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throws some hot cross buns on the trolley

Glad it went ok wren fingers crossed for few side effects

BiggerBuns I would enquire about a portacath. If you are NHS for treatment it might not be offered but I have one inserted just above my left breast and it is not visible (unless very décolleté). No sticky out bits and just a small scar.

really - hoping things went smoothly for you today.

I have a portacath on the NHS. It's very unobtrusive and under the skin.

wee i've reached the conclusion I'm jinxed!! On train home now BUT after an hour and a half wait.... The treatment didn't happen! Will explain later! Xx

really, have a lovely time at home. Forget about hospitals for the weekend.

Have a lovely weekend really. Hope you can relax and even be a little bit pampered...

Glad you managed to get your train home really relax and enjoy your weekend

Hope everyone has a lovely long weekend and the sun keeps shining

Had first Tax xhemo, all went fine but just couldn't wear the cold cap so will be interesting to see what happens to my hair. Had a nice snooze while it was being done.

Then swanned off to a different hospital for ct scan, but that was really quick.

Have a good weekend everyone

Just a quick post.

I arrived at the hospital, paperwork was still being sorted. 1.5hrs later I go in, lie on the Rads bed, get marked up! They start positioning the bed! Couldn't get me lined up correctly with what was on the paperwork! Radiographer went out to check computer, came back in saying "sorry we can't treat you?!" apparently I need to be on the ABC machine, which is at the other hospital!

I laughed!!! After the week I have had, all I could do was laugh and then wish them all a good weekend and leave! So my boosts will now start on Tuesday! I am going to enjoy a hospital free weekend!

Wishing all you lovely ladies a good weekend. Thankyou for all your support this week! You have really kept me going. Xxxxxx

Foo foo glad it went ok,never mind about the cold cap

Really have a lovely weekend you definitely deserve it after everything this week !

Hope everyone has a relaxing weekend

Hello, long time lurker and first time posting and wish it was about something else really.
Had two biopsies yesterday on two lumps I found couple of weeks ago and one biopsy from under my armpit. .. got to go back next week for results and discuss treatment plan but doctor told me it's breast cancer ( although biopsy will confirm this before she can plan my treatment) she said it would involve removing my breast.
I'm 45 and got young kids and in total shock.
I'm trying to stay positive but so very scared, please can I have a bit of hand holding and some positive thoughts. .. I can't handle any worrying thoughts at the moment.
I know it's not going to be easy from here on in , but I'm just thinking of making sure I am around for my little one and hoping for the best.

magicmango here's my hand to hold. I'm a similar age to you with a young child. I was recently diagnosed with colon cancer that's spread to my liver and it is terrifying. For the first few weeks of biopsies and diagnoses I was sunk into depression. That depression is lifting now that my treatment plan (chemo then surgery) is underway. This thread has been fantastic so please do keep posting all your feelings here xxx

Thank you BishB,
Sorry to hear your recent diagnosis but glad to hear the depression is lifting and you're feeling positive and getting on with your treatment .
My family have been wonderful but it's all just a shock at the moment.
I'm single parent so not got partner to confide in and got older kids but it's awful seeing them worrying about their mum.
I'm hoping after Thursday when results are in and plan of action is sorted I'll feel more positive, right now I'm just trying to stay busy and not think about it. .. although that's proving impossible :)

Thank you BishB,
Sorry to hear your recent diagnosis but glad to hear the depression is lifting and you're feeling positive and getting on with your treatment .
My family have been wonderful but it's all just a shock at the moment.
I'm single parent so not got partner to confide in and got older kids but it's awful seeing them worrying about their mum.
I'm hoping after Thursday when results are in and plan of action is sorted I'll feel more positive, right now I'm just trying to stay busy and not think about it. .. although that's proving impossible :)

Magic mango I'm sorry to hear your news but glad that you have found us, the support here is fab. I was in your position a year ago, it was my anniversary on May 1st. Not been an easy year I will admit but now I'm back at work, just been on an amazing holiday and my hair is growing back well. That will be you too please ask us anything and we will try and help

magicmango, big (((hugs))) and a warm welcome and really sorry that you're here. I was diagnosed last October; I have 3 children and know absolutely those feelings of fear and shock. A clear diagnosis and, most importantly, a clear plan of action, will help you feel that you have some control and are doing something positive. BC treatment nowadays is better than it ever has been; there is a huge amount of expertise out there on how you can best be helped. This thread is a great place to get support, to offload stuff, to help you manage normal life when nothing seems normal any more.

