******The 36th TAMOXIFEN thread******

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You all out there? Pop this way!

Morning all from the shingly one feeling a bit yuk and tired but OK, managed to dose myself up sufficiently to sleep last night.

Malt - hope today goes well, don't worry that you are having to take stuff to help you sleep, - whatever gets you through atm, you will be able to lessen the dose and come off them when you are feeling better.

topsy and HND - hope funeral goes as well as these things can

MAS - enjoy your smog fix (How is he by the way? - he seems to be doing OK despite the diabetes)

trice - I will also lower the tone and say glycerin suppositories are your friend in this situation. (I have codeine for the shingles so will be stocking up on all things unbungish)

Asho - have fun at Lakeland, they have very nice ginger licorice there which I love (although DD says its disgusting)

Lonecat - situation with Ex and OW must be a nightmare for you. I would honestly go for no unsupervised contact if he is drinking heavily, - what an idiot he is.

Smee - it is winter here again too - I have the heating on this morning and my thick fluffy socks. (I have other clothes on too - not just the socks! )

I'm going to spend the day knitting - I made my sister gloves for Christmas and she's lost one - so she needs a new left glove

Smog is very well and adorable - he is really no trouble (though mum might disagree !)
Hope funeral is bearable hnd and topsy

May I vent? So the lovely physio called this morning to try and wean me from a zimmer to walking sticks to give me a little more control over how quickly I can move with safety.

Dh puts his time n motion hat on and enquires why I can't just have a zimmer with wheels and a brake. "because they are mainly used for people who would never manage sticks and EMIN is doing fine as you can see"

"Yes but she could move easier and faster without all the walking up and down"

She began to answer him again when he interupted her again.

I caught her eye and in a slightly raised voice I said "Welcome to my world" Why is he being a twunt today. Make him stop, please, anyone

Asho - enjoy Lakeland so many things to buy.

EMIN - You maybe need to point out the turning circle with a Zimmer frame and that with sticks. Also that mostly the idea with sticks is that there maybe a time when you only need one and you would have the marvel of being able to carry something.

KK - I am working through the steps to achieve reduce contact etc. It is just making sure we get everything right so that a court doesn't throw it out.

I spoke to the anaesthesia team this afternoon, they are reluctant to use morphine as the procedure doesn't warrant that and it is supposed to be day surgery. As vets we have a fab drug that blocks all vomiting in the brain and is fab you don't even feel nausea, but it's not avaliable for people. So they are going to put their thinking hats on and see what they can come up with.

what a shame you can't have the veterinary meds !

Hope ash has had fun in Lakeland ! Do they do candy floss machines there do you know ?
Am feeling a bit sick today,in fact probably have for the last few days -I guess it's my meds-things taste odd and my sense of smell seems quite enhanced too.

Earth - very frustrating of your DH! - but I suppose he is trying to be helpful in some way, hope you managed to get something worked out with the physio in the end

MAS - the odd tasting thing is definitely the chemo - I'm not sure what you can do about it though - I was told to eat strong tasting things to counteract it (and you might find that things which wouldn't normally appeal to your taste, do now) Have you got anything to take for sickness?

Lone - I hope they can come up with something that works for you, shame you can't have the vet meds. The court stuff must be very stressful - these things always take so long, and as you say you want to make sure there are no loopholes.

I foolishly tried to do a bit of gardening this afternoon (thought I would be more comfortable outside) but am now very exhausted and my head is hurting a lot. I've also just remembered I'm on tea rota for my keep fit class tomorrow, so will have to ring round so someone can do it for me.

Just had the best blow job dry of my life. I was very brave and tried a new hairdresser (going to the hairdresser is just as bad as the dentist for me) and she has made of my lank locks a gorgeous bouffant, walked back along Twickenham High street looking almost like glamorous trophy wife type (now all I need is a husband who realises I am a trophy) gazing sideways at my reflection in shop windows I am stupidly happy about it. I did consider asking for a Topsy but would have needed six months chemo to get the hair for it

earth I have a mental image of you being dragged down road by runaway zimmer with failed brakes, shouting at DH "It's all your fault". Vent away, sometimes DHs are not very good at the coping with this wife's illness lark.

KK what rotten luck to get it in two places. I know they can't tell you how long it will last when you first get it. DFIL (and he is a dear) was driven into deep depression by the not knowing when it would end but does a pattern emerge if it reoccurs? At least you now have tamed doctor into giving you whatever serious drugs you want

Lone Isn't there any chance of exH being caught drink driving? you really wouldn't risk it around here. What a complete a*hole. Can you try KKs approach to getting Morphine. They gave me morphine for my lumpectomy as well as my mastectomy, although not done as day case.

MAS The effect on your taste buds is horrible

Ash Very jealous of trip to Lakeland, may now have to go online and buy a new fruit manicuring implement to make my day complete...

trice and topsy Sorry but tone so lowered on this thread that poo jokes won't do it....

Where is gigs? Hope she didn't overdo it on trip to town

Also happy that had eyes tested and I have become more short sighted. As you get older you get more long sighted, Therefore I am getting younger

I am lurking but at home cos can't match the hair display. Town ok but waking at 3am with crampy arm no fun.

Resting now as off out for anniversary dinner so need energy to scoff.

Waves to all and post properly later.

