Earth - cry all you need to, - it's shitty horrible illness. But it sounds like they have a plan to tackle it, hang on to that thought. xx
Gig's sorry you had a bad night, and Malt too - I think sleeping pills are a good plan, - you can't function and deal with it all on no sleep.
On the waking up or lying in bed in a panic tossing and turning - my GP told me to get up get a drink, read a book watch telly - anything but don't lie there worrying, try to distract yourself with something (audiobooks are good too), even if you just lie awake listening to something through headphones, it is more restful than tossing and turning.
MAS - bugger about hands, hope the gel helps. Meant to say yesterday, - I'm glad T's appointment went well.
Ash - I also used to get roid rage - it's horrible, I snapped like a very snappy thing at anyone in my path 
Copt - I'm glad HH, VC and SW stood up to the Starkey, he is quite the most vile individual I have ever come across (well nearly) - he's a Holocaust denier IIRC.
I was also 
at the BC news today - sick of being told that if you get BC as a young woman you are an obese alcoholic so serves you right, - never seems to be the same negative coverage of male cancers or any other cancers in fact.
Figgy - if you are reading, how are things? - I have been thinking of you and hope things went Ok for MrF this week xx
I went to keep fit this morning - but really struggled to keep up, having missed it for a couple of weeks due to the virus from hell. I did manage to float about impressively to Colour of the Wind in our cool down dance though in my head at least
I bought a big blue flowered plant from a market stall which will look nice in my border, and a load of Dahlia and begonia bulbs in Wilko's which had been reduced.
Love to all.