Gone mad?

[Yesterdayschippaper]

I've reached out to crisis , I've lost my mind , can I write here ?

@Imbluedalale two crisis nurses came ,another assessment, more questions then sent home , that was it, I've been referred to the world it seems but the world is closed x

Hi @Yesterdayschippaper , how are you feeling ? Are you still hearing the voices ? Have you managed to get any support?thinking of you xx

@Imbluedalale still no help , why can't the help me quicker , I'm feeling like my life refs to end ,.I've told my husband , he wants to call the police , I'm shaking , I just want to be still and scream maybe or be gone , thank you for thinking of me , I'm not worth your thoughts though

The voices are screaming , they're telling me to go , in my slumber nightmares I tried to climb on top of my headboard they told me to get higher and higher , fail fail ,.loser loser is all they say over again

Please go to A and E again. Get your husband up take you and stay with you. He needs to tell them he’s not happy to take you back home so they have to do something.

I'm safe at home and will take the sleeping pills my doctor has prescribed and they and rest

Hi OP. I wish I could hold your hand and tell you everything is going to be ok.
You are worth my thoughts I promise you.
Please go to A&E as soon as you can , you need urgent help lovely .
Tell your husband to tell the hospital that you refuse to leave until somebody helps you .
Sending you a big virtual hug xxxxx

Morning, I hope that you managed to get some sleep.
I think that you should go back to a&e in the daytime with someone who can push for more support for you. Either your husband or a family member.
What you’re experiencing is called psychosis. The voices can’t hurt you, and they can’t make you do anything, but it is very very distressing.
If you feel suicidal you must tell your husband, and tell him all of the details. The best way for him to protect you is to remove from the house anything which you are planning to use to hurt yourself. If the voices tell you not to do this, or to keep it secret, you can safely ignore them and tell him anyway. He’s your husband and you trust him.
Sending you a huge hug. You have coped with so much in your life. You can cope with this and get better. Xx

OP, you need help. Please go to A&E with your husband whi can formally request a mental health act assessment as he is your Nearest Relative (legal term in the act) and they must consider his request.

Try and get to a hospital if you can, if you're at home with your husband let him call the police or an ambulance, you really need urgent help.

I'm so sorry you are so ill right now. I can't imagine how exhausted you are. Your partner sounds so supportive which proves how loved you are. You will have to talk to police about the £10, and you will get through that, I do not want to belittle your anxiety, but you sound strong and capable, just lost right now

Hi everyone , I thought I'd come back and thank you for all the support you all showed me. Ive had so many assessments over these last few weeks it's been difficult to keep repeating the same questions over and over. I have been prescribed Trazodone I'm thinking very hard if I want to take it , I have terrible health anxiety and just not sure , is anyone here on it ?

I’ve had a low dose of trazodone in the past and it’s really helped calm my mind. I don’t remember getting and side effects.

Did you tell the doctors about the voices OP? Please be kind to yourself. The voices are lying to you and you deserve to be here. ♥️ Please tell your husband and doctor if you end up feeling in crisis again. You got to let people help you, and that includes telling the truth about the voices.

@AzureCats I must have spoken to over 12 professionals now about the voices and everything that has been going on for so long , I'm sick of repeating myself , I was in a very bad place last week and ended up back in the A&E I was told I was taking up a vital seat or two as my DH was with me and the seats are for sick people , I came home , if my DH wasn't with me at that time I would have killed myself. I now am with a fire psych team but again they just ask me loads of questions that I've already answered before and I just don't see the point. My head is just so full it's so hard

Hello, I dont know anything about mental health, or your specific struggles, but I saw your post and just wanted to offer support

I'm sorry you weren't logged after in a&e. You are important, and you do matter.

Oh OP I wish I had read this before now! I have bipolar and had several weeks of psychosis last December/January, I thought the devil was in my head and kept thinking strange things were happening to my brain as well as getting hallucinations. I also had Postpartum Psychosis with after one of my children was born. It’s frightening.

The voices must be so scary, it’s awful that you’re not getting the support that you need. Have you tried headphones on with music playing to drown them out? Take it day by day, hour by hour, and keep talking to us. Anyone that you speak to from the mental health team, make it really clear that you’re getting suicidal and what the voices are saying to you, as that should make you a higher priority. Hang in there, I really feel for you.

Thank you again everyone , things got worse again on Monday this week I made an attempt in my life again, the police matter came to a close over a week again , I paid the money back £20 through a portal and that was it. Unfortunately my face and business and a video of what I have done is all.over social media ,.I didn't see.it as I'm not on it anymore but friends contacted my husband. I just want to die to leave this pain forever I cannot cope. I have the home based treatment team coming everyday day now with medication and support, my DH never leaves my side and if he has to he takes.me to a local lady who I work for whi knows everything and she looks after me. I'm not allowed to drive. I am terrified for my personal safety .I can't leave the house for fear of being attacked by locals either verbally or physically. My life is over even though I'm still alive for now.

It really sounds like things have hit rock bottom, I’m so sorry that you’re having to go through all of this, it sounds awful. Being very unwell can make you do very out of character things. I am glad the home treatment team are finally involved. Do you have a diagnosis?