My mum died last week - it wasn't unexpected as she had been battling a brain tumour for the last 20 months. I was with her the whole of the last 3 weeks minus one night so it has been a "relief" in that she is now free of pain,no longer suffering and I can go home. But I have always been a very emotional person and cry at just about everything - happy and sad.It is a bit of a joke for people that know me. But now of course I am just crying so much - every time I have to tell anyone what has happened, any time that anyone even just asks how I am, whenI answer the door to the postman because I know that he's got more lovely cards for me, when I saw christmas decorations and realised that my mum wouldn't be here for any more christmases with my girls etc etc etc!
I have been to my GP and asked if she could give me anything that I could take to enable me to get through the funeral a bit more easily. Basically I know that I will end up with a migraine by the end of the day through crying so much.But I really want to try and be able to talk to some of the people that will be there who I haven't seen since childhood. She's given me some diazepam tablets - 3 to be taken throughout the day and one to practice with.I was going to practice today to see how it made me feel, but forgot,so will practice tomorrow but I'll be at work.
But does anyone know what diazepam will do? Will I be able to drive? How will it make me feel? Or do you have any other tips for getting me through the funeral?