nj I am so sorry, you really are getting the whole list of top life crises all at once. I hope you can recoup and recharge your batteries in a safe and peaceful place.
gigs perhaps we should meet up on Thursday for double challenge to JS. To undermine my usual bolshieness I wonder if that was a throwaway line between "mejia" chums that she may have regretted. I have a friend who is in advertising and when with colleagues she starts posing and spouting another language, it's like when kids try to big themselves up to be in a gang 
I think as mas has also experienced she can come over as having an illusion of superiority but often the people who do that are insecure. I am sure mas has also experienced that it is far from uncommon in Richmond 
She is on anti depressants for some sort of menopause rage which I can't say is a S/E I have encountered, PMT rage, yes (I've handed it down to little pigeons, karma) so maybe it was a delayed reaction, everything is clearly not as hunky dory as she claims. Anyway could be a line she regrets having thought about it......and if she still thinks we are all badge wearing attention seekers then, well we are in the gang none of us wanted to join....
Also clearly I bored you into good nights sleep...
Foofoo johnny depp where? He has filmed around here a few times so I always tailor my dog walks accordingly but so far only managed to spot the odd pirate /British soldier/mad monk, pretend horse ( it was only the top half of a horse, the rest was on wheels, presumably for someone so valuable they couldn't be insured to ride a real horse, not even a dope on a rope ) you know he turned up at a primary school in Greenwich when some child wrote to him about not eating sweets and cleaning teeth (creep) worth a try. Might be a bit of a shock when it is grown woman especially if you wear that nice hat you had on in Fbook pics they film a lot around here but Robert Downey Jnr, Jude Law? Also fail, though I stalked walked past the gypsy encampment for Sherlock. Of course had any of them spotted me they would have dropped everything, raced to my side and ravished me, fact.
really This is not a contest, it is perfectly normal to feel sorry for yourself and sad, as we have said the early days are the worst. The thing about this thread is that it is a chance to offload, to people who understand, hopefully it will help in the process of accepting what has happened and move on. It can be hard to believe that will ever happen but trust us it will. Of course having moved on there is still all of life's other shit that can be waiting in the wings 
no guarantees of happy ever after (unless you manage to bring yourself to the attention of Johnny
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smee saw that Michael J Fox interview, interesting. Also the fact that when he took drugs to mask his symptoms for filming he was accused of covering up the reality but when he appeared on television and the symptoms were only too apparent he was criticised for, well wearing it like a badge....
mas smee* and anyone else in reach of London , we will definitely let you know of next jaunt.