Have had a very bad morning with ds1 & ended up losing the plot.
He stayed at my Mum's house last night & was returned to me at 8.25am this morning.
He immediatly wanted to play his gameboy & I said no, because of school in less than 10 mins.
He started wailing about this, making me get a bit cross, but when I asked him to get his shoes on a few minutes later he had a complete tantrum, telling me he did not like me etc & was refusing to put his shoes on.
I got very cross (not proud of myself) & ended up screaming at him!
It took him over 10 mins to get his shoes on & mil whitnessed it all, as she was around to look after ds2. (I work at the school that ds1 attends)
Anyway, I felt terrible & was on the verge of tears when I arrived at work this morning, as I felt like a bad Mum & hated leaving him upset.
Tonight when I spoke to my Mum on the phone to ask if maybe he was tired, I was told that my mil had phoned my Mum, all upset to say how she hated me getting all cross with him etc & had been crying about it!
I feel so awful & have been in tears all night.
Obviously I am not fit to be a parent.