**TAMOXIFEN 35**the all dancing,fat boy snacking and drugs thread

[MaryAnnSingleton]

yoo hoo - over here- bring the trolley...

And gig are the cupcakes to keep mr gig in check? I can't believe his d
Bad behaviour last night!

My 14 year old is so much more sensible than me , she's just told me that she read in in the car but it didn't worry her because like you said they choose the most dramatic ones. She's fab

24 years is great - sometimes.

Cakes for me kids.mr gig drinking bovril and yawning - he seems somewhat tired.

Malt- your dd sounds ace.

malt - my teenage (at the time) DD and DS were a massive source of strength and support for me - sounds like your DD is a good lass to have around too

Happy anniversary Sometimes,- how lovely to get flowers - I am also trying to do a bit of decluttering - it is very cathartic, - we seem to have loads of old videos, and I don't know what to do with them, charity shops don't want them, I don't want them but it somehow seems wrong to just put them in the bin. I have also disposed of several old sleeping bags - how many sleeping bags does one family (a family that does not go camping) need

Gigs - Bovril is a fitting punishment for MrG after last nights behaviour , waft your cake in front of him, but don't let him have one

malt Actually those mag stories can be put to good use, as in instead of thinking how awful it is, you can think how lucky you are as it could be worse. Just wait for October and Breast Cancer awareness month when you have to avoid any magazines because every celebrity with a pulse parades their cleavage and tells of their "breast cancer hell" when they had a pimple on their breast once. At least that bloody Jordon is now persona non grata as far as using it as an excuse to flash her "poor scarred boobs"

gigs those cupcakes look wonderful, it nice to hear of you doing a little more each day. Brings our piss up meet up a little nearer!

13 bags of horse poo now dug into my scary raised beds (they are a design disaster, look like coffins for mass genocide) and my borlotti bean arch built with very chic expensive designer sticks from Petersham Nurseries (disadvantage of living in Twickers, you can't just wonder off into woods and get some sticks, you have to buy designer ones from very posh nursery www.petershamnurseries.com/plants.asp Just wondering if I dare unwrap my banana?

Happy Anniversary Sometimes!

Happy Anniversary dear sometimes !!
malt hope you can try to focus on the present rather than projecting forward (easy to say i know) Mindful breathing might help - concentrate on the breath coming into your body and going out again, and if your mind wanders then acknowledge that it has but don't follow it,just return to your breathing -= Mindfulness can be very powerful in focussing you on the present moment- you can't change what has happened and anticipating what might happen is a huge waste of energy as well as potentially distressing. Ask gig as she practices this and I believe has found it helpful.
ugh Bovril - yuck.

Sometimes, Happy Anniversary :-)

Malt have you actually said , out loud to anyone , "I have cancer" ?
Apart from when you told the children I mean ?
With that phrase comes a sort of acceptance .

The best advice I was given was to take one step at a time .
Don't look too far ahead .
Just look to the next apt .
You cannot control any of this , accepting that and letting go is half the battle .

What you can control is how YOU deal with it .
Once you have got over your mourning period (of how you thought your life was going to be) you can start getting on with life .

Even if the worst case scenario rears its head , we treat it like a life long illness such as diabetes .
Something we'll need meds for every so often , but apart from that we will get on with our lives .

You aren't there yet , and that's perfectly normal .
It's still really really early days for you , as I said earlier - you need to grieve first before you can accept .

Keep coming here and letting off steam .
Nothing is off limits , if you think it , you can gaurentee one of us has before !

Sometimes a very happy anniversary to you and Mr ST
I shall drink a glass in your honour tonight !

Butterscotch Angel Delight is Satans Phlegm !!!!

I have just made , and popped into the oven to cook , my home made chicken kievs .
And even if I say so myself , they smell deeeeelish !

Just sitting down with a cold glass of rosé , enjoying a quiet ten minutes , till DH and the DC get back from mass .

Ooh, yes for Sometimes. That's a v.long time most impressive.