Don't worry , hair deflating by the minute

Grr about arm at 3am

Where are you going for scoffing? I could stalk

Back from work knackered but felt better than yesterday and lovely to be with the children who took my mind of things slightly. Lovely friend at work had BC about 4 years ago so good to chat with her too
Topsy and HND hope the funeral went as well as it could
Ash what did you get from Lakeland?
Copy I bet you look fab!
Waves to everyone else I've been out all day I can't keep up !
Some good news today my smear test was normal I was stupidly 11 months late with that too so of course had convinced myself that was going to be bad news too!

Just had my 3 elderly aunts leave after a lovely afternoon with them. Funnily enough after first asking how I was doing and getting the health update out of the way I barely spoke for the rest of the afternoon.

Laughed, yes, snorted, definately, filled up, on a few occasions. The total age of these sweethearts must be around 230-240 years old and boy have they enjoyed life. Dh and I have marvelled at how young ladies grew up following ww2 by "keeping their hand on their halfpennies" and making a man the centre of their world once they married.

It has been truly heartwarming and I'm so pleased we managed the get-together. One other aunt is in a nursing home at the other end of the country and two of my former 6 aunts are no longer with us so it has been a rare day. (very happy tired sigh)

Earth that sounds wonderful but also makes me feel quite teary. I'm glad you've had a good afternoon

Hello peeps. On bus home from work. We have a film set in the council chamber next to my office and I had to stop walking downstairs with my salad as they said action and Jim Broadbent walked past...
Didn't sleep brilliantly last night hence late start late finish, will be out tomorrow night if I can find something to wear... will catch up later on silly phone now.

Copt - hair sounds brilliant, I am imagining this

Malt - glad you had good day at school - and good that you have an understanding colleague you can talk to.

Earth - your aunties sound fab, - so glad you had a lovely day with them

jchoc - ooh sounds exciting, do you know what the film is? (and can you accidently walk into shot and be in it?)

Enjoy your dinner Gigs. (Is it your wedding anniversary? - happy anniversary if it is)

Evening All

Funeral was nice .
Made me more determined than ever though to leave plans set in stone for mine (hopefully many years away)
HND and I have decided I will have an open coffin . And when people lean over my coffin to say their final tearful goodbyes , they will be greeted by me in full Drag Queen make up !!!

Is it your wedding anniversary Gigs ? How many years ?
Hope Mr Gigs has bought you diamonds ...

Am very tired this evening .
And I have a headache .
It's prob cancer of the forehead
Grump , groan , moan ...

arf @ that hair !
Happy Anniversary gig - yes,where are you going for dinner ?
malt glad you had a good day and have confidante in colleague
I have meds for sickness - the thought of taking my meds makes me feel heavy,even the water is hard to swallow.

Just wrote a post and deleted it as it was too depressing I've had a good day but now I'm tired and emotional
Gigs have a lovely dinner
Topsy hope your heads feeling better, early night ?
Jchoc wow fame!
Must get ds to bed now he's outside playing football with dh

evening all - oh KK there are girls at my school who really would like to look like that
one more lesson and then I pass - doing a little happy dance and I'm so not looking forward to starting my NQT year in September .......

earth your aunts sound like the tonic we need from time to time - I hope you have another catch up soon.
topsy if you do you hair as kurri suggests you will get cancer of the forehead ...

And I'm another one who vomits at anything - the nitrous oxide they gave me in labour made me .... as did the morphine after the mx - they did find something to stop me throwing up, but I can't remember what it was - but not the one that made me faint... that was vile

but the sun is out, the rain has stopped and clouds are doing the funny "i'm not a thunderstorm dance" so life's not all bad

night to all - off to prepare my last lesson - PLANT OILS - no raps here I'm afraid

malt tired and emotional is the euphemism for drunk politicians hope you manage to wrestle your boys inside!

Had a lovely arty evening with my dd. I even let her use my very special paper (the stuff I have been saving for a special occasion) and the glittery metallic art pens!

Malt, please be gentle with yourself, it will get easier. You are still in shock.

Coorong well done you're nearly there then the fun starts, best job in the world
Trice sounds like a lovely evening. You're right I am in shock and trying to do everything as everyone keeps telling me I've got to make the most of feeling healthy

Evening lovelies

yay for coorong have you got a job lined up for September? malt si right, this is definitely where the fun begins!!

kurri for you about the bloody shingles. That is lousy for you. Don't worry about GP - I am sure they are well used to it, and anyway, its completely justified. Take it easy won't you? The horse pills making any difference?

thanks for Race for Life donation amber - youre a star! Any other takers?

good hair copt !!!! Hope DD bearing up OK - exam time is so stressful. My Year 1s have statutory phonics screening test on 17th June. Am stressed for them already. Seems mad to be testing 6 year olds. Bloody Gove, he is such a cock. . .

Got new iphone through but ITS BLOODY NOT WORKING! I have to wait for the SIM to be swapped over to my number or something But I can't wait. I want to play with it NOW!!

gig hows things tonight, lovely? Hope youre doing OK x x x Happy anniversary if its today

MAS any improvement on your hands? Thinking of you x x x

jchoc you name dropper, you! Any sign of anyone else famous??!

Hope everyone is OK today. Lots of love to all x x x

Ha ha kk sadly not the raw material, would take hair extensions AND hair scaffolding!