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what will happen to me?

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clayre · 02/03/2009 10:00

I had anxiety issues and panic attacks when i was a teenager and saw a cousellor (nhs so not very often) when i stopped going i thought i was 'cured', now i realise you cant be cured but can only manage it through learned techniques.

Fast forward 10 years and i am probably worse than i was 10 years ago, i dont suffer from the same type of panic attacks, before there was shortness of breath and thinking i was going to have a heart attack, now i have a problem with food, i wont/cant eat if im going out anywhere, i wait until i come home, i take anti diaorreah tablets if we have anything planned for the next day incase i get ill, i live in fear that i'll have sickness and diaorreah, i only go places that have toilets i avoid sistuations that i have to be in strange places 'just incase' i cant eat in public. My dd goes to school and my ds goes to nursery so i dont eat anything till they are both home, i sit all day worrying that something will happen to them when they are at school/nursery and i will have to go and get them.

I know this isnt normal behaviour, i know i need help! But will happen to me, what will they do to help me? and what about my dc?

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poshwellies · 02/03/2009 10:23

Go back to your gp clayre and ask for help-you could get referred for CBT therapy and maybe even meds for your anxiety-nothing will happen to your children-lots of us suffer with severe anxiety,they don't take our children away.

You sound like you are suffering with quite severe health anxiety (Mine's better at the mo-but I go through stages of not being able to eat out)-and it's treatable.

Try this site for support/information.

Don't suffer with it,go back to your GP.

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clayre · 02/03/2009 10:32

Thank you

I think i have had enough of suffering now, i feel like im a big tight ball of string that needs to be unraveled.

I have been called for jury duty and since i got the letter on saturday all i have done i cried because i cant cope with the thought of it, i shouldnt be like this i am a 27 year old mother, i want to just enjoy my life and not be in a constant state of fear.

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clayre · 06/03/2009 07:58

i have worried and stressed about this all week, im away to try and make a dr appointment for this afternoon, wish me luck!

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chimchar · 06/03/2009 08:07

hi clayre...just read your posts.

good luck for today...you're doing the right thing by seeking help.

be honest, tell them everything, and look forward to unwinding that string, little by little.

let us know how you get on.

here, have a hug too! ((((())))) x

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clayre · 06/03/2009 08:32

i have one for 4.40 it took half an hour to get thru

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clayre · 06/03/2009 08:33

chimchar, thank you, its hard to get RL support for things like these its nice to get support from here xx

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tiggerlovestobounce · 06/03/2009 09:04

Good luck for later on Clayre.

It might help if you print out your post, or write down how you are feeling, and then take it with you to the GP. That way, if it is too difficult to say how you feel you can show them what you have written.

You mention your children - what are your concerns? I know that sometimes people worry that social services might become involved? Is that something you are worried about?

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 06/03/2009 09:07

Good luck for later Clayre,
as someone who is currently getting help for anxiety - I wish you well, you may need to push for help but it will be worth it.

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clayre · 06/03/2009 09:18

tigger - thank you, i am worried that ss will become involved, i think you are right about writing things down, i feel that when i get there im just going to cry!

Greyskull - its good to i'm not alone, i didnt need to push for help when i was younger but 10 years ago counselling rather than medication was a new thing and i think now more and more people are going for counselling so resources are pushed and i think there willbe a long waiting time, but i cant go on like this any longer i will push for help.

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tiggerlovestobounce · 06/03/2009 09:33

What you have written in your OP doesnt sound like anything that SS would be interested in.
Be as honest as you can with your GP. Dont be tempted to play things down, as if you do that you might not get the help you need.

It doesnt have to be a straight choice between medicine and psychological therapy. One option could be to take medication and get referred to psychology, that way you arent waiting for months with nothing changing, and if the medication helps a bit you may be better placed to make the best use of the psychological therapy.

Did you have an actual date for jury service? It is usually pretty easy to defer jury service - if you phone them and explain they might put it off for a bit.

morningsun · 06/03/2009 09:46

hope it goes well later
is your fear of eating in public or alone and is it related to being sick,or choking?
Maybe you need help to reduce the general anxiety you have and to start doing the things you are afraid of bit by bit so they become less scary.
Come over and post on the "anyone else struggling with anxiety "thread as well, we've all had or have anxiety on there and use the thread for a bit of supportxx

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clayre · 06/03/2009 09:52

tigger - i have a date for the 2nd feb, its got me in such a state, from actually getting myself to the court to finding a childminder (the court people seem to think this is quick and easy)

morningsun - i think i have read your thread, you sound like the way i was when i was younger. I have a fear of eating in public, i think its s fear of being sick becausei cant eat before i go out either.

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morningsun · 06/03/2009 09:54

2nd feb 2010?

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clayre · 06/03/2009 09:57

no 2009 in a few weeks

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clayre · 06/03/2009 09:57

oh 2nd april sorry

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morningsun · 06/03/2009 10:13

oh i see.
is there a way to appeal for deferral on the form they have sent you?

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clayre · 06/03/2009 10:19

i can get off if i get a medical certificate, but i feel that i shouldnt have to do that, i should be able to go and do things like that without giving it a second thought

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morningsun · 06/03/2009 10:20

do you have to be residential or just available in the daytime?

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clayre · 06/03/2009 10:46

just in the day time

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morningsun · 06/03/2009 10:51

one small thing i found useful when i had some feelings of anxiety due to pts [i didn't suffer with panic attacks]was to try to broaden my life as i had unwittingly got in a rut regarding new experiences.
So each day i said yes to things i would have normally refused,wore a different outfit each day,drove to somewhere new each day etc and it worked well.

tiggerlovestobounce · 06/03/2009 20:10

How was your appointment clayre?

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clayre · 06/03/2009 21:03

it was fine thank you, i got beta-blockers and have to see the dr next week and get blood taken, still feel horrid thou but hey ho the process has began!

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tiggerlovestobounce · 06/03/2009 21:50

I'm glad that it went well for you. Hopefully the beta blockers will help.

chimchar · 07/03/2009 09:32

clayre...well done for going and getting on that road to feeling much better soon. do keep posting, and again...well done...the first step is often the hardest. x

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clayre · 12/03/2009 18:27

Got dr's 2morrow morning, am in a state, i think its the blood tests that are making me feel ill, i am keeping breathing and the tabs do seem to be helping

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