*tamoxifen* 31- in the bus shelter with the cheap booze

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Shiny new thread

So far my Pre scan canceritis symptoms are - breathlessness , stabby boob pain (in remaining boob and phantom boob) , stabby armpit pain , and stabby pain under my ribs .

Those may be RSI from
Being sat on a sofa crocheting and drinking...

I will always think 'hobbity legs' now when in my bath. Pure vanity but I was in bath last night (that bit's not vanity, but essential life skill really!), and thought - another job to do before next week's hosp visit is to shave my legs - and, as i find it hard to paint my own nails (bad joints, shaky hand etc) I've lined up DH to touch up the nail varnish. This weekend probably! He thinks I am mad .

At dh doing it- I have to make dh do mine as can only reach one toe until my physio works. I also quite like my hobbity legs as have a grim post chemo fascination about how hair has grown back (I am delighted at how slowly it is returning under my arms).

I have booked a leg wax for the day before my surgery. At least they will think I have smooth legs and unfairly toes ! Vanity.

Unhairy not fairly

at hobbity legs and unfairly toes. A new trend perhaps. I've just whipped off socks to check for 'fairly' toes, but expect everyone will be soo busy admiring my classy varnish job, or rather dh's, nobody will notice my toe fluff! Maybe. I have problems with rashes, well enormous weals really, when i shave legs so need to do them soon so they have time to settle down before anyone sees them.

Enough, well past my bedtime. Good night all (and thanks to Invicta for yummy mince pie). I need to get back on wagon re moving more and eating less too.

What do you think? I needed to get rid of the numerals - they aren't 'cool' apparently, and of course I care about things like that . It needs to be Basketsof 'something' but not sure what ....

nice baskets !!
pen are you not meant to have unvarnished nails for surgery ? I spent ages buffing my toenails to look presentable for my op.

+ve vibes for topsy today. Hope the voodoo-canceritis-rsi has gone away!

Work then drive to Mums with all my batik kit - dd wants to experiment...

Waves and love to all xxx

Just swinging in to wish topsy anti - canceritis vibes and everything crossed for positive scan today. Thinking of you x x

In my letter it says you are not allowed nail polish at all for surgery. I remember the midwife having to remove my toenail polish as I was wheeled down for a section !

Good luck topsy

Scan done .
Am on bus on way home with a DD who Won't Stop Talking !!!

Crochet Claw RSI still here

Glad scan done- I have sleeping baby shoulder so sympathies. Also I fear big gig is going same way as your dd topsy.

yay for topsy
now some advice dear ones- As usual I'm giving up chocolate for Lent,which is scarily from 13th February - I thought I'd add on sweeties and cake and biscuits - possibly pudding ? and I thought I'd do a Just Giving page to raise some sponsorship money. Which charity do you think ? obviously a cancer one is a good idea,as I think people might well sponsor me for something connected to me,iyswim - though I was toying with Parkinson's (for my mum) or one of the greyhound rescue or Battersea dog & cats (very close to my heart) What do you think ?

or Cruse ?
or an OCD or mental health charity ?

MAS Lovely idea. I do agree a bit with the disquiet over the dominance of the Breast Cancer charities in the fund raising world. Part of it is irrational, my pink allergy, but also partly knowing that other equally worthwhile charities struggle in comparison, less "sexy" charities like MIND, Manic Depression Fellowship, Help the Aged, those that help raise awareness and support those with Bowel Cancer (to name three I have particular personal reason to know are deserving ). I also supported an Asian charity that helps women with Breast Cancer in Hong Kong and China who do not have access to the knowledge, diagnosis, treatments and support that I was lucky enough to be able to access to save my life. There is no shortage of worthy causes. I would choose what moves you most, I am sure your sponsors will be equally supportive of whatever charity you feel most personally moved to support.

KK You are right, I have actually braved the cold and grey to get out, walk goon dog, and into the garden and remind myself of some positives about UK, the crocus's and daffs are poking up so Spring isn't too far away. Also I got a little bit of Tulip mania going around the shows last year and though I have planted millions of the things I still seem to have millions left. I think they are secretly replicating in the plastic bag..... I could leave them on the trolley, they could keep us all busy!!!

Topsy Glad it's over. I wonder if you're voodoo person has been at work with their pins on me too, since I have this bizarre memory that will not shift that remembers the lump being in the good breast rather than the deviant breast, in spite of the very clear physical evidence to the contrary. Of course I can't shake the suspicion that my subconscious knows something I don't ... perhaps the NHS should invest in Voodoo exorcisms as alternative therapy!

Ned I want to send my DDs to your class, it sounds like it will a lovely caring stimulating environment. They're a bit big though.....

Glad scan done topsy how long until results?

mas What a good idea. Those are all worthwhile charities. Can you split the money between 2 of the chosen charities?

