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Could do with a hug

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Lonelymum · 12/02/2005 19:40

Dh is leaving tomorrow to start new job. Won't see him all week (and it is half term so I will have 4 kids to myself all week). So what has he spent all day doing? Sulking because I spent the morning helping out with PTA jumble sale and all afternoon until now he has watched rugby and football on the TV. I feel so sad and anxious, but he isn't caring. Don't get me wrong, he is a good man really and I am not attacking him, but he is giving me the TLC I need right now.

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berolina · 13/02/2005 21:45

Hello Lonelymum, how are you feeling?
Hope things are as OK as they can be.

goreousgirl · 13/02/2005 21:54

Lonelymum - you're brilliant - 4 kids by yourself for 5 days - blimey - I kick up a fuss with 2 kids when my dh goes to Starbucks for an hour - no wonder you need a hug - good luck and well done you!!

LapsedGymJunkie · 14/02/2005 11:12

LonelyMum

Go and look at the remote..it's all yours

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Lonelymum · 14/02/2005 12:18

You are kidding aren't you LGJ? At present, ds3 (2 on Sat) is completely obsessed with videos and DVDs and all hell breaks out when one of the other children wants to watch something different. I come fifth in the queue for the remote at the moment!

Anyway, thanks for thinking of me and posting, also Berolina and Gorgeousgirl. Having survived one night and facing four more (and counting!) I am beginning to wonder why I make a fuss about one night away or even, as you say Gorgeousgirl, a few hours away during the day. But, I know why I do and I don't think this enforced longer period is going to help much.

It is particularly naff being alone today as it is Valentines Day. We got engaged on V Day 11 years ago and have been together on this day ever since. All the talk on Radio 4 seems to be the fact that it is V Day....

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alexsmum · 14/02/2005 12:24

oh lonelymum, we have talked before haven't we..our lives seem quite similar !! My dh has gone off to work this morning and i won't see him again now till friday.we too got engaged on valentines day, 9 years ago so it s kind of special. i have just recieved big bunch of flowers from interflora from him and it s made me feel reall sad..i miss him so much. i know he sometimes think i just miss the practical help ( and lets face it i do!) but i really miss him too! i married him because i wanted to be with him all the time , not once a week! just wanted to say i know how you feel.

LapsedGymJunkie · 14/02/2005 12:26

So did you resolve anything before he went ?, and I now suspect that now you have said Valentines Day is extra special, that it was playing on your mind as well and possibly his. Though he is a bloke so won't offer you false hope on that score

But rest assured he will be missing you all.

Re, the remote the little wotsits have to go to bed at some stage.

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Lonelymum · 14/02/2005 12:33

Alexsmum - apart from the number of years since we got engaged being different, your post could have been written by me! Such similar details and feelings! I say that line too, about not marrying him to not be with him all the time. I am so envious of couples who say they have never spent a night apart.......

LGJ - dh isn't up to all he should be (Mners in the past have expressed horror that he doesn't do any housework/domestic duties at all) but he alwasy remembers V Day. He left a card and a heart shaped box of chocs with ds1 to give to me! We did talk before he left: he just said he had to do it to support the family which of course I know. Just so long as he doesn't expect me to stay here any longer than it takes to arrange the letting of a house and a removal van!

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Aimsmum · 14/02/2005 18:56

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Lonelymum · 14/02/2005 19:04

Day started OK but gradually kids have been grinding me down. Now really p**d off with them and looking forward to bed time.

DH phoned to say the rented house should be ours by the w/e!! Because it is half-term and the kids haven't said their goodbyes at school, I don't feel able to move them on Sat. but dh suggested moving some things to the rented house and then if I can bear half a week alone next week, the kids could say their goodbyes and we could then move mid week. We will still have to come down here at the w/es to check the house is OK and so on, but my time alone without dh should be over by next mid week.

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Aimsmum · 14/02/2005 19:08

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 16:32

Feeling really crumby today. Only two days in and I just feel I can't go on. Keep feeling panicky and tearful all the time. I don't know what I am talking about really but this feels like I would imagine cold turkey feels like.

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misdee · 15/02/2005 16:37

{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 16:41

Somebody please talk to me for a bit!

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misdee · 15/02/2005 16:42

whats wrong?

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 16:44

Just panicking and sooooo lonely. Don't know how to get through the next three days and nights.

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misdee · 15/02/2005 16:48

its only 3 days and night. best thing is to keep as busy as possible. can anyone watch the kids for abit to give you a break, so u can pamper yourself?

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 16:49

No. Know absolutely no-one around. Everyone seems to have gone away and I am not that friendly with people anyway. I don't know why I keep having the panic attacks. I have never known the days go so slowly.

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LapsedGymJunkie · 15/02/2005 16:54

Sweetheart

I can't I am in work shouldn't even be on here, but hey I don't smoke.

Why don't you just surf around the acitve conversations and see if there is any one out there to chat to.

If it is any consolation Tammybears Dp or in this case P has just left her. Poor girl, at least you know where yours is and when he is coming back.

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 16:58

I know there are worst case scenarios out there. I am truly sorry for them of course. I can't post on them as I feel so low myself. I keep posting on happy "I've just found out I'm pg" threads, trying to cheer myself up, but eventually I have to turn away from the computer and face reality and it scares me.
Thanks for taking time out of work to say hello though.

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sparklymieow · 15/02/2005 17:00

know waht u mean. sometimes u just need to read something happy and not sad. avoid my thread at all costs!!

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 17:01

Which one is it SM?

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misdee · 15/02/2005 17:01

oops, the pc went loopy, its misdee not mieow.

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 17:02

Yours is such a pretty name, it is hard to associate it with bad times. Whereas mine just says it all right now....

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Lonelymum · 15/02/2005 17:02

Wow how did that happen? Are you two people at once?

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almost40 · 15/02/2005 17:03

How old are your 4, Lonelymum? My DH is off next week too. I have only 2 dds, so it is not as difficult as you. I'm around to chat, if you're still up for it.