*tamoxifen* 31- in the bus shelter with the cheap booze

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Shiny new thread

just dropping in quickly to wish hnd well with her counselling session and to ned for a lovely,happy wedding ! (ned's brother's)
Love to all for a good Friday- am off to hospital today then hope to go to shops (Paperchase beckons) and later T's haircut (and ushering him into shops to look for presents for g/parents/his dad) Is it big gig's nativity thing today ?

Mornjng all for anyone keen. Up early to see physio then off to French France for weekend.
copthall mini gig is definitely of same variety as your dd1 - water only and a quick return to cot meant minimal disruption (then big gig woke but she has a temperature so is allowed).

hnd glad counselling helps but so sorry about dsd. It's hard being in middle of it all- how old are your dsc? Mine are 20 and 22. Dss in bad books at minute with dad cos of not very funny joke he made about his dad. I think normally dh would laugh It off or ignore but he is worried about dss "drifting" along post uni and wasting time. He has form for this as had a year post a level to retake.

topsy rest up- I know what you mean about stamina not being what it was as I was done in after christening.

jchoc waves to you.

have a fab time in French France gig

French France ?
Don't forget to bring me us back some cheese and baguettes for the fbs trolley .

Morning all, - sorry I have been awol for a while - RL rather got on top of me, - I am trying to catch up with all your posts, but forgive me if I am behindhand with news and consequently say daft stuff.
Good luck to everyone having treatment, appointments and waiting for results.

Gig have a good time in French France - I'm so sorry I totally forgot about the recipe - do you still want it, or is it too late now I am so utterly disorganised at the moment. I will sort it and send it anyway.

It was my birthday yesterday - (53 -aaaaaaaaaaargh) had a lovely day, my art club was having a Christmas party so it doubled as a birthday party for me
Got lots of lovely art stuff from DH and DS, a DVD from DD, and some money from my mum. So a good haul!!

love to all, HND - loads of luck with your surgery - do you have a date for it yet?
Like topsy i'm also waiting for recon. so will be very interested to hear how you get on, - anyway massive hugs because it's all a big shock to the system, and it's OK to have a few wobbly moments, - great that you have counselling organised - I found it an enormous help. Sorry about DSD - not what you need at the moment, but while you are going through this, you have to try to put yourself first and let others get on with their own problems - be strict about people dumping stuff on you!

xx

Ooh yes - happy wedding Ned - have a great time, (can't remember if I said, but I loved your top - you will look fab )

hnd I hope I didn't add to your fears of the surgery, all of my friends recovered without any setbacks (apart from the side effect of chemo) and none have the slightest regrets. One commented that it is a bit like childbirth, you forget all about it once you have the end result. How awful to have the added stress of Dsd's issues (KK's advice is sound). I am glad the Counselling helped. It does take a while to get everything straight in your head and accept what has happened and move on. I spent quite a while thinking I would never be happy again but it was on a walk one day that suddenly it all seemed doable and there was light at the end of the tunnel, however it was September and sunny, not sure there is much light around at the moment, perhaps you could make use of the landing strip festive lights next door?

KK HAPPY BIRTHDAY for yesterday.

gigs Enjoy French France! But you will miss Rob Brydon switching on the lights Or are you rushing back to get to the green for 5.30 on Sunday, he tweeted it was a task he had not taken on lightly apparently.

DD homeward bound, and the welcoming lights are on (including another tacky festive creature in the front garden that she deems indispensable to the Twickenham illuminations, I am not however giving in on the giant Santa climbing up the roof ). I am having twinges of my eco conscience, I am sure our house is now visible from space.

HAPPYBIRTHDAY* KK !! you are young and sprightly - glad you had a lovely day and nice presents.
My chemo is being delayed by a week as my hands aren't good- my finger tips hurt like mad- nice lady onc also said calcium levels are low- what does that mean ? (apart from eating lots of cheese etc) So back again next Friday... she also wants to commission some pictures or cards
Hope loma and hnd are doing ok
Got to dash to take ds to hair cut...

MAS I'm glad you are getting a break, sorry about the hurting finger tips. I hope they will lower the dose to lessen side effects next time.

