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[MaryAnnSingleton]

new thread - bring the trolley over here....

I was a bit phobic of medics pre treatment. I think them taking my meds away is a ploy to make me like them . I need my pills please lovely doctors.

I do hate the whole being out of control thing and the dr / patient thing is the ultimate power imbalance.

Yes topsy- I had routine medical for work (which showed am healthy) but they had to retake my blood pressure as was so high due to white coat syndrome.

Also am skipping last bit of my course as it deals with what to ask drs and state of medical research. I don't want to know as I am
Fine with my head in sand need to know approach- any sort of medical cancer chat upsets me now.

Also useful tho some of info has been , I found some of things other patients said or did (like the I am alright woman a couple of weeks ago). This is of course their issue but I see no point in upsetting myself (and moreover having to go to the place where I hear about my scans etc) when it's voluntary and probably more upsetting than it is useful now.

I have to go to the same hospital for my dermatology apts as I do for cancer .
And as much as I want my skin sorting out , it took a huge effort to persuade myself to go !

Poor you- I don't even like going past tube stop where my hospital is.

Am knackered after two days in office (very long day yesterday) so taking it easy today. What level you on now topsy? How is the tooth mas?

Sigh- my face still aches and my throat feels a bit scrapy- maybe I have T's germs ?
Just finishing a picture- gig can you find a full face pic of your dad for me ?
Am meant to be having lunch out tomorrow with my German aunt ( widow of my dad's twin) haven't seen her for ages..not feeling quite up to it if this carries on..and we're meant to be going to dinner on Sat.at friends.

Sauron is sending Mas extra healing licks ...

Aw mas hope you feel better soon.

Glad you are feeling brighter topsy.

kurri no real experience of locked in syndrome I just wanted to watch as it was about a girl who lives quite close to me. It was quite an emotional programme as she is only early 20s.

Good luck to all those with appointments/chemos, etc. Heading to bed soon as spent all day at a rugby tournament and I'm still defrosting. Herceptin no. 7 for me tomorrow, where does the time go?

Yo all. Reading through. Yup, I have a phobia of hospitals relating to the cancer now. And I'm back there next week for the six month checkup. Gah.

I find it quite emotional going to checkups where I got my diagnosis especially. Think I would be ok with other bits of the hospital that don't have any negative associations. Nighty night all.

Just popping on to wish 14k all the best for today - got everything crossed for you, lovely x x x x x

must shoot - work today. will be back later.

have a good day, all x x x x x x x

Thanks ned
Pen, I don't understand why they've taken your meds away(thyroid?) but it sounds like it's really messing with you.I know how thyroid problems can affect you, body and mind and it sounds as if you're really suffering.I hope it's all worth it and you'll be back on your meds and feeling better soon.Hang in there, How much longer now?

Woke at 6am as couldn't swallow. Taken some paracetemol and penicillin and feel a bit better. Been googling top oncoplastic breast surgeons since then.

Hubby taking me, wish I felt well because I'd make him take me to waitrows as a treat. appointment is at 2pm.

14k - thinking of you today. Hope it all goes well.

Yep they took away my thyroid now they have stopped my thyroid meds for the radioactive iodine treatment. No thyroid hormones are not good. I have 3 weeks of it and have the treatment on Monday and restart my meds Friday. I am very much looking forward to my tablets.

We have some shiny suited estate agents coming round today to value the house. I am planning on working out which one I dislike least to use to sell the place after treatment has finished. We are able move catchment areas due to the dc age now to allow me to reduce my hours at work as we live in the most expensive area in the world (almost). Having cancer has made me realise I hate working full time and the timing is good so we are making the move ASAP.

I have a small window of activity before I will have to retire to the sofa later so am squeezing in the shiny suits this morning......

I4k good luck today

Good luck today 14k
And you too Pen with the shiney suits !

Good luck today l4k - will be thinking of you xx

Good luck wiht the shiny suited brigade Pen, - and for upcoming treatment and getting your meds back

amber good luck with check up - am sure everything will be fine

Can I have a few of your sylph like arses on the paranoia box please? - I have had very achy legs during the night for the past week - it is waking me up, and yesterday I was very sick (so common sense would say I have been coming down with a bug) but cancer brain is telling me it is a bone thing. I don't think it helps that I have gradually weaned myself off anti depressants, - They were making me so fat, but think perhaps I need a low dose to keep me on an even keel.
And my face is all spotty from my dermatitis, so all in all I'm feeling rather pathetic

Anyway the box is there, park your bums, and I will make

Love to all, hope Smee is safely home from Cardiff. How is the jaw today MAS?

thankyou topsy-babe

I'll shift myself on to your box kk - sorry you are feeling so rotten and all.
Loads of good luck with today 14k and hope shiny men aren't too awful pen
Have been sleeping on the sofa this morning as feeling not v well- just taken paracetamol so jaw feels better..cancelled
my lunch out today. Pesky thing about OCD means I had to get myself up and clean up etc and bath myself etc as I would be lying in bed fretting that I hadn't done these things. Temp. last night was 37.2 but that is ok I think, gone down to 36.9 this morning.

Add my huge arse to the box kk it will never come open now.

Shiny suits been and gone. Shiny shoes too. Aches set in again. Sofa time.
This time next week I will have tablets. This time next week I will have tablets. This time next week I will have tablets. Until then it is me and giant puppy and fluffy dog fighting for the sofa.

Aww - thanks you lovely bunch of arses

Pen you will never win over a dog when it comes to sofa space!

MAS - hope you feel a bit better soon, - do you think you are getting T's bug?

Thanks for all good wishes , radiographer said nothing to biopsy. Fibrocystic breast tissue. She's not concerned at all. Feel too I'll to think about it, throat is killing me and can't keep eyes open. But thank you. X

Hurrah for unconcerned radiographer!!
But grr re throat etc.

that sounds good to me 14k but sorry about horrible throat.

For i4k but sorry about throat . Will sit next to amber for kurri.

Is anyone else eye rolling about Jessie j shaving her hair for comic relief? She will still look nice - stop acting like it is such a big deal. Am a bit as when you have chemo you just have to get on with it if you have hair loss

thanks amber

l4K - that sounds like a good result to me, sorry you are feeling grotty, but when you are back to your normal self hopefully you will feel very relieved and can move on from the whole business!