I'm gonna fall apart i just know it

[nutcracker]

Have been trying so hard not to post under here but feel like i'm gonna fall apart.

Not even sure why, well no thats not true am fed up, lonely and fed up. My kids have been quite good these hols but am ready for them to go back now, i just want a break teeny tiny one thats all.

Am trying to lose weight and failing miserably, it's just not working, the more i do and less i eat the fatter i get.

Have got a headache (my own fault too much vodka) and could just cry for nothing really. Even a few threads on here have made me wanna cry and there was nothing wrong with them.

Don't like me anymore, wanna swap.

Awwwww babes, believe me, i know exactly how you are feeling, what you have just posted is a mirror image of how i'm feeling (except my headache is two bottle or red wine).

Haven't got any suggestions but just wanted you to know you are not on your own.

whats your weather like - its nice (but windy) here - can you go for a nice walk?
or go buy a nice gossipy mag and have a milky coffee??

So sorry you feel this way. Could it be the strain of the holidays (even if your children, unlike mine, are being good). I know I feel like running screaming from the house right now. Anyway, when they go back to school, you will have a change of routine which might make you feel better.

Can't help with the weight loss thing, though (don't bite my head off) I wouldn't have thought vodka was good for the diet!

Hi Nutty. Sorry you feel like this hun.

How are things in your relationship? Can you get away for a weekend with your dp?

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No i know the vodka is bad for my diet, but felt like getting peed. Not good i know.

Had told the kids they could go outside but now it's raining. Eldest 2 have gone upstairs to play dressing up and ds is playing with the vacuum.

Part of me will feel a bit better once they are back at school i think.

Just feel like i'm on a slippery slope to destruction and can't get off.

Sorry that sounded OTT wasn't meant to.

Northener - that did make me laugh. Think a weekend away with dp might be worse than staying here with the kids.

Sorry

Think that may be part of the problem then?

Yeah it is but i usually cope ok with it, you know just get on with things, but it is getting on top of me now i think.

Is the situatio with dp fixable?
Do you want to fix it?

i know this is going to sound patronising, but the drink makes you depressed. i know i do it too. have no advice, think its quite normal at this time in our lives to feel all strange about stuff

Your right Fio and i know that too i think, just wanted a drink though. Have never drunk so much as i have in the past few weeks.

Nope Northener it isn't fixable, i don't want to be with him and he shouldn't want to be with me cos i am awful.
I know people have given me countless advice on ending the realtionship and honestly it is something i am working on but am trying to do it slowly so that i do it right i think.

Somwtimes i wish i could do it quickly though.

neither have I nutcracker, i have drank FAR too much. Really must stop. Will do when kids go back to school

Well i have run out now so will have to stop

LOL

I'm feeling really low too, everything is falling apart. Thankfully the kids are happy colouring and ds is going to a friends to play at 2pm. I'm soooooo bored, I have loads I could do, but don't want to do anything, all I have done today is stare at this screen and eat chocolate. I have no money so can't even go out, I would love to take them out for a treat.

Roll on Monday, back to normality, I'm fed up of being a miserable mum.

Sorry, not very helpful, I know, just wanted to let you know i feel like crap too. School holidays should be banned.

Yes they should Golds, or should come with free tickets for local attractions , or a nanny

Mine go back tuesday.

got the six weeks one to look forward to next. I should love and cherish these special times with my kids and fill them with many childhood memories.

Sorry was dreaming for a moment there, all my friends seem to lead a much more exciting life and have so much enthusiasm, I don't know how others do it. I should be grateful they are playing nicely I suppose. Note to self - stop being so MISERABLE

Well dp has just decided that tonight is the night to get dd2 to sleep without her lamp on great just what i need (not).

She will be screaming and crying hysterically and i will be running up and down the stairs. Ahh well at least it will help my diet.

feel like running far far away and never coming back

Nutcracker, how old is she? and why has he suddenly decided that? Surely its not doing any harm, both my dd's have night lights and they are 3 and 5

I would leave her lamp on until they at least go back to school/playschool as your patience will be better. You dont really want to be dealing with kids all night when you feel so bad

tell him to go f**k himself

I won't be turning my two's lights off until they are ready, not bothered about their age, as long as they are happy and sleep through.

Hiya, well we compromised. She had her lamp on but i told her i would switch it off when i went to bed. This resulkted in tears etc but she agreed and so far so good.