She ain't heavy.. she's my Lighter sister... tra la la la laaaa!

[Mittz]

Well, I'm just here for the banter and a chance to talk bollox, and we also do weight loss, WATER drinking (I'm the 'ficcial water monitor, and I have a badge), and heart to hearts..

I am the Mittz(not Mitts), I need to lose about 10lb, but get my head straight in the process..

I am sure one of my lovely companions will be along shortly......

lovely poem, i think, although thinking about it more it makes human nature not nice as we only like to support those who 'look' worthy, and mainly so we can feel good about ourselves. i think.

be lovely to be by the beach, we're about 2 hours away from any really here.

mouse - its driving me mad. im getting really frustrated, how the hell you deal with it i dont know. i wanted to slap her yesterday obviously i never would but the screaming wouldnt stop and dd was 'make her STOPPPPPPPP ITTTTTTTTT' and i couldnt soothe dd2 at all, then dp phoned and im afraid very choice language was used on the phone to him. I seem to remember 'YOUR fucking baby wont stop screaming and i hate her and she hates me and i want to put her in CAREEEEEEEEEEEE'

think trying to make both dd1 and dd2 happy when dd2 wont stop screaming/puking is taking its toll.

rant over-ish

mouse - she said to put the gaviscon in the food and the milk, that shes probably teething too. i think shes crying because shes not getting any sleep with dd1 here. it is projectile i think, it seems to shoot out and goes quite a way, a metre probably. dr checked her tummy and temperature said both were fine.

uno - i still have no idea what your h did, still havent read your other posts (crap stalker that i am). if he lies about everything you may be actually with my dp if thats any comfort. probably not, just means theres more than one liar out there

Mouse I will try, I promise. It's just a pita when he declares that he thought it was all fine again now . I wish he could see how that makes me feel.

I've got piles of "stuff" lying around the house ready to be packed . I've made hundreds of lists, can't find half the things I've out on them, and am quite stressed about that prospect of forgetting everything! But in a surprisingly cheerful way. Que sera sera

Fluff I am very disappointed in your stalking but it sounds like you have enough on your plate at the moment. Wish I had some answers for you. Don't beat yourself up for getting frustrated, anyone would. Just keep taking it all a minute at a time. Hopefully this will pass really quickly.

Id one thing the past three years has taught me is that I can do it all alone. I don't think I knew how strong I could be until he pushed me to the edge and I said 'no more'. H has changed so much since his depression began. He used to be generous and thoughtful and patient, now his first thought is always for himself (not even the dcs come first) and he struggles to consider anyone else at all in any of is decisions.

It's tough because although that is so different and so horrible, he is still the same man; funny, chatty and great company.

I hope the man I married will come home one day. But I don't really believe he will.

uno - that sounds really hard he's not the h that had the strangling incident is he? (sorry if he is and you didnt want that raked up)

Fluffs - I have emailed you. Easier than filling a post on reflux!!!!

No fluff, not him. It's all mh issues, which is why him messing with his medication is so infuriating.

ID it's a very odd relationship to be in. The dcs know everything and are amazing, but have suffered too.

A sensible person would have given up and left him years ago but I'm stubborn damnit.

One day he may be better. But I think I have to assume that he'll always be ill.

He's trying not to be selfish, so that's a start. He recognises it's not what he wants to be, but he finds it hard to take an active role in his improvement.

I think he thinks that if he waits long enough I'll accept him how he is. But I won't.

I spend a lot of time waiting for him to change, the only time I made a decision to move forwards and went back to uni, he had a breakdown. And I'm fully aware that he manipulated me into giving it up. Hindsight is a wonderful thing

Compared to then he is already a thousand times better. But he's not 'good' yet.

Right, what have I forgotten to pack?

I have a non-competitive vagina I'm afraid. It's retired ;)

Fluffs - email is down, will send as soon as it's back.

My vagina would put all of yours to shame!!

It's truly wonderful.

Wot-evva!!

Double - what's he doing?

I'm BAAAAACK!

Did you miss me?

What have I missed?

Hello bitter, you've missed competitive vaginas . Probably best you missed it.

I have news!

Just got a call from the job people and I've been invited to go for the next stage, a company medical.

That's got to be a good thing! No job offer, but that must mean a yes subject to fitness? Or am I jumping the gun?!

And thanks ID. Sometimes I even feel strong these days.

I go away for a morning, and you all turn into the Foo(f) Fighters!

Uno - hope you enjoy your break.

Double - good luck with exploring re:move. I'm guessing you want to go from small place to a bit bigger place with a bit more chance to fade into the background?

Fluffy - I strongly suspect my DS had undiagnosed reflux, but it cleared up on weaning (helpful eh, since it seems weaning has made things worse). sympathies re:laundry, the amount of bedding that had to be washed..... anyhoo to my completely unprofessional mind - as well as the gaviscon, why not go back to square one with the weaning, introduce food back one by one to try and narrow down if any particular food/texture is causing a problem...

Fab News UNO

I think it's probably best I missed the competitive vaginas. Don't think mine would win any prizes!

Pleeeeease someone do me a roundup, I can't read 20 - odd pages.

BITTER

YOU'RE BACK!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYYAAY!!

Alright me lovely? I believe you are now posh and slim in comparison to those who frequent Butlins

Is anyone doing a round up????

I'll check back in a mo and do one if not.......

Crunchy - well done, I gues that is a possible yes, they usually have to pay to have medicals done so fingers crossed.

TC - at foo fighters!