TAMOXIFEN thread number 8 ********

[MaryAnnSingleton]

just in case we run out of space !

Cakes - am so glad you seem to be benefitting from the hypno ! still disappointed that you aren't getting the weird voice thing.

Ha, ha - still no weird voices. Really good though,

Good news about your Dad's eyes, MAS. And I don't think you can respond on everything - the thread moves so fast sometimes, and we are so chatty, you'd be here all day! It doesn't mean you don't care. Hair cuts trump smear tests, any day. You don't feel yourself if your hair is out of sorts - that's actually a positive side of the scarf/wig think - no hair anxiety at all! (I still don't recommend it though)

I think it is Thursday for LJ - here's some positive thoughts, in case.

day here too, but apart from seeing to the chickens this morning I don't feel like I was really out in it long enough to appreciate it. There was a real feeling of spring in the air.....but I heard a nasty rumour on the radio that parts of the uk were going to have more snow..... surely not allowed now we are in March.

Cakes - I really like the idae of hypotherapy but I am not sure if I could relax into it enough, and if I did I might just fall asleep and embarass myself

Smee - I am also sure the smear fill be all clear, but I completely understand where the anxiety comes from, you just can't take anything for granted any more, after what you have been through. My ds loves his new lap top by the way, he is still quite slow with it, but having said that he was either slow or illegible (sp?) with his writing, so it has got to be helping. Bless him he is so enthusiastic.

Subluxating, or subluxing a joint is when it partially dislocates, then being neither completely in or out of place, but with the bones "locked together". He does it simply by moving sometimes, he was walking this afternoon back to class from the ICT suite. The problem for him is he is so hypermobile that his joints do not stay in place like "normal" peoples. Ho hum, he got it from me I am afraid to say.

MAS I am glad to hear your dad's eyes are all right. He really sailed through it didn't he.

I also think Thursday for LJ rings a bell, but equally my memory can not be trusted.

OK where did the first part of my post go.....shiuld have said to Kurri that is was a lovely day here too....

Evening all! Quick update before bed:

Yesterday I had to go and have my eyes checked - I have had high pressure in them for some time, this can be one of the first signs of glaucoma, but they were the same as last time so that's good for another 6-9 months. Yummy pancakes for tea as I knew I wouldn't be able to do them today.

No chemo today, but did go to have bloods taken for it, then this afternoon had to go and have the portacath fitted. Now I have very sore upper chest/neck to go with my sore/achy right wrist and my sore/achy left armpit and shoulder. What fun . Oh, and the nurses this morning made a right mess trying and failing to find my veins for the bloods and ended up having to call the Children's Nurse who is used to finding tiny veins! So I have two lovely bloody bruises but these don't hurt now. I wonder if they were doing it on purpose in case I was having second thoughts about having the port?

Chemo is indeed Thursday (I would award a 'best memory' prize if only I myself could remember who got it right first )

Then on Friday I am seeing that nice GP who rang again the other day to see how I was. He has booked me in at the end of morning surgery so we can have a longer chat. My tinnitus has got worse recently so I want to get that checked out. [old crock falling apart emoticon]

But tomorrow I have a 'free' day with no medical appointments whatsoever! Yippeee! Hope it's sunny again.

Have a lovely treatment-free day today then LJ and hope all goes well tomorrow.

Enjoy your day off then LJ. And good luck for Thursday. It does seem a bit rich that you now have botched blood test bruises to go with everything else: just breathe: this too shall pass.

Subluxing sounds seriously horrible, then, sparkles. Like you I have hypermobile joints, but not at all to this extent. it sounds awful, and he is so brave.

It's a beautiful sunny day here: I hope it is where you all are, as well. And I am especially hoping for a sickness-free day for KK, so you can get some colour back in your face. If not - straight to the GPs for some help.

Mind aren't as bad as his either cakes....so I feel really guilty about giving it to him.

