I am under a huge amount of pressure at the moment.
DS knows this.
He does not see me phone Samaritans a few times a week to cry and offload (which allows me to reset).
I am doing my best to be a good Mother, but I've just tipped over with the pressure of what he's asking of me.
I monologued how unhappy I am. Doing a job I don't feel valued in, awaiting a job rejection tomorrow, trying to find a job before the end of the year (it's dominating every aspect of my life),I struggle to get out of bed, I feel completely inadequate as seemingly all DS's mates have parents able to take the kids to wherever they want to be at the drop of a hat. I am a lone parent.
I do have people checking in on me, but I have asked them not to talk about work. I don't know how many more rejections I can take.