Attempted suicide aged 13. Been overweight from early childhood and been picked on and singled out since then. Been prescribed the following over the last 15 years: citalopram, mirtazapine, fluoxetine, sertraline, paroxetine, olanzapine, aripiprazole. In the last 15 years, I've gone from overweight to super morbidly obese and weigh over 26 stone. Even if I only eat one meal a day, I still end up putting on more weight. Can't walk even short distances anymore without getting out of breath. Used to walk everywhere. Ankles are swollen most of the time and have left pelvic and left hip pain. About ten years ago, I lost some of the weight on Slimming World but losing the weight feels impossible now. Been voluntarily admitted into a psychiatric hospital once and been sectioned once as well. Never got proper help as all they're worried about is bed space. Lost all motivation to do basic things like brush my teeth and shower daily. Struggle with consistency, but when no-one has ever been there for you in life day to day, then how do you learn to show up for yourself? Might as well be dead as I'm barely living now.