He is all right now though. I took him to church this morning for school, they don't like to walk him since the time he fell and had to go to hospital. The whole school had ash crosses put on their heads by the vicar, except ds who point blank refused, after explaining to me "I don't believe in God, and anyway why would I want to remember a God who would do this to me, I have only ever been a good boy" Well hard to argue with that logic.... although I was willing the vicar (a personal friend) to try. I hope that anecdote doesn't offend anyone, but I was left speechless by his clarity of thought. He sat straight backed on the pew watching the rest of the school get up, so he was determined in his belief and one has to respect that. I could imagine my father sitting beside him, alone there, for solidarity in his little stand. at same time.

Oh bless him And fair enough, says I.

Sparkle - you can't argue with his logic, bless his heart. There is no rhyme or reason why bad things happen to good people

LJ good luck for tomorrow I'm glad your got a day free from prodding and poking today, -and the port is in, you are all set and ready to go Let us know how you get on when you feel up to it.

I hope Figgy and LGF are feeling OK today, and not too tired or sore in any way.

Cakes I am feeling better today - I went to yoga and swimming - warned the swimming teacher I was a bit prone to dizziness, but I felt fine. I didn't take my tablet this morning - I just needed a day off from it - the way the medication works is a bit complicated (according to DH who gave me a long lecture about it last night ) So I will go back to it, tomorrow. And see how it goes.

Hope everyone is having a good day today.

Has everyone got their Census? Ours came this morning.

sparkle-what an exceptionally wonderful boy ds is- you can't fault the logic,I agree.
Our census form came the other day- haven't looked at it though.

Ours has come too. Haven't looked at it, the envelope is heart-sinkingly weighty. Another piece of cruddy admin to add to the (now teetering) pile. Sigh.

Glad you are feeling better KK, long may it continue - i do worry, you know

I have just bought a family sized halogen oven for £20! They are usually £60, on offer in sainsbury's for £40, so I have used a gift voucher I had, and got it for £20. Apparently it is a cooking revolution, according to the box

cakes

crikey- is it like a microwave or something ? am afraid of gadgets

Our census is here too had a look last night, very repetitive, not too daunting if you don't have a house full of adults!

Kurri - glad you are ok today, fingers crossed it lasts for you.

LJ - good luck tomorrow, I will be thinking of you.

LGF and figgy - hope you are both ok.

x posted mas.

I am imagining a box with a large lightbulb inside...

Halogen oven sounds very swish (there's an old fashioned word I thought I'd re-introduce)

Do not worry about me Cakes I am as tough as very very old boots, and a right moaner .

I haven't opened the census, the dog jumped all over the envelope with muddy paws when it was down by the door, so it's looking a bit worse for wear, at least she didn't rip it up

Good luck tomorrow LJ, will be thinking of you.

Busy day, so am just running in to say THANK YOU to Kurri, my Seamus Heaney arrived today. Very much appreciated. Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. Still think you should go back to the doctors though. I like 'swish' too. Is your cooking swish now Cakes?!

Wishing Limejelly a smooth run tomorrow. Sorry I got the day wrong. Not at all sure why I thought you were starting on Tuesday.

Sparkle, your son is really quite remarkable isn't he? Sad life has made him think that way, but I do like his rationale.

MAS, I was reading 'Toast' on the way to a meeting this morning. It's wonderful - brings back so many memories of childhood food. The exoticism of Arctic Roll definitely struck a chord.

Our census arrived too. It's unopened on the kitchen table, together with everything else which needs sorting. Amazing how much that table can hold.

Wonder if SR got her kitten today.

Hope Figgy and LGF are okay. You've both gone very quiet..

Sorry some of you feeling poorly over the last few days - I hope you're all imporving. Quick post to apologise for absence (Cambridge for DD's concert then quick visit to my brother in Shropshire) all very nice but a heck of a lot of driving all by me, in 3 days.

Anyway - RSPCA inspector did not arrive (problems with drivers...) so NO KITTEN as yet. Now due to be inspected Friday - DH will be in and we hope to collect Orlando on Saturday!