Chemo can lower Calcium levels and lead to loss of bone density, my Consultant considers that is partly why I have problems now, since my menopause at 43 wasn't that early, and the Tamoxifen should have protected me, and I am a cheese fiend . I am recommended to take a Calcium supplement. I could get it on prescription but I buy a brand called Osteocare which you get at Holland and Barratt, I take two a day, ask your medical team about it.

thank you for b'day wishes Copt and MAS - I don't know about young and sprightly, unless that's code for old and creaky

MAS - bugger about hands is it making work very hard for you? - I don't know anything about low calcium, but I agree with Copt - sounds like you need a supplement - have they suggested anything like that? (I have a feeling that people on one of the other anti cancer drugs - maybe arimidex - take calcium supplements, because it effects levels - but I could well be wrong).

Copt - it will be lovely to see your DD, - am impressed you have decorations up, we are doing ours this weekend, although we have done some paper chains and draped them around the place.

My DD is doing another carol service tonight, - she's had four concerts in the last week, - one was at an old peoples home, and she said the residents loved it, they brought bells in for them all to shake and DD said there was an old man in the front row who was singing away at the top of his voice, having a great time, bless him

It is very wet here, old lady dog is taking some persuading to go outside to the loo, - she pokes her head out the door then turns round and comes straight back in - I have to bundle her out, - she is giving me The Look

I think onc said she could give me a supplement- will see what's what next week- haven't been sdrawing much this week as finished until next year,though did design my new business postcard- holding the pen is fine but typing etc really hurts - it's all very odd. Am no longer on tamox. as it wasn't working they said,so maybe that accounts for lower calcium- am very happy to eat cheese,mind you ! it's weird as I think I'm eating more dairy stuff- loads of yogurt.
Poor old lady dog- Celeste not keen on weeing outside so sometimes uses her tray.
Successful hair cut and present buying - I was wise to do a recce beforehand as it made it much easier and the boy didn't get too restless.

Popping in to sing Happy Birthday to Kurri

Poor Kurri

And you are definitely young!!

MaryAnn and everyone you're very sweet to think of me when you have your own worries. I've had my first day on my own (DH back at work and best friend who was going to pop round had to rush across town to deal with fallen ma). I'm not surprisingly a bit low and feeling sorry for myself, a bit breathless despite doing next to nothing, then feeling guilty because my op was supposedly superficial. It doesn't help that I've had to explain to a couple of colleagues why I'm off as they were getting the wrong end of the stick as to why I couldn't do my bit with a big panic we've got on at work - I felt it better to tell them than them to think I'm swinging the lead. But now there's an added dose of guilt because it always sounds so dramatic, doesn't it? The big C? As if I'm exploiting my situation.

On I ramble. On the good side I stopped mucking about on Mumsnet and knuckled down to some work-related-reading this afternoon. Despite DH telling me I should have rested, it made me feel better. As my GP said, less "medicalised" and more like someone allegedly intelligent with a career.

One of you warned me I'd be feeling low today.

Thanks Elibean -your singing has to be better than mine I don't feel too old actually (but that's because most of my friends are older so make me feel young )

Loma - so glad you have got your op over with, I hope you are recovering well. Feeling low is very normal I'd say - emotions go all over the place, and things like having to tell other people about it all can be very hard, - so take things gently, and give yourself time to take it all in and get your head round it all - it's a big thing to have happened to you within a very short time, but you will get there

oooo, happy Birthday, KK!!!!

for those feeling urk

Thanks amber x

Am having cake tomorrow, will save some for the trolley.

Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday Dear KK
Happy Birthday To You for yesterday

Pink wine and French France treats for birthday girl kurri

I thank yew, -

topsy you have the voice of a chicken nightingale

Pink wine Gig lovely ,

I think the cake will be a lemon cake - DD is making it and has dropped some cryptic hints (such as 'you like lemon don't you?' )

yum,lemon cake sounds ace !
loma hugs for you xxx

Waves to all and big happy birthday to kurri.

Apologies not around much, very busy and no laptop is a pain but thinking of you all .

I likes lemon cake .
And I luffs pink wine .

Can I join ?

I had a thyroid biopsy 8 days ago and got a call from the hospital yesterday as consultant wants to see me on Thursday to discuss the results.

I am absolutely terrified as before the biopsy she said if all was ok she would not need to see me again.

How do I get through the next few days ? Seems much worse with Christmas going on all around me.

ah,glad you've joined us penis though not because you are so anxious.
The consultant may very well have found something that's not cancer and would obv. need to discuss it with you - but am sure your mind will be going crazy thinking the worst. And googling is a bad idea (though I google everything) I think by trying to occupy yourself with Christmassy things is probably helpful, but we do understand that the waiting is the very worst part. Stick around here for distractions, talk of all manner of trivia and some comforting hand holds.