I am on citalopram for anxiety and until recently I was feeling great. But what with one thing and another I am ploughing my way through a great puddle of self-doubt and misery atm. I have a job that I don't feel confident at - I try but I always have the feeling that I'm short-changing my company. I've put on weight on - for the first time in a long time I feel fat and I hate it. I need to diet and the idea makes me miserable. DH and I are OK but I'm off sex and having to pretend to want it. I look at my lovely children and I don't deserve them. And I am so upset at all the threads about private schools atm. I don't totally approve of private schooling (I had a private education and I don't want my DCs to go through what I did in many ways) and all in all I am happy (more than happy often) with the state education my DCs have had so far. But I read all the threads on here about how even the 'good' schools aren't good enough and I wonder what I'm missing. Am I depriving my children? I go through life thinking that the world is a lovely place and most people are OK, and sometimes I wonder if I'm just deluded and in fact it's all a heap of shit and I'm a fool to beleive otherwise.
Awwww... shit