A difficult few days, thinking of you all, Topsy today, gigs tomorrow, gigs it is normal to worry, not a portent. Even with all the reassurance and clear check ups I have had I am currently having neck paranoia, which makes normal nodes into lumps, it is totally ridiculous but it is where friend had her recurrence and so I can't stop myself reaching up for another probe. They should list paranoia as a side effect of Cancer, the one that keeps on and on. Hips very creaky too but I am sure that is using normally unused muscles to stay upright in the snow! Aw bless mini gig, when does she make her first appearance up the road, England under 21s months. Now that would be cute , baby Rugby! Poor DD2 still a bit of a prop forward, all her life she has been a head taller and bigger built than her peers, plus with the most stunning eye catching hair, not what a teen wants at all so she doesn't notice that actually she is gorgeous, though "you would say that Mum, it's your job" School did open today, just had call to say she is too "frail" to walk home 
pen I'd be bloody ranting, although Dr Geek suggested a fortnight away before surgery to relax 
You went through all the nerves and had nearly got it over with and the you find you have to do it all again and as you say you just want this thing out of your body, and out of your life. There was a book doing the rounds when I was diagnosed titled I haven't space in my diary for cancer or something similar. Plus ranting is good if that is how you feel.
Also thinking of atoz and hnd
MAS Hope support group meets, glad it is something you look forward to. My lot were like lovers, when we couldn't meet we emailed and phoned!
Waves to everyone else, smee work? would a spoonful of sugar help?! 