you can get lots of support in RL. Take care and have an enormous hug from me.

Cleanas. What rubbish news. I am sorry. I felt the need to sign up to say that, I have been watching this thread for a while.

I guess you need a bit of a deep breath and then move forwards. As others have said, keep positive as there is excellent treaent and care. Knowing for sure will help as now you know what you are steeling yourself for. It looks like there is huge support out there and in here.

All the best and a big xx

(I found my Lump 'Larry' on Saturday. Off to docs on Friday. Hating the way time is standing still but feeling bolstered by MN support.)

I'm so so sorry to hear it's bad news but I'm incredibly relieved for you that it's confined.

If/when you want to talk through your thoughts on each option you've been given then we're here for you.

I know the countdown to your op might be a bitch. I have one on the 12th so if you want a countdown buddy feel free to PM me.

Sending you lots of good wishes.