Not a hysteroscopy but I am being treated for PTSD because of this .
At nineteen I had a labiaplasty - most of my labia minora was removed and most of the tissue around my clitoris (hood reduction) - due to a genetic condition (everything was so excessive I couldn’t pass urine - they think it might have been hormonally driven although I am fully genetically female).
I wasn’t given pain relief, I wasn’t supported at all - I had in excess of 35-40 stitches and wasn’t given any pain relief at all. I wasn’t given a buzzer, a proper bed for 12 hours, I wasn’t allowed help to use the toilet and I wasn’t allowed to sit on my bed the next day - I was told I had to sit on a plastic chair . My stitches were removed in the nurse’s office with tweezers and again, no pain relief .
I’ve since been back and forth for ten years with chronic pelvic pain and severe period pain; forced through dozens and dozens of examinations and scans and shouted at, sworn at, sexually assaulted during one, had a speculum thrown across the room by a doctor when I asked her to please stop as she was hurting me, been told to grit my teeth or bite down, been ridiculed . In my best estimation I’ve well over 200 internal examinations . They’ve never diagnosed the pain thing - therapist said she’s 99% convinced it’s actually psychological due to trauma .
In all that time I’ve had just four doctors who have cared . Two GPs, two very senior consultants . Also one psychological therapist . In every other case it’s been ‘but everyone else can do this, why can’t you?’
Even needing a smear - ‘But I really think you should try harder - surely if you learn to relax’
I have nightmares now that I’m in that position again . I black out at doctors appointments because they’ve got a couch . Had the dentist yesterday and spent the entire time in tears because the chair reminded me of it . Pilates instructor said to bend my knees apart and I had to stop - because it reminded me.
I genuinely do not think the NHS care . If they did, they would never have let it happen in the first place . They certainly don’t care much about the PTSD; my therapist is wonderful and really does help me but telling consultant ‘nothing we can do about that is there - you’ll get over it’