Threw it all away

[LastSatsuma]

Has anyone ever been this stupid?
Or know what I should do?

I was hearing such awful voices this morning, they told me that my medication was poisoning me, a conspiracy to make me quiet and not speak out about bad things that have happened to me. So I threw it all away. In the bin on the street.

Now I'm not sure if I should tell anyone, I don't know if I will be in trouble. I'm confused about if I should have it or not, whether I really am being poisoned. There's lots of different tablets I normally have, if I asked the doctor for new ones I would be too embarrassed and it is bad that I am wasting their money. The voices now say I am going to be making everyone cross and think I am very bad, so I mustn't tell anyone. I'm asking here because I haven't got to speak out loud so they can't stop me.

I apologise if no one knows or has done this. It's not normal I know.

It’s fine! It happens. Just call your dr or the crisis team and let them know. It happens all the time. Xx

I already have pain inside my chest and tummy so that's probably because I did talk about the bad things happening.

It's not that. It's because you usually take omeprazole which is a proton pump inhibitor, to reduce stomach acid. You've got heartburn. Feeling stressed out won't be helping the condition. I believe you may be able to purchase it over the counter at a pharmacy. So that's one thing you could easily sort tomorrow yourself.

Not the same situation, but I once accidentally threw away steroid tablets which I'd been prescribed for an allergic reaction. I'd been cleaning up and decluttering the day before. I couldn't find them anywhere, turned the whole house upside down looking for them in the morning. Couldn't check the bin because it was bin day and had been emptied, but I figured that's where they must have gone by mistake, since they were nowhere else. So I had to get an emergency appointment with the GP that day. I didn't get in trouble and steroids are something some people abuse, so wanting a duplicate prescription did raise an eyebrow but the GP just told me to be more careful and wrote me a new prescription. I don't think any of your meds are anything people abuse, so there's even less chance of anyone thinking you're looking for extras.

You should tell the GP first thing in the morning. And tell them the truth that you threw them away because of voices, that part is important information for them to be able to help you. You don't need to remember the dose, it'll be in your records so the GP will know. The psychologist on Monday can't prescribe, only psychiatrist or GP can, so no point you waiting to speak to him.

Please don’t think anyone will be angry with you. I’m a mental health professional and we would much rather give you more medication than risk a full
blown crisis. Please contact 111/your team/your GP
tomorrow. Dont just tell them you threw your meds away, also tell them about the voices and how you are feeling. If you feel unsafe and can’t get hold
of anyone, go to A&E - don’t worry about admission, it’s always a last resort if it’s the only way to keep people safe and there are lots pf options for help in the community, like home treatment and crisis teams. Best wishes OP, I hope you get better soon. Remember you deserve as much care as anyone else. Treat yourself as kindly as you would someone else who is struggling.