Tamoxigang - 41 and counting

[KurriKurri]

Morning all, new thread, croissants on trolley, and I'll put a brew on.

[MaryAnnSingleton]

brilliant about your ds kk - be very proud indeed.
Hooray for washing machine kitkat !

[Gigondas]

Popping in to say hi - well done t on results . Very good of ds kurri - really good for him.
malt- glad you are getting used to wig.

Had good day- managed a walk for uniform which was brill and sit in playground with kids which was so nice.

[malteserzz]

Glad you've had a good day gigs

Kurri I don't know many of these so called celebrities !

[kitkat1967]

Hi Gig - glad you had a nice day. Surviving the walking required to get school uniform is always an achievement.

I am contentedly working my way through the washing - will be even happier tomorrow when I can dry on the line as well.

[LadyBeagleEyes]

Well back from my darling neices wedding, and waiting to hear when I go in for chemo.
Ds is away to uni on the 13th so I've got to arrange all his stuff so I can't accept any treatment until then.
I don't know if I'll be grateful he's not here, though it's been the day I've been dreading since he got his results.
Don't get me wrong, I'm so proud but I'll miss him to bits, and as I'm ill in a funny way, I'm glad he won't be here.
Life is shit, that's all I can say.

[malteserzz]

It is shit LBE I agree but we will help you through the chemo. I was absolutely terrified of it but I'm on my 2nd cycle and touch wood so far I've been fine, no sickness or nausea just tiredness and a few days of feeling groggy
How far away is ds going to uni will he come home much ?

Quite pleased to have woken at 5 the last few nights the first time I've woken up has been around 12! Will try and get some more zzzzzzs

[Gigondas]

Rest up malt. I missed Cbb so as guru on all things tv tell me who is in it.

Lbe -no point pretending it isn't shit so vent here. I think you need to grieve for life you don't have before you move on ( topsy old me this bad was right -I didn't think I would get out of pit of despair but I did eventually). However , doing something about it ( chemo) helps . I agree with malt that I feared chemo but reality wasn't do bad.

Bit tired as couldn't sleep so watched tv til 12.30 and as I was tired started to feel anxious/down . But I did sleep soundly til kids case in after 6. Getting stitches out today at hospital .

Issue here is mini gig obsessed with gangnam style . Keeps asking to see video and trying to do with the dance. Kitkat be prepared for what happens when you are away in hospital.

Haven't forgotten about peppa pig tee shirt pic but was trying to get one with mini kissing it .

For all. Mas happy anniversary. Amber hope you had a lovely birthday meal.

[foofooyeah]

Morning, I too went uniform shopping but cleverly took my lovely Mum who paid for it!

Biopsy results today - this is my second one to confirm if second 'bits' seen on mammogram are cancer. Assuming they are. I have a date for surgery but worried this may change as treatment planned will probably change (was a wle will prob now be mx) and I just want it over and done with.

[MaryAnnSingleton]

thanks gig - good luck with stitches and keeping mini away from gangnam style
ladybeagle am sure once you've started it'll seem less daunting but still,it's pretty crappy to have to go through it.
Darling dh has just given me some sweet garnet earring for anniv...he has never chosen anything on his own in the way of jewellery so am very impressed and very touched

[MaryAnnSingleton]

cross posted with foofoo - loads of good luck today,fingers crossed

[jchocchip]

Yes everything crossed here for foofoo's results too.
I slept well. May have had something to do with dh on sofs

[malteserzz]

Best of luck foo foo

Gigs the ones I can remember are carol mcgiffin, Ron Atkinson, Louis spence, Lauren ( the child prodigy antiques expert who is now a woman) Mario from TOWIE, Charlotte from geordie shore, vicky entwistle and Bruce jones from corrie. There's a couple Id never heard of Courtney somebody and someone who was on Dublin housewives or something
Think Louis will be entertaining

Off to Stratford today

[malteserzz]

Might try that Jchoc !
Mas happy anniversary and yay to earrings from lovely dh

[KurriKurri]

Morning all Happy anniversary MAS, - how lovely that DH bought you earrings,- and enjoy your meal out tonight

LBE - it is shit, utterly shit, - this is good place to vent because sometimes you have to pin your cheerful face on in RL, you need somewhere to have a release. Children leaving home is a tough time at the best of times, - my DD started uni just as was about to start chemo, and on the whole I found it better that she was away, - we set up skype so that she could talk to me everyday if she wanted, but also so she could see me and know I was OK. Do tell your chemo team that your DS is off to uni, because they like to take all your life events into account so that they know the things you may be struggling with emotionally at any time.

Foofoo - fingers crossed for good results, but more info. means more carefully targetted treatment, and as you say it will be good to get this appointment over with - they are always anxiety making.

