**Tamoxigang heading towards hearts and valentines - thread 47**

[BetsyBoop]

roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet
but cakes are better

Saw on call consultant. She thinks that my haemoglobin level probably went a lot lower during the day hence the lower than expected result today. Also she thinks my upset tummy will have contributed to the need for 3 litres of saline.

I hope everyone is enjoying the nice not rainy weather.

My chemo brain is driving me crazy! DH brought Dd2 swimming this morning, I told him class was at 20 to 12. Class is at 20 past 12!! Her instructor told her she was at wrong time , but to hop in and join the other class. Poor dd2 is wrecked, she did her own class also!! Poor DH had a long wait at the pool. They readily forgave me for my mistake, but I still feel bad.
Just one of many silly things recently. Hope this is temporary!

I wanted to let you know that a longstanding and much loved tamoxigang lady has died this morning...dear figgyroll who was fairly recently diagnosed with secondary bc. Think newer members may not have come across her perhaps, but I hope you will all be thinking of her family at this very sad time.

Oh MAS:(

Apologies to all newer members who don't know me, but I remember Figgy well (did she post under a different name more recently?) and am very sad to hear this.
She was one of the gang that welcomed and held paws on a couple of lumpy occasions.

My thoughts and wishes to her family, and love to all the Tamoxigang x

So sad poor Figgy and her family x

I'm so sorry to hear that very sad news. I didn't know her, but my thoughts go out to her family.

RIP figgy, thoughts and prayers with figgy's family.

RIP Figgyroll.

RIP Figgy. Such sad news.

Terribly sad to hear that Figgy has passed away. My thoughts are with her friends and family.

I am so sorry to hear about Figgy. She had such a lot of challenges in her life but she was always so upbeat and lovely. I know that life is not fair but things like this make me want to write a stern letter to celestial customer services.

Fucking cancer.

RIP Figgy, so sad.

wren you are not a wuss, was chatting with a friend the other day who has had an mx and we both feel our confidence has taken a big hit. I bought some new clothes for my birthday and they look really odd on my flat chested, fat sided body .... But it seems a trivial thing to moan about when you hear news like Figgys.

Happy birthday foo foo bet the clothes look better than you think. Are you doing anything nice today ?

So sorry to hear about figgy. Barbara posted on facebook only the other week but I did not realise that she was figgy. Such a cruel and unfair disease.

Goodness - have you heard anything from Really recently? Last I remember was when she posted that she was home - hope she's doing OK and taking it easy.

So sorry to hear about figgy. Trice's post eloquently sums up my feelings too.

foofoo I hope you have a lovely birthday.

I'm hoping I'm over the worst and I think the last three days has given me a glimpse of quite how shitty the stem cell transplant will be. Feel better today thankfully and can now sit up without keeling over. 3 litres of saline and 4 units of blood over 34 hours seem to have done the trick. I'm hoping my blood results have gone up today.

Hello all, just checking in really.

difficultpickle eek at your hb and the dizziness. I hope the transfusions help and that they find a cause and solution for the dizziness. My hb got down to 61 last year and I didn't feel that bad, just tired and weak. I had a few transfusions during chemo and they helped almost straight away, but the improvement in counts was never massive, I was always still anaemic afterwards, but hopefully today's results will show improvement :)

foofoo grr at still having drains. No wonder you feel vulnerable. I felt the same without any drains, just from being a recluse during chemo!

Has anyone heard from knitting recently?

Best wishes to you all, I hope everyone is faring well x

Hi all
Have posted much lately but have been keeping up with news.

So sorry to hear off the loss of a gang member. Can only guess at how her loved ones must be feeling.

I'm plodding on. Last week at work was grim. My ability to cope with stress has definitely reduced. I'm hoping it will return cos work isn't gonna get any easier and I have to keep going for quite some time yet!

Love to all, especially those undergoing unpleasant things.

Flippin typos...you know what I mean...

I've been to my dressmaking workshop this afternoon - had a fab time and my skirt is 75% made . I'm booked to go back for part 2 in a month but may go next week to a drop in slot. Tea and cake provided .

Just bobbing my head in, not posted for a couple of weeks, have been keeping an eye on you all tho :)

Sorry to hear about Figgy, I never met her here but can appreciate her loss.

Just a big fistbump to everybody x

I've a few days to wait to hear about CT scan of chest's results. After the tumour was taken out, I thought bid be packed off and left the hell alone. I hate waiting for results. I've heard to many wrong 'it'll be very unlikely ifs'.

Goodness when will you get the results?

I've been here 12 days now but told to expect to be here for at least another 2 weeks. I suppose I should be happy that I feel well enough to be irritated by the thought of another two weeks here!

Such sad news about Figgy, thoughts and prayers with her family. x

Pickle, that's a bit shit. So tiring to be in hospital and sad to or b with family at home. Worrying too. Are they able to visit. Are you off limits to visitors (risk of infection). Not great.
Hope they're saying that to be on safe side. How are your bloods doing?

RIP Figgy, thinking of her family.

Having a bit of a struggle with genetics stuff due to fact that aunt's ovarian cancer isn't listed on the cancer register. Have not been in touch with this side of the family for 20 years for various odd family reasons, but having spoken to my cousin tonight am convinced, as they all are, that she did have a primary ovarian as well as a primary bowel (which they are so sure about because of the unusual-ness of the situation). Hospital she was treated at no longer exists. All a bit of a struggle to find info.

But at my appointment tomorrow I suspect I'll be told my plan to have bmx due to family history raising our risk, will be considered unwarrented due to the genetics department so far 'reducing' my risk based on cancer registry info. This is what she told me she was doing on Friday - and told me it was good news. clearly this is only good news if the info is true, not simply lacking. They won't even start brca proceedings until they get written confirmation that we're not making it up??!

Anyway - I'm completely crap at pushing for things and holding my corner. i've been so impressed by pickle's assertiveness under such awful circs. But feeling nervous of impending....battle?