Malt, it took me an age to get my head round it - I couldn't tell anyone out loud until well after my op. Just take your time. Cancer goes very terrifying to boring in time. It becomes a chore to live through (not the underlining there!). I know we all sound v. sorted on here, but we all felt as desperate as you at diagnosis. I had a panic attack on the way to my bone scan - have never been more terrified. It really will get easier with time. Hang on in there. Your daughter sounds fab btw.

You all talk a lot of sense. I'm doing ok most of the time have had a nice walk with dd and were all going for dinner soon
I will try and enjoy the here and now rather than worrying about the future
Told dh to stop asking me of I'm ok !

I forgot the underlining! Malt, that should have read 'a chore to live with (note the underlining..)'

I am having a rough day. I think I have come down with cystitis just because there is not enough on my plate. Why does it always happen on a bank holiday?

Malt, you are going to have to get good at avoiding those mags. It's all historic and not relevant these days. Also the number of people you may meet who feel the need to tell you about everyone they ever knew or heard about who had breast cancer who were really lovely but died. I don't know what possesses people. You can go from perfectly happy to despairing in seconds and they just walk away thinking how caring they have just been; not realising they have just stabbed you through the heart.

My mum enjoys ringing me up with lists of people I was at school with who are now quadriplegic or have been murdered by their partners. I think she is trying to cheer me up.

Oh no trice - can you ring ooh? Water and cranberry juice helps reduce it ( had dreadful cystitis coming back from holiday a few years back and that made it better til got to dr).

And yes about the dreadful cancer stories - just .

Mas- am not a big bovril fan either.

Waves to smee .

Chinese take away eaten - time for voice now.

Trice you are so right, and very good at expressing it.

No, gig, BGT, surely. So many more laughs

Congrats sometimes 24 years - nearly a quarter of a century! ......

Oh, and malt you OWN the word cancer. Saying out loud makes it less scary. Once you've told a few people, it sounds less scary, honestly.

I'm going to try the breathing technique - sounds useful

Cancer a word like virus or bacteria - covers range of things.

Did bgt til voice started - no rubbish tv missed here .

Thanks all. Nearly a quarter of a century, indeed. And still no nearer acting like a grown up.

Have just got in from Pizza Express (ooh get me) . I live right on the edge of open fields but there are five police cars and two ambulances parked about 30 yards from my house. I need to go and investigate, don't I?

Yes you do- we need to know .

I like pizza express ... Then again am hardly selective about food at the minute.

Have been out for a recce and now there is just one police car and a huge hoolie van. No sign of any fuzz though, I reckon they're all having a fag in the back of the van. How exciting. Will keep loitering and let you know if it gets good

I have told people on Facebook does that count ?? Afterwards I thought what a shitty way to tell people but it was obviously I'd told family close friends etc already.
We need to know about the police !
Had lovely meal and wine which may account for my good mood, nice family times long may they continue x

That sounds like French cops. I have seen them parked up near Our flat with table in back, wine open , food out and playing cards ( in full riot gear).

MAS yay for NED wine!! Will have to look out for it next time I pop in!!

we went to a viking reenactment at Corfe castle today - not sure who enjoyed it more, DS or DH. twas good, but the various vikings were taking it all a leetle bit too seriously

sometimes congrats on 24 years - thats awesome! pizza express sounds good.. Any sign of what the police etc are for?

kurri we went to Kimmeridge today and I thought of you. I sat on the beach while DS pottered in the rocks and thought of everything you're going through at the moment and so I threw some rocks into the sea for you. Sending you lots of love x x x x

malt sending you masses of hugs, lovely. Just be good to yourself and give yourself time - time to adjust, time to grieve, time to get your head around it all. Ask anything here, because undoubtedly we will have seen it all before.x x x

smee you still working? Not too hard, I hope x x x

gig at mrgigs abd his antics. Did you take after him with the Lakeland catalogue in the end?

DS going to ILs tomorrow so DH and I have a Sunday to ourselves. Going to a food festival (so rock/and roll) and dinner out at new wagamammas. Never been before - is it nice?

Hope topsy and HND are behaving themselves tonight

Trice sorry about the cystitis :(
My mum keeps saying but where did this come from as if it's something I've done ! She's blaming the coil at the minute