Thank you malteser and wren, yes I suppose this is the thread no one wants to join,
Malteser that's heartening to hear you've just enjoyed a holiday before your first anniversary, I'll hopefully be in that position next year.
I just sort of go from panic to feeling this isn't really happening to me. .. it's horrible telling people too makes it so much more real I suppose.
I'll have a idea what I'm dealing with and a plan of action for it on Thursday so hoping that makes things better. ..
The doctor was lovely and said just keep remembering this is day one of sorting this out.
So glad to have found you guys.

Magi mango, I completely understand how you feel. Emotionally, the first few weeks before you have all the information and a proper plan of action are the worst. It's an emotional roller coaster. I found myself driving my car and crying for no specific reason. Then you get your results, discuss a plan and your brain switches into 'go' mode, thinking about how you can overcome the hurdles. Ironically, I think because you have children it helps, because it gives you the determination to get everything sorted, for them as much as for yourself.
You need to think of breast cancer as a chronic condition that can be treated, which is what it is for the vast majority of people. If you go into marks and Spencer's there are numerous post surgical bras to choose from. If there weren't loads of women wondering around having had breast surgery M & S wouldn't be making them!
Keep your chin up and I hope the results are good next week.

Yotty the M&S remark actually made me smile :)
Much needed right now.

I think the children keep you going and give you structure to your day, so however bad you feel emotionally or because of treatment you have to drag yourself out if bed in the morning. Mine were 10 and 14 when I was diagnosed, have tried really hard to keep things as normal as possible for them and they've coped amazingly. Have they given you any indication as to treatment yet ? My surgeon told me from the start to be prepared for chemo as I was 41, though others have waited for results

That's the spirit, keep smiling. I live in a house with my DH and 2 sons aged 10 and 13. We keep finding humour in our situation. I'm on my 2nd hit of chemo and have lost most of my hair, the boys keep thinking up names of people I now look like. Suggestions so far are Bobby Charlton, Wayne Rooney pre his hair transplant or a teletubby. Some people may have taken offence, but in our house it is all amusing banter which helps to de stress everyone. Finding humour in adversity seems to help.

malteseI I think you're right about the kids I have six kids in all the first five from my marriage are aged between 25 and 14, my youngest (from a relationship with my expartner who turned out to be a awful person) is just a year old. . I want to keep life as normal ( I know treatment is going to change this) as possible, I've told the three oldest who all live near by and have been amazing bless them.
Yotty I'm with you on the sense of humour, I've always been able to get the darker side of humour without being offended so I think that might be a needed extra I'll call upon in the coming months.

I've only been told regarding my treatment that she thinks it's best to remove the breast and that's all til Thursday she did actually mention that some people need chemo or radiotherapy but wouldn't guess on whst following treatment yet.
I've been talking to a friend on Facebook who's had mouth cancer and a friend who has beaten breast cancer two years ago, and of course you guys and it's good to feel more positive from others whohave been there sand done it :)

Hi magic
This thread has kept me sane with so many lovely people to give advice. I have two young boys and like Yotty we find things to laugh about! Mainly about lack of hair. I had second lot of chemo on Thursday and while it's not great it's doable. I found it much easier to deal with when I knew what the plan was.

Quick question for anyone- they gave me emend and although I avoided being sick it got close and had to take some of my other drugs overnight. I was really hoping that the sick feeling wouldn't be so bad. Is this the same for most people?

Malt- hope moderation goes well next month. We avoided it this year but did have Ofsted in sept.

Really- hope you have a lovely relaxing weekend and glad you could laugh about it.

Can I ask those of you who've had a mastectomy , what was the recovery time and how long was you in hospital for?

Hi speedy, glad to have found this thread :)