Gig - at mini gig and Gangnam style - could be worse, she could have become obsessed with 'Blurred Lines'

malt - I ended up only watching half of CBB - because DD and I decided to watch a documentary about a man who pretended to be a boy who had gone missing years previously and infiltrated his family. A very very odd story!
So I only saw up to the woman from Dublin Housewives (Who???????) going in. I was trying to tell DD who was in it, I said someone from Five who's name I've forgotten, she said 'If his name wasn't Ritchie, he will be one of the losers who shuffled about at the back singing the doo-wops'

jchoc - glad you had a good nights sleep, - does your DH snore? (mine does, very very loudly )

[kitkat1967]

morning all - washing in the machine and out on the line so the catch up is in progress.

All well here - I'm still on a 'no chemo high' but now rather oddly I feel that I've not really been through the process properly - doesn't feel like I belong in the post-chemo club - like I haven't really earned my stripes - if that makes any sense? or am I just looney???

CBB (and indeed BB) is one programme that I never watch so cannot join in I'm afraid.

[KurriKurri]

kitkat my lovely, - there are no stripes to earn, there is just treatment and other treatment. That feeling of abandonment and weirdness on finishing treatment is very common and a recognised 'thing' - it will make you feel odd, but hopefully it will feel a bit better once you move on to the next bit of your treatment.
The only thing that matters is getting what your team feel you need for your recovery, - it's irrelevant what treatment you have compared to everyone else.

I have an article bookmarked somewhere that I periodically post (as we get new people who might not have seen it before) called 'after the treatment finishes' - it's longish (there are lots of topics to click on) but it has a lot of really good insights into the emotions surrounding all aspect of the cancer/treatment process. I'll just go and look for it and give you a link. It was an article recommended at a breast cancer care meeting I went to - so its sensible not wacky!

[KurriKurri]

ta da!

I know there's 29 bullet point headings to click on - but you can cherry pick what you feel is relevant to you atm

[kitkat1967]

thanks KK. I'll have a read of it. Next week I'll be occupied preparing for my surgery so won't have much time to dwell on things . I just feel like a cheat at the moment.

[malteserzz]

Kitkat you're bound to feel weird, you had your head around your treatment and how long it would all take and now it's all changed. Have you got any nice plans for the bank holiday weekend to take your mind off things a bit ?

[kitkat1967]

HI Malt - Dh has an annual beer festival event tomorrow which he had thought he would to miss (basically the highlight of his year) so that's now back on for him. Other than that no plans as we had thought that I would be conked out all weekend. We were discussing it last night though so will def go somewhere on Sunday or Monday as I do feel really well now and the weather forecast is good.

Are you wearing your wig again today? I washed my hair yesterday and gave it really good comb - lots came out but still OK with my hair band on. I'm hoping it will stop coming out soon and that it won't be too long before i get some new growth as the patches on top are more bald than thin now!!

[reallyreallyworried]

Hi all,

Just wanted to say thanks for the advice. Finally received a call from my doc today, telling me my surgery has been booked in for the 3rd of Sept and have I decided what I would like done??? That's the bit that threw me, I thought they told you what was best for you!

Anyway I have appointment to go and chat things through with her next Friday. Then before I know it the surgery will be done! (hopefully)

So I feel a bit nervous and apprehensive, but at least I can start to fight this.

Sending hugs and positive thoughts to you all. I wish I could say more to each of you, the more I read the more I see what an amazing group of people you are. Wish I could say more to help you all

Xxx

[MaryAnnSingleton]

rw a chat will be good to sort out what's best for you,surgery wise -will be thinking of you on 3rd and sending lots of good vibes
kitkat don't be silly- you are well and truly included in this group and have certainly earned any stripes..whatever treatment you have or don't have,you have still had cancer..be kind to yourself xxxx

I am a complete idiot and have lost one of my beautiful earrings -only had them a few hours- am heartbroken- think it's somewhere in the hospital- have rung chemo unit and the security man. poo

[malteserzz]

Just saying hi from my posh hotel room had lovely day in Stratford then been chilling in the room whilst dh and ds swam
Going for dinner in a bit
Lovely to have a change of scenery !
Didn't wear the wig today Kitkat ( good job on motor boat I think !) but will tonight

[malteserzz]

Mas I'm gutted for you about the earring I do hope it turns up xx

[KurriKurri]

Oh MAS - I hope your ear ring turns up, what a shame. Is it St Anthony who needs to be called on at times like these?

reallyworried - so glad you have a date now, so you can make plans and arrangements. There are often options with surgery/reconstruction etc that they will want to chat to you about - or maybe just to talk you through the op. - Will be thinking of you on the 3rd - you and Kitkat will be having your ops at similar times, so you can compare notes!

Sounds as if you are having a lovely time malt - it's years since I was in Stratford - is lovely there