Hi everyone,
I am starting to think that life just isn’t worth it for me. I went from thinking that I had everything to feeling like I have just been taken advantage of in my long term relationship. After the things he said and refusing to talk about marriage after nearly 5 years, I wonder whether a happy ending is possible for me. I used to be so full of excitement for life, expecting marriage and love to just happen for me. But now I am faced with the possibility of having to grieve any future I thought I had, because he has done things that I am starting to question.
It’s clear that I have nothing to look forward to in life and that the best years of my life are gone. I have other big worries and stresses that have happened, and I am wondering now if trying to get through each day is even worth it for someone who is feeling so broken.
I am sorry I am so depressed. I have tried to live a satisfying life, but all life has taught me is that trying never got me anywhere and that I end up with heaps of trauma just the same. I just want someone to talk me out of this mindset, but if literally nothing is going well, I don’t understand why fighting to stay happy is worth it.