I had an emergency section with my daughter and 6 days after her birth I became severely unwell I underwent major surgery and ended up in high dependency it revealed I had this rare illness of vernix caseosa peritonitis. I almost died and had other problems along the way. It has now been 9 months since the birth of my wonderful daughter and I am still ill. I have spent 3 months in hospital and am still recovering. I thought having a baby was a new exciting and amazing thing but unfortunately for me that didn't happen. I am now struggling everyday with it physically and mentally.