Feel lost

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so on top of my ex partner being arrested for dv and dealing with his chaos ( counter claiming I abused him to police and social services and the social worker not being very nice accusing me of being on cannabis etc. I’ve know had bad news about a family friend ( my sisters childhood best friend) she has terminal cancer on her lungs aswell as tumors in her brain and pancreas. I just can’t deal with this anymore and feel suicidal. I can’t sleep or think straight anymore. I’m very emotional and don’t know long I’m going to last until I have a mental breakdown. I really need support right now and can’t depend on my family as they’re very upset about our family friend as am I .

I am so sorry you are having such an awful time of it; I am sure others will be along with some expert advice soon, but I am hand-holding virtually.
One hour, minute, second at a time, you can absolutely do this.

yeah it is too much at the moment especially with other things going on in my life. Thank you for your understanding. I have to get on with for the sake of my kids. Said family friend doesn’t want anyone knowing in real life that’s she’s dying. She’s only 29. I feel devasted.

Sorry was meant to say she doesn’t want anyone besides family/close friends knowing that she’s dying. It’s hard to know she’s very ill and not being able to support her as she is sisters best friend not mine but I grew up with her so feel upset. The other things I’m dealing with I am dealing with well considering the circumstances. I’ve applied for a non mol and will be applying for a prohibited steps order once my IDVA worker comes out on Thursday so I can get the ball rolling. Ex has bail conditions in place not to contact me but I’ve heard rumours that the case will be NFAD soon anyway so it’s more important that the court orders are in place before the bail conditions are over. Family are supportive but I can’t go to them everytime I feel down epically not now. I have 0 friends as they all distanced themselves from me as I took my ex back. I have no plans to ever contact him again after bail ends especially with him counter claiming abuse and telling social services that I’m on weed. (Lies). Social worker is concerned about my mh (no idea why) I’m on medication and finished therapy two months ago.

Well done, it sounds like you are doing amazingly well - it is hard when someone has isolated you so badly from your support system. You will rebuild, maybe not easily, but you will.
Might you be able to get back in touch with your therapist to talk things through now you have had a shock? If not, Macmillian might be a listening ear?

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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