I sympathise gigs with your shoulder. I have had an achy shoulder/collarbone for some time now and it is no fun.

Nearly school run time, my how the holidays have flown by.

copt agree with you-am not keen on the pink thing either- and gracie -yes,could share it between 2 charities- perhaps Cancer Research or Macmillan and the greyhound one as both mean a lot- am obsessed with pointy dogs and long for a whippety/lurcher/greyhound.
Just realised tht Valentine's Day falls after the beginning of Lent so no Valentine's chocs

The no nail varnish thing at surgery is true of course. I am going in for another liver biopsy, so not the same issue for me. I will have my toes painted 'salsa' red, as stated on bottle.

MAS, I think something like Parkinson's is good idea - it's a much misunderstood condition, also quite low profile as often thought of as older person's disease (though younger people do get PD too, just rarer). My mum had it, was 50ish when it developed first, so not young and not old . Also, mental health charities - eg MIND. Just my thoughts, as you have to go with what you feel most happy/comfortable with.

I have ongoing tendonitis in shoulder - even light Mumsnetting hurts . I just needed to give my latest (and final) namechange a twirl. Lunch and then some light present wrapping for DS. Glad to see topsy 'done' - do you have long to wait for results? See you all about later. xx

All fingers and toes crossed for topsy and best wishes to everyone on the board.

I've just returned from Dr 'Wolf' (the clinic chief, whose judgement I trust, so named for the wolfish look in his eye) who has given me the all clear post op. My Paget's hasn't penetrated at all (nor is it, as is frequently the case, a sign of something nasty lurking underneath).

Everyone I've told so far tells me I should be elated. All I can say is that I'm quietly relieved. I reckon you're all nodding in agreement with me, right? It's so easy for people to tell you how you should feel. I'm still reeling from the speed I've gone from one mode of normality before the diagnosis and the new normality I'm in now.

One thing's for sure, I'm going to take a bit more time to treat myself from now on and not work the pre-diagnosis 50+ hours a week. On the agenda already is a very welcome invitation to lunch and a walk with a girlfriend next week. Guess who's going to be 'working from home' that day .

Loma

Hello all (a couple of glasses of wine and it ahs taken me four attempts tot ype hello all - had aproblem with random capitals )

hello baskets(z) - you are confusing me with your name changes - I liked the fluffy one, but current one good also. Lovley to see you, hope biopsy goes well.

MAS - all your charity suggestions sound good, - i went through a phase f franitcally giving to BC charities, - I still do give, but have widened my scope again t give to other groups just as worthwhile. I saw a thing on another thread about a charoty for educating women in restrictive countries - making libraries etc i think - I've forgotten the details it sounded good though.

gracie - seems no time since the children broke up, is it first day back today 9seems a bit daft not to wait until Mondau if so) topsy well done on getting scan done, when do your DC go back to school? I have knitters hump (similar to crocheter's claw and Gig's sleeping baby shoulder )

Loma - good news from your Doc. - but yes I knwo exactly what you mean - people assume you are instantly bckk to normal, and should be jumping about for joy, - doesn't quite work that way though it takes time - you've beent hrough a lot physical and emotional. A bit of R and R sounds just the thing.

We have some sun here today - hooray - Copt I like tulips too, but I forget where I've planted things - so its always a bit of surprise when things appear out of the ground

I had lovely lunch (wore trousers, blouse and jumper int he end, as I remembered the hosts house is rather cold! so no leg trimming necessary) it was lovely met some really interesting women, one of them's husband is working on a David Attenborough film - he's an animal expert (the husband that is, though obviously David is too!). Another one was some sort of travelling vicar - she was really nice. Lovely food and good conversation, - and as I say a glass or two - hence the millions of typos that I can't be arsed to correct

at kurris typos.. Looks like you had fun. Yes today first day back, some schools here went back on Wednesday.

baskets nice to see you again. Hope your biopsy goes well.

Great results loma. I think people just assume you just go back to normal, I'm finding people assume I should be all fine and dandy even though I am still having treatments.

I am at the stage where I just might blow up the xbox and if I hear another 'lol' I may just scream

that dores sound like v good news loma but quite understand the feeling that you can't immediately bounce back to 'normal' - take it easy and be kind to yourself.
kk's typos made me laugh - glad you had a jolly lunch !

Kurri, are you on the sofa now? That hump needs resting.

Loma, am sure it will take a long while before you can trust, but HOORAY for results. Sound good to me.

Topsy, well done on getting through scan. Dare I ask when you get the results? Does seem a bit extreme to have to have a scan to get away from your chatty DD though.

Nowt happening here. Just dragged DS to Sainsburys and back, via a friend's, so he entertained her toddler while we caught up. Not going out, though DH has already fled to the pub with a friend from Oz. Hope you're all having a more exciting Friday than me. Not that it's bad, just I'm a bit bored..