I'm here! I have been working over the past few days so its been a bit harder to come on here.

I am fine, although now paranoid about every possible germ that I might encounter, every little ache or pain and also that I don't actually feel that bad (so it might not be working properly). Oh dear :)

Yes, we received out Census a few days ago. Its still firmly inside the envelope. Will do it when I'm on my own and no distractions.

Cakes - my DP has been after a Halogen oven. He loves gadgets that might save him money in the long run :) Now shall I tell him of this bargin in sainsburys....hmmm?

LJ - good luck for tomorrow. I hope you had a lovely day today :)

Smee - I had a smear last week. I thought I might as well? In for a penny, in for a pound.... If i'm going to get bad news, I might as well get it all at once.

Hello everyone - what a moan I had last night! Was feeling sorry for myself, and a bit battered all round.

The port is still very sore but should improve over the next day or so. Not helped by standing in the cold with a heavy coat pressing on it, watching DS1's school teams play footie for an hour and a half after school, oh the joys!

Sparkle I am full of admiration for your DS, standing up (or indeed sitting down!) for his own beliefs at his age . And who could blame him for them .

Thank you all for your good wishes for tomorrow. I'm not feeling too nervous about it (yet) but this may be because I have been completely ostrich-like in not thinking about it this week. Because of this I suspect I am going to find myself woefully unprepared. Ho hum. I have a thermometer, soft toothbrushes, Corsodyl and pineapple if not much else. Oh, and two nice turbans from that site Kurri linked to! Made some ice cubes ready to suck and tried to drink more water than usual today, cue weeing every half an hour!

Now I'm off to read that huge list and panic!

Only joking. Hope you all have a lovely day tomorrow, hope Figgy, LGF and Kurri have feeling-good days. xxx

Oh bugger, now I feel like a condemned woman writing my last letter by guttering candlelight.

limejelly- you'll be fine I'm sure- one step at a time-wish I could send you some Mindfulness to help...

Special vibes for LJ and LGF. You are both doing great, and you'll be fine.

LGF - if DP wants a halogen oven, I'd say get him down to Sainsbury's as they are on offer at £39.99 at the moment. I got the heads up on this as DH is doing a bit of contract work for Sainsbury's. I hotfooted it down there and there was only one left!

tragically, I have not even got it out of the box yet owing to a hectic evening last night and morning so far today. But, while it does look a bit like a light bulb in a box (sparkles ) apparently it cooks food in a fraction of the time but, unlike a microwave, it crisps up the outside (so you can do a whole chicken in it) and you can also toast bread, bake whole loaves and grill as well (you can see I have read the box pretty extensively whilst stroking it ) and, best of all (here's the clincher), it is self-cleaning. Woo hoo!

Hoping SR's kitten makes landfall on Saturday - too exciting to wait any longer!

Hello all - I hope things are going well for LJ, and that LGF and Figgy are feeling OK today

I had some sad news this morning - my mother's oldest friend has died. They lived next door to each other in Glasgow as children, and have been close friends for over eighty years.

When I was living in Edinburgh (at uni) this friend and her family would have me over to stay in Glasgow at the weekends because I was a long way from home. They were so kind they took me all over the place on outings and took me for posh teas in hotels, they were all just lovely and I've kept in touch ever since.

Her death was not unexpected, but very sad- she was a lovely,lovely woman. And I know my mum was very upset. I spent about an hour on the phone with mum earlier and she was remembering all their childhood escapades.

I'm going to a BCC talk on exercise this afternoon, so if I pick up any good tips, I'll pass them on.

Love to all.

I know I should be positive and resilient, but life sucks. DLA reconsideration turned down for ds, no reasons. Can I have a pitiful moan? Sorry, no support for ds from anywhere, school, LEA, doctors (except gp), NHS, DH quite frankly, sorry darling but true! I just can not do this anymore.

Sorry very selfish outburst, but feels like another washing of hands by everybody, and he is my baby.