am beibg unreasonable to just say fukc it ad just froget it

[CvQ]

what you tink eh?

yeah i agre
se ya

hi CvQ - you ok?

YABVVVU

Oi CVQ rant at me a while, I'm here all lacking a bit if a rant and everything. Come one!

please?

Gah, where have you gone? I was actually doing some work for a change and didn't see your message quick enough

sory ws busy.noim not laright nd i dont evn care anmore

Aw shit. Go on, check in wee small hours you know you want to.

And there'll we'll be wondering where CvQ is and saying things like If only CvQ was here we could talk random nonsense and mess around on youtube.

Hey hey CvQ.

It's cool to say fuck it for a night, let's talk about something else if you like?

ive hds it

No you haven't

What were you up to today.

I am learning to drive.

wana a bet

Nah I'm shit at betting I once bet that I could drink a halfpint of vodka. That did not end well.

But I will say with confidence that you are not done. You have more.

wassup? What's happened today to make you feel so much worse?
C'mon, talk to us, we're here to help you

if you don't want to say, that's ok too - we'll talk about something else

a awhoeday of disappinment ralisation i am shitmoum a babya who thnks night is day an di am pisse coz i dont cre now.hows hat

CvQ?

Come on, talk dammit. or at least type thoughts to us?

Hello

Baby who think night are day. tricky buggers really, my first dd was very much like that.

It can be sorted. I promise. I really really promise. You will sleep again - I swear.

Just how shit a mum haev you been? You know we all think we're shit a lot of the time, because we are not perfect and parenting is hard.

ivesmackde him
i wna die

Aw pet - is this because j wouldn't fall in with the plan you were given to help his routines?

Babies are buggers like that. My DS has been on hyperdrive all bloody day, needing a feed every hour because he is a wee bit fretful over his teeth. I tried, oh yes, not to give in but he got very bloodyminded about it and just screamed until I caved in. I think I managed to persuade him to nap once or twice for 20mins each time, hence why I am here now doing work that I should have been doing much earlier.

I have calpol'd him tonight to try and persuade him to stay asleep for longer than 2 hours at a time (the last 2 nights have been a bit hard although not in your league)

What have you been drinking then - was it good?

I'm sure you didn't smack him hard and he was probably being a royal PITA at the time. But you know you are doing the best you can for him at a very tough time in your life, so please be nice to yourself, don't beat yourself up over one little slip

hes crying sgoin i ned to go.icna t keep doing this its klling me

vodcas the key

Okay.

Smacking, yes. It is not good. The fact that you know that it is bad is a good thing.

That you feel guilty is a good thing.

But what you choose to do about it is what marks you out as the person you could be.

So what are you going to do? Will you give up? Or will you try?

Everyday we try and it is bloody hard but the fact we try makes us good people and good parents.

You give up and it's all for shit.

You keep trying and you are amazing.

which considering how you just keep trying all this time I think I know the answer to that one, you are more.

Tomorrow. come on and let's sort out another plan.

It takes lots of plans to find one that works and you can find one, let's work it out in morning.

In the meantime... How much of that vodka eh? You know you may as well switch to water the world is spinning anyway...